After 3 years of watching me eat paleo and do a W60 my husband did a W30 last spring with great success. The not-so-whole-9-months since then have him back at square one. So - irony of ironies - *he* wants to do another one and I'm going to try to go along for the ride.
Where I'm at today:
(the bad) my binge eating has been worse, I've essentially stopped eating "meals" and am eating mostly fruit, I have a MAJOR case of food-soothing-post-work going on
(the good) I'm doing crossfit 3-4 days a week, I'm getting 10000 steps a day most days, I'm still 90% W30 compliant in terms of food items - just not template (unless the template is 2 lbs of grapes for dinner)
I was really on the fence about doing this with him. I really just don't want to. In other words, my "addictive voice" (Brain Over Binge and Rational Recovery are the tools I've used when I've backslid) really doesn't want to. Partly I'm lazy - W30 is a lot of prep. Washing fruit is easy. Partly working 12 hour shifts and bringing three meals is a pain. Partly the highlight of my day is coming home from work and sitting down with that giant bowl of grapes.
But I thought that with him doing a W30 and helping with the cooking (aka, I just bring left overs since 4 nights a week I'm not home for dinner anyway since I work until midnight) that I'd try.
So here are my goals:
- I bring enough food (+ extra) with me to work. And I DO NOT EAT when I get home. Unless I have a meal. But I will not come home to a fruit binge.
- I eat when I get up. Every since I was a kid I've never had an appetite in the morning. I usually eat my first meal around 2 PM. This is for two reasons (1) rationalized reason: I've been like this forever (2) more truthful answer: I can "save" my calories for the post-work-day food soothe-fest.
- the scale goes away
Thats it. Changing to W30 compliant foods is not a change for me. But I'd like to get a handle on the addictive behaviors of food being such a reward.
So today was day 1 (or maybe a trial run, since I failed on Day 1 Meal 1 )
M1 fail, didn't eat. Not hungry. Run time got delayed because it was so cold. Ran 3 miles, stopped at the park at did 15 pull ups, 45 pushups, 45 pistols in 3 sets.
M2 (12:30): left over Asian burger, bowl of mashed kobucha squash, scoop of coconut milk, seltzer and tea
Snack (5:30): 3 crispy fried eggs. 5 carrots.
M3 (7:00): left over Asian burger (today was T-1 for hubs, no food prepped - those 2 burgers were the last of the prepped protein in the house), pan fried broccoli, scoop of coconut milk, handful of strawberries, sliced red pepper, a few carrots while the burger heated up
No dessert, strawberries were on my dinner plate. Having a cup of peppermint tea right now. Not super hungry today which made it easier. I think the fat helps too. And that solidified coconut milk is really just like eating whipped cream
Impressions today: day 1 is always easy