Round 2; Epic Mind Battles and Sugar Dragons

[Guest Annie B]

I would have hit the 1/2 way point yesterday... but instead I was hitting the reset button. Friday (day 11) was a beautiful day, and my hubs and I went for a hike and I was just feeling on top on the world. My shorts felt loose, and my face felt clear, and I started thinking about having a margarita... Ok, this is just another sugar craving, right? Well I couldn't stop thinking about it! It was like my mind was completely overrun, by thoughts about how I had done really well making it that far on the whole30, and maybe now I should just try 'moderation' and go ahead and have a little fun. Oh, how tricksy my little mind is. Funny thing too, I wasn't craving sugar physically at all... I wasn't hungry, I wasn't tired, I had eaten 'just right'... this was purely psychological. 

So, I indulged. And I didn't go off the deep end, at all. But one nights margaritas turned into 2 beers the next day, and while I avoided gluten (which I have been doing for years), I definitely dove head long into my favorite dairy products! And, I don't know about yall, but alcohol makes me ravenous... I have to eat about 3x as much food to keep my blood sugar from bottoming out.

So by Sunday morning, I knew what I had to do. I also knew, that I had started the first round, slightly less than 100% committed to the full 30 days. What I (re)learned over the weekend, was just how sensitive my body is alcohol (even a little), and just how powerful my subconscious mind is. I believe resolution comes from the heart... and commitment comes from the mind. I was not fully committed or resolute the first time, and this time, both have clicked in to place. I believe that when some deep subconscious mind worm (or sugar dragon) starts rearing it little head... I will be better prepared to recognize it and slay it with my swords of resolution and commitment.  

Ok, I'll admit, I'm under the influence of Game of Thrones...  its all swords, and magic and epic battles... 

Anyway... Round 2, Day 3, and I couldn't be happier to be back on track! 

[birder]

Thank you for the perspective and congrats and realizing your weakness.  I am doing a 2nd Whole30 after finishing one successfully in May.  I let sugar take control of my life again while on vacation and I don't like it but in my head I've been saying I don't really need to do another one but I just want to support my 18 year old daughter who decided to do it.  After reading your post I realized I was setting myself up to fail.