amy3509 Posted March 15, 2014 Share Posted March 15, 2014 I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I use it to avoid a broad range of emotions (boredom, loneliness, stress, you get the idea) and for entertainment. I have done 4 whole 30s over the past 3 years, in between which I have swung between sticking fairly close to paleo and eating very terribly. I have learned a lot about myself these past 3 years and am better able to avoid emotional eating, have sought counselling to improve emotional health, etc. Recently I completed the 21 day sugar detox after several months of being sugar dependent. It went very well and for the first time I truly felt I had stopped eating emotionally. The difference in my execution of the 21dsd and whole30's I've done is I ate very limited fruit (some days none at all). Each time I reintroduce sugar I start very slowly - with things like 85% dark chocolate, not being so strict about small amounts of added sugars in a meal eaten out, that sort of thing). It gets worse over a matter of weeks and within a few months I'm back at square one. When I eat sugar of any kind I can feel my emotions and mood changing. I feel like a different person. With very small amounts the change is barely noticeable, with large amounts I barely recognize myself (quick to temper, easily annoyed, depressed, anxious, etc). I am beginning to wonder if I may need to completely avoid sugars forever in the same way that a recovered alcoholic cannot have a drink ever again. I come from a family where alcoholism is common. I am not an alcoholic and can take or leave alcohol, for which I am grateful every day. I've seen what alcohol has done to the people I love and I encounter addicted individuals in my work at homeless shelters daily so have seen the extreme effects there. I understand a great deal about addiction and so I don't use this word lightly and I don't mean to overstate my issue - people often use the word addiction when a much less serious word could be used. Avoiding sugar for the rest of my life would be a serious feat and obviously the ideal situation would be to be able to ingest it in small amounts at infrequent intervals - like I do with alcohol . What I'm wondering is whether for some people that is impossible? Am I being too dramatic in thinking that I may not be physically capable of ever treating sugar like an occasional indulgence that I can take or leave? Hopefully I have explained myself well. I have a very foggy head today after too much dark chocolate and other carbs yesterday and am having difficulty articulating my questions. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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