Really! Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 So I am day 7, and I have some thoughts, first was the eerie ghosts in the machine, when I woke this morning at 12:30 a.m. and found myself after about 40 minutes of trying to go back to sleep staring at my computer screen and reading my Whole 30 Day 7 email. It was all about slips and cheating and here is where it gets eerie, they talked about overeating grapes and nut butters. Before I had shuffled my way over to the computer, I had stopped in the kitchen and grabbed a handful of grapes and a generous tablespoon of unsalted almond butter, so there I sat staring at the words meant to admonish me for sitting there with my cheeks stuffed like a squirrel with grapes and licking the last delicious smudge of almond butter of the spoon. Awkward!! 2nd thoughts this morning are "mind games". I kind of think this Whole 30 is a big mind game, don't get me wrong I am not being a hater, I am choosing to be let myself go on the ride, but really what is the difference between the physical and psychological trauma of my food issues and the people on this forum and the authors of the plan exhorting a rigid eating plan. I mean really...what is the difference between being controlled by my addiction to certain foods, and trying to change my eating behaviors by following a rigid eating plan that is being dictated to me by people that I don't know. Is it choice? The book tells me that my past food choices have created a dynamic where I don't have a choice, but by following their eating plan-that takes away choices, I am exercising a choice to break the bonds of sugar addictions and food allergies. But following the plan means I feel punished and have to start again if I slip and eat sugar, or cheese or have a graham cracker. I completely understand if you have food allergies the need to adhere to strict eating plan, I get the reasoning behind that. It just feels this morning like this is a rigid ideology that seems to me to be just a different albeit healthier form of enslavement to food and my relationship with it. Or is this some mind trick that my addictions are playing on me this morning? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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