PainterB Posted April 2, 2015 Share Posted April 2, 2015 Day 16. Yesterday was not one of the better ones: first I let loose a rant on a post in this forum, then I felt like getting through the workday afternoon was going to be the HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE, then after 10 minutes of a restorative yoga pose after I got home, I was all energetic and got all the onions, carrots, beets and bok choy planted. Slept like a baby too. And today I feel really good. This is how it's going for me....and I keep being so surprised that I am having such emotional responses to eating/changing this way. AND, no matter how logically I understand the concept that change is not fast after 40 years of a dysfunctional relationship with food, I keep running smack up against the complete and utter belief (NOTHING to do with logic) that the *decision* to change means that it will happen any minute now. Where is my magic wand, dammit? Plus, my age between my ears is not the same as age in actual years. ("Who IS that person in the window reflection? OMG, it's ME!") My body just doesn't respond as fast as it used to, things aren't in the same place they used to be and I am getting a big lesson in how to be gentle with myself. That is taking some getting used to, let me tell you. Tomorrow is another adventure! Link to comment
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