sheisaclerk Posted December 4, 2013 Share Posted December 4, 2013 As a food writer, cook, and 5 years recovered atypical anorexic/bulimic, food is, naturally, a huge part of my life. Learning to love and enjoy food saved my life-- literally-- but, after a long look at my habits, I realized it's time to clean up shop. While, sure, I'm seasonal and organic and as local as I can get and I walk about 5 miles for my commute, I am a Diet Coke Head and had grain and/or white potatoes at every meal. Specifically bread. Oh, sweet goodness, bread. I would punch a puppy for a piece of garlic bread right now. Or cornbread with honey butter. Or a nice warm baguette with aged balsamic and a nice California olive oil... You see my point. While, on paper, I'm perfectly healthy: I have all the symptoms of PCOS and hypothyroid-- thin, fine hair on my head, a robust lady-mustache, rosacea, chronic fatigue, weird periods, a garbage immune system, anxiety, and a BMI of 39*-- with perfectly normal bloodwork. Combined with my family history of autoimmune and endocrine diseases (MS, Diabetes, Lupus), I know I won't stay "healthy on paper" if I keep up this SAD way of living for long. To me, the Whole30 represents an opportunity to heal from 24 years of dieting, anorexic/bulimic behaviors (5 years free! turning 30 in Jan.), and the hormonal damage they caused (that have obviously contributed to the symptoms above). Years of work with nutritionists have done amazing things to my mental state and eating habits (Ellyn Satter forever!!), but it's time to up my game. I'm not focused on weight loss-- all bodies are good bodies and, even when I was in the throes of anorexia eating less than 400 calories and running 8 miles a day for months I never had a BMI below 26, so I'm not expecting to ever be able to lose lbs-- but I am excited to see myself get down to a body composition where I feel more athletic, more flexible, and less, well, old. Those full-body photos (from the side. EEEK) were a real eye opener. What makes it so attractive is that I still get to eat well. Food is important. To me, and in general. It's something to be savored and shared. The respect the guidelines give to what fuels us is what brought me here. 4 days in (late to the forum game!) and I've had nothing but gorgeous meals. Perfect fritattas, my favorite brussels sprouts and green beans, wild Alaskan salmon (for dinner tonight!), moroccan lamb stew, the first salad that I've loved probably ever, and my fair shake of amazing local bacon. Sleep is going to be a challenge for me. My fiance works until 9pm M-Sat so, if I want to see him for a reasonable amount of time, I gotta stay up until at least 11. I'm working on moving my dinner earlier in the day (but it's gonna be SUCH A BUMMER to not eat together anymore) -Day 1- Predictably easy! Wake: 8:30am Breakfast 9am : 2 eggs on a bed of greens and peppers, 2 slices of bacon, small portion of pineapple black tea Lunch 1pm : A small portion of Moroccan Lamb Stew that was so good, I froze the rest for an easy meal on a bad day with a green salad Dinner 8pm: Split a ribeye with my fiance, green beans, broccoli, and half a sweet potato, with liberal olive oil for cooking Bed: 10pm I had some trouble the first night-- crazy for chocolate or french fries. The meal didn't feel "finished" without something crunchy, chip-ish, maillard reaction-y. Roasted sweet potato just wasn't enough. But I just drank some water and went to bed. -Day 2- Second puberty?? Wake: reluctantly at 7:00am Breakfast 7:10am : 2 muffin tin frittatas, 2 slices of bacon Snack around 10am: banana-- noticed that this made me want to die significantly less. Lunch: Huge salad with chicken, bacon, broccoli, avocado, peppers, almonds, spinach Snack around 3pm: Apple-- thought it might have the same keep-me-from-murdering-everything effect and it did! Dinner 9pm: Chicken with mushrooms in a half-hearted home made stock "gravy" (1tbsp of tapioca starch, just to give it a little "cling"... probably won't do this again), broccoli, greenbeans, lots of ghee and garlic Bed: 12am Oh man. I was stinky, popped up 4 zits (I have normally very clear skin other than rosacea redness on my cheeks) including 2 gnarly "undergrounders," had funky breath, and cried reading a work e-mail. -Day 3- Oh this gets.. worse!? Wake: barely 6:30am Breakfast 7am: Banana, cashews, coconut chips 2 slices of bacon Snack: the souls of my coworkers Lunch 12pm: Round 2 of yesterday's salad plus an apple Snack around 5pm: 1/2 the portion of sweet potato fries I had prepared for dinner and 1/2 an avocado with garlic powder, salt, and cider vinegar Dinner 9:30pm: Paleo Crockpot chili stuffed with veggies and green beans Bed: 10:30pm o_O hooooly hangover batman. Oh I felt like garbage all day and was angry at EVERYTHING I almost quit. Twice. But then I reminded myself that, if I did that, then I wouldn't be doing myself any favors and that I would have just killed a pound of bacon in 2 days for no personal benefit. On my walk home from work, I started sweating like crazy and thought I was gonna konk out. While it was an unseasonably warm day, I think it was more a result of low blood sugar and funky electrolytes. I had a salty, fatty, carb-y snack and felt a lot better, though still GRUMPY, and knocked out a bunch of veggie prep for the week Apparently I'm fighting the sugar dragon, too, despite not having a big sweet tooth. Who knew. -Day 4- This could be worse... zzzzzz Wake: 8am! slept through all my alarms Breakfast: on-the-go Banana and cashews were all I could grab, didn't have any emergency protein on hand Lunch 12 pm: left over Paleo Crockpot Chili with more green beans. I'm done with green beans for a bit Dinner-- hasn't happen but Wild Atlantic Salmon with lemony, garlic brussels sprouts and mashed cauliflower are all prepped and ready to hit the pan! shooting for an earlier dinner and another early bed So far today has been great, albeit sleepy. I haven't quite woken up but I'm less mournful of off-plan foods. I'm planning some of those grabby-hands feelings about chocolate again tonight (and now that I type that, there they are), but I was able to write a blog post (I have a non-paleo food blog) about pear cider today without feeling deprived/crazy/etc. Right now, this seems doable again. Looking forward to updating tomorrow and getting to know all of you better! *while an imperfect measure. still. Eeeesh! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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