runninglawyer88 Posted February 13, 2014 Share Posted February 13, 2014 I am on day 12, still compliant and don't really have "cravings" per se. I ate rather healthily before with the occasional whole wheat mini bagel, bowl of oatmeal, or bowl of kix cereal-- I arrived here because I'm someone who always strives for better. If there's something out there that could make me healthier, happier, and more comfortable then I want to do it. My problem is this...today I've been asking myself "WHY?! Why are you doing this to yourself?" I'm not sure what my answer is. I mean I hate that I feel bloated, full, and have incomplete eliminations quite frequently on my "normal diet" but I make due and it doesn't cause too many issues I suppose (other than annoyance and discomfort). I don't even have any cravings so I don't know why I have this nagging self-doubt about continuing. What gives?! Maybe it's the fact that, in general, I don't like restriction. I don't like demonizing food and making moral judgments about MYSELF based on the foods that I eat. I once suffered from anorexia and it took a lot for me to be able to eat "normal foods" and I guess I always have to second guess my motivation for self-imposed restrictions. I'm not saying I have anything inside of me that sees this as way to unhealthily restrict my food choices but I think because I've conditioned myself to question such behaviors that that might be why I'm having doubts/questions. I'm not really sure what I'm trying to say here or even what I'm expecting in return but I just had to say SOMETHING about the way I'm feeling/thinking. I don't know what to make of it or how to turn my brain off. I'm eating PLENTY and in a way that is much less restricting than probably ever before (given the amount of oils/fats that I'm using and the fact that I'm not weighing/measuring anything that I eat) but I keep questioning myself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bloodshotbetty Posted February 13, 2014 Share Posted February 13, 2014 Whenever I feel like this I pick up "It Starts With Food" to remind myself of WHY. I can't count how many times I have said to myself in the past 15 days, "This is stupid. WHY AM I DOING THIS?!" I struggle with turning my brain off- especially the self reflection. With everything I do I am questioning my motives. It's exhausting! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
runninglawyer88 Posted February 14, 2014 Author Share Posted February 14, 2014 Glad to hear I'm not alone. Thanks for sharing. I should read it again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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