Doing this right!

[Boykinbaby]

So in reality this will be my second W30.  My first started June 1st and went very well, even though the last 4 days were spent traveling and staying with extended family.  The hard part came directly after as my husband and I were in the middle of a 2 week vacation staying with family that, while not completely sabotoging me, didn't exactly make it easy to stay clean or even re-intro smoothly.  Add to that I wasn't able to cook my own meals 90%of the time or was forced to eat out in some less than ideal restaurants, not to mention getting food poisoning from a completely compliant dish!  I am glad to say that things never dissovled into doughnut binges or such(I did have a fresh strawberry milkshake, though only part of the smallest size possible).

 

So now here I am, back home and ready to do this all over again so that I can work on possible re-intro and what not in a controled fashion.  My goals are simple; eat clean, exercise at least 5 days a week, no eating out, no snacking, and better digestive health.  I'm not looking to lose weight, don't plan on taking measurements either.  I did lose in June but in the 2 weeks away managed to gain it all back, but since I hadn't planned on losing in the first place i'm not kicking myself for being "back up".  I am doing this, not only for my own health, but to show my baby girl that it's not hard to be healthy, that good foods make you feel good, and that if you're healthy you're beautiful no matter what your body actually looks like.

 

There you have it, my commitment as a late 20-something stay at home mom of an 8 month old BF girl to be as compliant and health concisous as I can be!

 

Wish me luck and bring it on day 1!

[Boykinbaby]

Eats for day 1:

Woke up @ 5am and had a hardboiled egg before taking the dog out for an hour walk.

meal 1: 3 egg scramble with pumpkin and mixed frozen berries, topped with coconut butter; coffe with coconut milk; steamedbroccoli, carrots, and snow peas

Mid day had a cup of Crio bru

Meal 2: leftover beefalo with turnip, carrot, peppers sautee; sauerkraut; green salad with radish, scallion, mushroom, tomato, EVOO, balsamic vinegar; small banana; serving of raw pecans

PrW: hardboiled egg and a serving if sunbutter

Went to an hour long yoga flow class

PoW: tuna, shrimp, sweet potato patty

Meal 3: baked chicken leg quarter; 1/2 baked sweet potato; sauteed broccoli, mushroom, carrots, onion, and peppers; 12 cherries; herbal tea.

I'll probably go to bed around 10 pm and get up at 5 amas usual since my little girl is better than any old alarm clock. All in all pleased and feeling great for day 1!

[Boykinbaby]

Day 2:

I actually got to sleep in till 8 am!

Meal 1: 2 jumbo eggs; 2 slices baked pork belly; sautee ofturnip, broccoli, carrot, onion, cabbage, and spinach; prune; coffe with coconut milk; 1/2 plum, 1/2 nectarine, shredded coconut

Meal 2: kombucha; big green salad with spinach, pico de gallo, peppers, radishes, broccoli sprouts, mushroom, and sausage; slice baked pork belly; celery stalk with mayo; small banana

Went to a hot yoga class for 90 min

PoW: tuna, shrimp,sweet potato patty; coconut water

Meal 3: leftover chicken leg quarter; roast baby bok choy; fried plantain chips; crio bru; 1/3 small green banana and 6 cherries

Feeling great, good energy level and stable mood!

Please feel free to leave comments on my meals if you think there is room for improvement or encouragements since i plan on doing a W51!

[Boykinbaby]

Day 3;

 

Woke up 8am again!

 

Meal 1: Smoked salmon fritatta with parsnip. broccoli, scallion, and tomato; Sauerkraut; prune; coffee with coconut milk; small banana with sunbutter

 

Went to 60 min hot yoga class

 

PoW; coconut water

 

Meal 2:  Chorizo spiced beef burger with pico and lettuce "bun" topped with homemade mayo and dijon; Roast sweet peppers; Baked Yucca and sweet potato "fries"; side salad with balsamic and sprouts; coffee with coconut milk

 

Meal 3: Smoked salmon "sushi" with carrot, celery, scallion, and sprouts; 2 baby dill pickles; cauliflour "dip"; Nectarine; Pecans

[Boykinbaby]

Day 4:

 

Woke up at 5 am

 

PrW- Hardboiled egg

 

60 yoga/pilates class

 

PoW- tuna, shrimp, sweet potato patty

 

#1-  ground beef, baby bok choy, carrot, mushrooms, and 2 eggs w/ pico; coffee with coconut milk; prune; sm banana

 

#2- Spinach salad with leftover chicken quarter, sweet pepper, sprouts, plum, walnuts, and balsamic vinegar; plantain chips; celery stalk with mayo; kombucha

 

Crio Bru

 

#3- baked pork chop with cabbage, apple, onion, and celery sautee; baked kabocha squash chunks; spoonful of sunbutter; dill pickle; sm. banana; sm cup of chai tea

 

 

Had a full day chasing the baby around while cleaning the house, went to the store and group storytime.  Energy good, digestion even better and mood excellent!  I did get hungry before bed last night, which might explain why I didn't fall asleep till almost midnight so I bumped up amounts of fat and protein today to head off any repeats of last night

[Boykinbaby]

Day 5:

 

woke up at 5 am

 

PrW- Hardboiled agg and 1/2 small avocado

 

Hour of hot yoga

 

PoW-Coconut water; tuna, shrimp, sweet potato patty

 

#1- Soup with bone broth, ground beef, carrot, shitakii, broccoli, scallion, peas; coffee with coconut milk; prune; egg + egg white; nectarine

 

#2- leftover pork chop, cabbage, apple, celery, onion; baked Kabocha squash and okra; mixed berries with cocnut milk & flakes

 

Crio Bru

 

#3- Turkey and cauli-rice skillet with carrot, sweet pepper, celery, onion, sage, scallion, and peas; almonds; pom-blueberry sparkling water

 

feeling good, making sure that i'm working out and eating clean.  no cravings but I didn't have many issues with that before my first W30.  slowly i'm trying to get my husband on board with cleaning up his eating, so far it's not gaining much ground, though he's not actively resisting.  I really hope to keep up this type of lifestyle with only a few off road forays on our few date night dinners out( our next coming up in august while i'm still doing my W52), 

[Boykinbaby]

Day 6

 

5am wake up

 

Prw- Hardboiled egg and 1/2 sm avocado

 

hour of hot yoga

 

PoW- fish and sweet potato patty, coconut water

 

#1- Coffee w/ cocnut milk; prune; Turkey, okra, mushroom, parsnip skillet; pumpkin, 3 egg omlette w/ coconut butter; sm green banana

 

#2- Kombucha; Leftover turkey and cauli-rice; green apple w/ sunbutter; kabocha squash

 

Crio bru

 

#3- Spinach salad w/ garlic lime steak, roast peppers and onions, radishes, carrot, pico, 1/4 small avocado, sprouts; 2 baby dill pickles; sm green banana; almonds; herbal tea

 

So I am deffinately sleeping better since this is the second night in a row that i've slept through my daughter waking up to nurse at night!  This is highly unusual since normally i hear every noise she makes( her bed is less than a foot from my side of the bed).  Waking up feeling rested, even at such an unholy hour and make it through the day pretty well.

 

  sometimes I still get hungry between meals, but so far have resisted snacking, and i'm already doing the higher end of the meal template so i'm not sure if it's just because of breastfeeding plus chasing an 8 month old, cleaning house, and structured exercise or what.

[Boykinbaby]

Day 7

 

well i went and jinxed myself with the sleep.  Last night my little girl was really congested and so didn't sleep well, which ment I didn't get much sleep either.  Ah well, I still had plenty of energy today

 

Woke up at 6:30am

 

Meal #1- Hardboiled egg; prune; coffee w/coconut milk; leftover steak and peppers; roast okra, mushroom and parsnip; sm green banana; 1/2 sm avocado

 

Meal #2- Chai tea; Spinach salad with sprouts, radish, tuna, raisins, pepitas, mayo, and mustard; carrot with babaganoush; mixed berries

 

Crio Bru

 

Went for a 30 min bike ride

 

Meal #3- Homemade pork sausage stuffed pepper; 1/2 mashed sweet potato; green peas; dehydrated pineapple; blueberry-pom sparkling water

[Boykinbaby]

been a few days since I've been on but I have been keeping a food log on paper so at least I have that!  Thankfully I'm having a super easy time staying compliant so far (10 days in!) and have avoided the anger that I got the first time I did a W30.  Also it seems like I may have convinced my hubby to attempt a w30 with me, which is great since I feel it is a great step to making a good food impression on our daughter.

 

Out of this whole experience that is the biggest goal for me.  I want to show her how to be healthy and happy with herself and her choices.  Even though I haven't been more than "chubby", if even that, I have always had poor self image issues that are only now slowly getting better.  I know it's going to be a long journey before I can truely say that I love the way I look, but a single step in the right direction is better than ten in the wrong one!

[ellenrose]

been a few days since I've been on but I have been keeping a food log on paper so at least I have that!  Thankfully I'm having a super easy time staying compliant so far (10 days in!) and have avoided the anger that I got the first time I did a W30.  Also it seems like I may have convinced my hubby to attempt a w30 with me, which is great since I feel it is a great step to making a good food impression on our daughter.

 

Out of this whole experience that is the biggest goal for me.  I want to show her how to be healthy and happy with herself and her choices.  Even though I haven't been more than "chubby", if even that, I have always had poor self image issues that are only now slowly getting better.  I know it's going to be a long journey before I can truely say that I love the way I look, but a single step in the right direction is better than ten in the wrong one!

 

Awesome! Good luck and great job so far! Mind sharing with me what you mean about the "anger"? I'm only on day 2 -- but I tend to experience some highs and lows to my moods... Would be helpful to know what could be coming!

[Boykinbaby]

lol for some it's a 'Kill all things' type of mood, meaning everything just ticks you off for little to no reason.  Mine was more getting 'Hangery' (hunger angery) because I had yet to transition to eating proper amounts. 

[Boykinbaby]

What a week!  food wise things are still on par and I have finally convinced my hubby to join the challenge!  So this will be the second week that he's been eating compliant, I am making him breakfasts to take with him to work to replace the oatmeal he usually buys, and he typically has leftovers of whatever I made for dinner the night before.  Since I cook compliant for myself he's basically been almost there, just the honey in his tea and the afore mentioned oatmeal before now.  Poor guy is having some of the carb flu symptoms as more a sinus thing but I'm pretty confident that after this week he'll feel much better.

 

I've started talking to my old boss about coming back to work in a few months.  This is a fun but slightly scarey thought as I haven't officially worked since a week before my daughter was born and by the time I start back she'll be close to a year old!  Thankfully I;ve kept my hand in the industry so my skills aren't rusty!  But the thought of sending her to daycare is kind of daunting, and while i'll enjoy the changing scenery of returning to work I know I will also miss seeing her grow and develope new skills.  bitter sweet.

 

On the W51 front....today is day 16 and the challenge for this week is no nuts.  I'm fairly certain that I am not digesting whole nuts efficiently, there fore I am cutting them out for the week and then seeing how my digestion handles them after that.  already I've noted that I have less bouts of gas/indigestion, so sadly I think that may have been the culprit.  Also this week I'm trying a few new recipes, including one that involves braising a whole rabbit!  This is super exciting, I love trying new things and new protien sources really perk up the meal plan.

 

So there we have it!  I had my hubby take some 1 week photos to that at the end we can see if I visably have changed in appearance, if not it's no huge deal but I'm hoping that it will help me finally see that I am healthy, strong, and most of all beautiful.  these are concepts that have been very difficult for me to interalise no matter how much I work out, how healthy I eat.  That is my main goal right now, to finally see what he sees when he looks at me, not what scociety sees when I go out in public.

[Boykinbaby]

Another week down and things are trucking right along where they need to be.  hubby is doing great with his first W30 so that reallyhelps make it a stronger experience this time around.  we have our first W30 date night coming up sunday where we will be eating out so hopefully that is a smooth process as well. 

 

Had something surreal happen earlier this week.  I went to spend the day with my mother and on the counter she had some great looking muffins (the kind with crumb topping and icing, ect) and prior to all this I would have snagged one happily.  instead I simply looked at them, felt nothing yet couldn't stop looking back at them, waiting for something to happen.  it was strange, like my body knew that at one time I would have lusted after them and yet there was enough disconnect in my brain that there were no desires or cravings to actually get up and eat one.  anyone else have something like that happen?

 

some changes to my routine; i've added Magnesium Citrate supplements to my diet in hopes it helps with muscle fatigue after work outs and it seems to be doing a good job, as well as making my sleep better and my digestion regular.  hoping to be able to wean off of them after a month or so since i really hate taking pills but if not then i suppose i can live with it. 

 

Notable meals this week; Braised whole rabbit with fresh figs, lemon and sage!  i think it turned out delish, though rabbit has way too many little bones for me to want to cook it super often.

 

New recipes that i want to try this week;  Beef liver pate!  i've never had pate and the only liver i've had is a little bit of fois gras so this is a big leap of culinary proportions for me! 

[Boykinbaby]

So here I am, 30 days gone and (while i'm technically doing 51 days to make it to the end of the month) i'm feeling great for the majority of the time.  I've found that whole nuts are not my friend and that maybe I need to lessen the amount of carbs that I consume each day along with taking out Fod-Maps.  I really want to finally iron out all of this digestion upset, even if the symptoms could be considered "minor".  To me it's not so minor having gas or stomach gurgles or intermitten constipation.  So a few more tweeks and we'll see if that helps clear any of this up.

 

I will say that I am also cutting back on carbs to try and work into a more Ketogenic state of living, running more off fat stores than sugar, so the results of that should be interesting!  I will try and keep updated on how i'm doing till the end of the month, post  some pics tomorrow so that maybe I can finally see the results that i'm feeling.  That is going to be the hard part, accepting any physical changes and loving my body even if it's exactly the same as before this W30. 

 

I am Strong!  I am Healthy!  I am Beautiful!

[Boykinbaby]

So here they are, my before and after.  the all black "outfit" are the befores and the one with the blue top were taken on the morning of day 31.  Not sure if I can see any differences though if anyone else out there can chime in!

[Boykinbaby]

So, it's been a while since I posted but things have been all over the place and I doubt anyone really needs to see that I eat basically the same things every week as well as do the same work outs, ect.  How boring     but I decided to drop another note to update, say that i'm still hanging in there for the rest of the month, maybe longer, who know. 

 

I'm getting better with my body dysmorphia, though i think that's still a long journey for me that probably has no real end.  some days are harder than others, today being one of them.  it seems that no matter how I eat or how much i do/don't exercise some days i feel like i look huge/ugly/just plain unattractive and it has nothing to do with how i physically feel.  i can feel energized, my digestion is great, i'm satisfied at meals and yet if i look in the mirror i can feel myself cringe away from what i see.  i hate that this happens, that it makes me second guess the amount of food i consume or the amount of activity i get into a day.  it just plain sucks!