aksims123 Posted December 28, 2014 Share Posted December 28, 2014 My name is Angel. A long time ago in a body far-far away I was a highly competitive ice-skater (from the Tonya Harding era lol!) I went to college on a full scholarship as Vermont's Junior Miss, got a Master's Degree in ten months, I can seem to conquer anything except my eating/fitness habits! I am 5'3 and currently weight 206 lbs. I am 8 lbs shy of my highest weight ever. Twelve years ago I lost 80 lbs in 5 months going to one of those pill dispensing medi-weightloss clinics. Although everyone around me said I looked amazing I felt awful, got sick all the time, lost some hair, and eventually put the weight back on. All 4 of my grandparents died of cancer and both of my parents have battled it. I am a time bomb! My stomach is constantly upset and I am sick of food making me tired instead of giving me energy. I have a great deal of head knowledge. I see so many people in programs like this being insanely successful in every way, but I cannot seem to slay this dragon. Being an "over achiever," I am perplexed by my inability to get a grip here. I teeter between "healthologies;" like weather to go cold turkey or make small changes over time. In general I make it about 3 days max 3 weeks before I find a reason to cave. I think about food way more than the average person. Literally, 100+ times a day.... what to eat, when to eat, what fun/yummy food centered thing is coming up. Is there a "addiction" line or am I just undisciplined? Any advice is greatly appreciated! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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