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Day 14 - Had an anxiety attack today!


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I've been doing very well. Today is day 14. About the only thing I miss (I don't crave - it's not that severe!) is a glass of wine. Every couple of days I think, "I'd really like a glass of wine!" Other than that I've really enjoyed it. Have made several of the recipes and my boyfriend has really enjoyed them. Today we went on a motorcycle ride with friends. Everything they did made me crazy! We stopped for gas and everyone smoked like crazy, then the leader got us lost. 4 hours later, we finally find our way to our destination. A home-cooked meal joint out in the mountains. I had packed my lunch so I ordered a side salad and unsweet tea. Half the group had pie. When we left, 5 minutes later we STOPPED FOR GAS AGAIN AND EVERYONE HAD TO SMOKE! Then, we get back on the bikes and 10 minutes later we stopped at a Sonic so EVERYONE COULD HAVE ICE CREAM. I burst into tears and told my boyfriend I just wanted to go home. I was bitchy and cranky and weepy and tired. I'm 50 years old! This was a little crazy! Any words of wisdom? I really can't do this during the work week - I might lose a contract!

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Is this completely out of character for this kind of situation? Because I would be cranky as all getup after that day regardless of how I was eating (in fact, pre-W30 I would have been even more of a mess, because I was a "must eat every 3 hours or I'm hangry" person).

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LOL! Thanks so much. Truth is, the more people on a ride, the more stops. Plus, I don't smoke so it makes me crazy that the ones that do seem to manage to delay things so they can get in two cigarettes each stop! I did talk a bit about Whole 30 when asked about bringing my own food. The one gal who made the comment, "Eating organic is just too expensive. I don't have the money to pay those prices," is the biggest smoker of the group. I thought, "Hmmm, 2 packs of cigs a day = $10-15 per day = $300-$450 per month. My grocery bill certainly hasn't gone up that much!

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I remember my first time and the first couple of weeks - I had my grandson here and it had been a while since he could come - I had  - some kind of crankiness that was way off for me - (it was the no sugar, no dairy, no ...... anything I was addicted to - which I realized was more to some of my habits at times than actually the food.  Love the "it begins with food" book - it is very marked up now (have used for a year (minus a month) and love it - when I get off track - I carry my book and read the parts that help me remember what some of that food is doing to my body.  I agree with the other post about checking what you would normally be like on a ride that already isn't your favorite thing all the time.  Then evaluate what you are reacting to.   - I had to start getting better sleep and take better vitimins esp B's - even with the fresh food.  My husband now also eats what ever I fix.  I've been holding steady - but since Easter have had trouble getting back to where I want - so planning to start - I had a false start a while back - too many things happened - lost one of our parents and totaled my car (other car crossed my lane in front of me in town).  Some temporary life altering things - but I always have my coconut oil - eggs & spinach w/onion and any herbs I decide to use.  plus yams, squash, or sweet potatoes to take the edge off of no toast (don't even miss it or the dairy anymore).  Have found a whole array of new food that has become normal.  It gets easier as you go!! 

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LOL! Thanks so much. Truth is, the more people on a ride, the more stops. Plus, I don't smoke so it makes me crazy that the ones that do seem to manage to delay things so they can get in two cigarettes each stop! I did talk a bit about Whole 30 when asked about bringing my own food. The one gal who made the comment, "Eating organic is just too expensive. I don't have the money to pay those prices," is the biggest smoker of the group. I thought, "Hmmm, 2 packs of cigs a day = $10-15 per day = $300-$450 per month. My grocery bill certainly hasn't gone up that much!

 

Oh, don't get me started on people who "can't afford X, Y, Z" but smoke!

 

It's entirely possible that the behaviour of this group of people would have made you crazy previously, but this time you weren't comforting/medicating yourself with treats or wine (not suggesting you would drink and ride!) so you had to actually deal with your emotions, and you were unprepared for that?

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There are two kinds of bikers. Those that want to ride and those that want to hang out alot and ride a little. We did two weeks with another couple - 2500 miles and had the best time. I think I just need to stay away from rides with more than a certain # of people. I don't have a problem with groups of people in general, but I just don't understand why you can't get gas before we meet, etc. And I am on the back of the bike so I can drink, but I don't out of respect for my boyfriend. Anyway, I think it was a "Kill All the Things" day!! Thanks for the support!

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