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Mourning the loss of my love affair with food.


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Hello again! 

My re-intro is going well, at least I feel ok with what I have been doing so far... 

 

What I have noticed, however, is more psychological than anything else--- having that feeling of "looking forward to re-intro'ing this or that" because I missed it so much, etc etc and when I finally do, I am completely "let down" bc one or two bites of a certain food no longer elicits the same response it once did when I could annihilate an entire plate of it all those weeks ago.  I KNOW this is a good thing, that was one of the main points of doing this, but it makes me SAD!  I am embarrassed to even mention this.  Anyone else have this silliness going on?  

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I often have the same reaction to foods I don't eat often.....I'm often massively let down when they don't meet my expectations, but I see it as a good thing! The let down makes me want it less, or never. It makes me super-selective about things I eat and I choose good quality over quantity any day.

I'd rather be feeding myself food that not only tastes delicious, but is not making my body less healthy. I can't believe that I used to think half of the stuff I don't eat anymore tasted good!!

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YES!  I felt exactly like this during re-intro.  I am seriously bread addicted... but when I did go back to that it was a total let down.  I didn't want my old diet and yet I hadn't really ingrained the W30 lifestyle into my routine / tastebuds yet.

 

So I'm doing another w30 now.  I am a little sad about losing the love affair, but because I could get b@tsh!t crazy with bread, sugar and dairy, I think it's a breakup that is best for everyone :)

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No, it isn't the same. But you know what IS delicious (SWYPO, so only when you're DONE W30ing here people!)? The chocolate pie thing that NomNomPaleo posted yesterday. Seriously delicious. Even my coconut-hating hubby liked it (granted, we had it with real whipped cream on top...).

 

Every day food? No. But special food? Absolutely!

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I was hardcore grieving my food today. Indian food with friends = me lusting after naan. I'm still wanting it, but considering that in my lamb korma curry/chilli paneer there was gluten (based on the gluten stomachache) I know I shouldn't have had it. 

 

*sigh*

 

Sometimes, I miss it a LOT. Today was that day.

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Probably. I mean, I could make it with GF flour at home, and I know/knew that. But it was more of a "right now, I want this enough that I might consider punching someone in the face" thing when I smelled it coming out of the kitchen and to our tables. I was surrounded by garlic naan, my appetizer didn't come out until my main course did so I didn't have anything to stave it off with, if that makes sense.

 

Today, I still remember how good it smelled, but I don't want it. It was just for a singular moment, I was considering violence and the stomachache I'd get just to fulfill the craving. And that's why food issues are weird to work with.

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Hi again---

so, two things: 

1. Help a forum newbie out--- what does SWYPO stand for? 

and... 

 

I have been ok with my re-intro, but I may be "lucky" or "unlucky" in the fact that I didn't have or didn't notice stomach issues with food before the Whole 30 (gluten didn't do anything to me that I could tell, dairy sometimes made me feel phlegmy, but that was never enough to be a problem) so my reintro was pretty non-eventful, symptom-wise. I felt heavy at times, but.... nothing horrible.

What I can say is, with this thread topic "Mourning my love of food" it has seriously given me some food for thought.. (Oh, the puns!)  

I live in the south-- home of southern comfort food, southern hospitality, bag parties, jewelry parties and pampered chef parties.. I work in an office where very grateful patients bring us food goodies on a daily basis and have coworkers who LOVE TO EAT.  JUNK FOOD. 

 

Last night I went to a pampered chef party hosted by a coworker and pretty much just "let loose" and ate (for the first time in over 8 weeks) what everyone else ate.  I had tortilla chips and Cesar salad and some kind of chicken pasta prepared in the microwave and this horrible pumpkin concoction on pastry dough and what felt like a ton of other crap.  Went home, and it wasn't the stomach ache that made me upset, it was the fact that I let myself be pressured into eating things I KNOW ARE BAD FOR MY HEALTH.  I was ashamed.  and it wasn't even good.  like, at all.

SO, What next? What do I do now? I did the plan, it was great, got results, re-introed, went on a bender and now its commitment time... 

 

I am only going to eat food that I KNOW is good for me. 

 

I can do that, right?  its simple enough???   :)

 

And now, for the last tidbit, I would LOVE some good {Paleo} cookbooks that people have tried and enjoyed immensely.  

I have used PaleOMG and Well Fed through my whole 42, and love those.  

Suggestions? 

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SWYPO - sex with your pants on. AKA making a "paleo" version of something that, really, isn't going to be as good as what you want, and therefore will be disappointing. Like having sex with your pants on. :)

 

Yep! You can totally do that! In the end, I don't eat "Whole30" - I eat what works best for me. We're mostly grain free at home because that works best for me (and my weight). We go through (with two of us) one loaf of gluten free bread every two weeks (used to go through 2 loaves of bread per week!). I 100% do not eat things that I know will get me sick. So MSG (I had a hangover from it the second-to-last time I ate it and food poisoning type symptoms the last time I ate it) is way out. Rice doesn't bother me, so I eat it if I'm somewhere that is serving it (sushi or Indian restaurants). I try to avoid whole corn since I get nothing out of it, but it's not a deal breaker so much as I realize that it's just filling me up without me getting anything out of it. Quinoa I'll eat if I'm at someone's house and they make it. I tell people before I go to their house that I'm gluten free and offer to help them plan something that won't bug my stomach, but several people have really enjoyed discovering things I can eat. Like the zucchini lasagna (granted, it was full of cheese, but it doesn't bother me!) or quinoa-Italian stuffed peppers.

 

It's about discovering YOUR relationship with food, not mine. What works for me won't work for you. I still cook W30 compliant meals that I enjoyed regularly, or other meals that are almost W30 compliant. I just wish Moroccan meatballs didn't require so much work...I'd have them more often if they didn't! There's no reason for you to be ashamed of the fact that you do feel better (or not) eating something or not another thing.

 

As for resources, I haven't met a NomNomPaleo or TheClothesMakeTheGirl recipe I DIDN'T like yet. I'm super looking forward to Well Fed 2 (asked for it for my birthday). I use some things from Elana's Pantry or just google "recipe INGREDIENT paleo" and you'd be surprised what's out there.

 

Hope this helps!

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And now, for the last tidbit, I would LOVE some good {Paleo} cookbooks that people have tried and enjoyed immensely.  

I have used PaleOMG and Well Fed through my whole 42, and love those.  

Suggestions? 

Check out Paleo Comfort Foods by Julie and Charles Mayfield. Lots of "southern based" items. Not all recipes are Whole30 compliant, but as you're in a post-Whole30 world, that may work for you.  This was my first Paleo cookbook and I've liked many of the recipes I've tried. http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/paleo-comfort-foods-julie-sullivan-mayfield/1100639849?ean=9781936608935

The authors also just released a new cookbook, Quick and Easy Paleo Comfort Foods, which Melissa and Dallas recently reviewed: http://www.whole9life.com/2013/10/quick-easy-paleo-comfort-foods/

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If you liked Well Fed than you should get Well Fed 2. Bigger and better! Even got me to eat liver!  :ph34r:

 

I also really have enjoyed Practical Paleo and Against All Grains. 

 

I have a pretty big library of cookbooks...I have little to no restraint for what my husband calls "food porn" and Amazon prime (bad combo). 

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Hmm, I do have 3 lbs of liver in my freezer from my 1/4 cow that I'm terrified to use. I have been considering wimping out and just giving it to friends with dogs (or to the dogs themselves when they come over).

 

The liver recipe in her book calls for chicken livers. I've been meaning to write on her page and see if using beef liver would work as well. Or you can grind it up and add it to meatballs. Be adventurous and try it before you give it away. Knowing that I can eat it now is kind of empowering especially with how cheap it is.

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I remember this one experience I had with food. I had just gotten some fresh chantarelles and I stir fried them with some onions in butter and added cream to turn it into a sauce. It was so rich and flavorful that every bite was just pure extacy. The thing was though, with such a flavorful dish, you can't devour it and finish a plate in five minutes. I had to stop after every mouthful to experience the intensity of it. That's the sort of love affair I want to have and that's how I want to express my own love through cooking. Pure flavors that dance on your palate and make you take a deep breath and sigh. Processed foods or other foods that are eaten in bulk just aren't the same. Then again, neither are more healthy options that are bland.

 

I'm sure that those who are allergic can create flavorful paleo type dishes. Like a decent medium rare steak with a sprig of thyme and a bit of quality salt and pepper with a side dish of roasted root vegetables (with a teensy bit of honey, if possible) or a green salad with good quality olive oil and balsamico. Good quality ingredients means that less can be more. There are so many options with the different basic flavors (sweet, sour, salty, etc.) and textures.

 

I got this one book I just love, called The Flavor Bible. It's basically just a big index of what flavors go well together. For example, let's say you've got some halibut. The index for that says that it's in season in spring-summer, the weight of the flavor is medium, volume is quiet and there is a list of different techniques that are used to prepare it (bake, braise, broil, etc.) The flavors that go well with it are in three (sometimes four) tiers, based on the amount of expert recommendations. Best would be lemon, garlic, shallots, wine, etc. Then there's chives, fennel, mushrooms etc. And then we have aioli, couscous, walnuts, etc. Actually, just looking at it now for the sake of writing this introduction, I just fell in love with that book all over again!

 

I guess what I'm saying is that the love affair with food doesn't have to be the kind where you wait for it to give you something and then it becomes abusive. You can express your own love towards yourself and others through preparing dishes that leave you feeling nurtured, seducted, loved and energized. Not comatose and gassy :-)

 

P.S. I just realized after writing all that, that I've forgotten to treat myself like that. I got so focused on just finishing the thirty days that I forgot to truly live most of the time during it. Silly me.

 

P.P.S. I love liver when it's well made :-) A traditional way over here is with a bit of bacon and lingonberries and mashed potatos.

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