dlgallian Posted August 5, 2014 Share Posted August 5, 2014 I'm on day 22 and I'm really struggling with no alcohol. I've been through several social events where I did not drink but felt very isolated because of it (wine tasting, weekend in the mountains with friends, parties, etc). My friends have not pushed me at all to drink, but I am less loose, less social, and get tired a lot more easily when everyone is drinking and I'm not. I've also been on a few online dates and they were pretty awful because I didn't have alcohol to help with nerves/conversation. This is all making me really question what an appropriate relationship to alcohol is. Alcohol is a huge part of my identity. I love making cocktails, touring distilleries, and finding great, obscure stuff to give to friends or serve at home. I am truly happy learning about, smelling, mixing, and consuming alcohol. It's more cocktails than wine - cocktails and spirits are my biggest creative outlet. I have an extensive bar and my friends have come to expect a delicious, creative cocktail from me at almost every social event. I make homemade liqueurs and bitters. It's a big way I give and contribute creatively. I feel like I'm really missing some creative outlet in my life without this part of my identity, and it's making me cranky. However, I also realize that I really, really like to drink. I haven't been craving ANYTHING except a cocktail. The thought of never having another drink in my life makes me depressed (I'm 31). That said, I get tipsy but very rarely get drunk drunk. I have never blacked out. I haven't done anything stupid or unsafe since college. I make sure I'm in safe situations and control how much I drink, and I never drink alone. I am very, very aware of my relationship to alcohol, because I like it so much and know that I need to be. Alcoholism doesn't run in my family, but we all tend to like our cocktails. I guess the bottom line is - how do you find your balance with alcohol? What does a healthy relationship look like? How do you know when you're balanced and ok, and how do you know you're in denial? I know that alcohol is a really loaded topic, especially on a health board, so I'll ask for respect, balance, and thoughtfulness here. Thanks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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