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Starting over :-(


Suzanne72

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So 3 days ago I cheated. Not a big cheat, but a cheat. I didn't feel like any snowball effect was happening and I didn't want to start over so I clicked the link in my daily email that indicated I'd had a good day. Two days ago I cheated again. Again a small cheat and I continued to be dishonest with myself and Whole 9. Yesterday I did great all day but did another small cheat at night. I still clicked that darn "I made it" link at the end of the email. Today I woke up feeling horrible, both physically and mentally. As much as I hate the idea of starting over at this point (this should be my Day 22), I find that I must. Really 30 days is not a long time and I'm more pissed at the food demons for sabotaging my success. I never did end up writing down any goals for myself and so I will be writing some today. Also, I did not read my daily email yesterday until this morning and now I see that this is a common time for cravings to return. Had I read that in a more timely manner, I might have saved myself at least some of this grief. I'm also going to start logging my journey. I thought I could do this on sheer willpower with a little support from this forum, but the part I was missing was the accountability.

So here I am - September 12th - Day 1 - Take Two

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Hi Suzanne!

I had to start over twice as well. But my misteps were accidental. The first time I had a mistep I nearly let myself spiral. I did have a bit of a breakdown, but overall I decided to stick with it and not to lose composure. But I made the choice to add on days to my original 30. I had to be honest with myself and admit while it wasn't really my fault it wasn't 100% clean either. So now I'm doing the Whole 45.

Remember if you cheat, no one knows but you. But you have to live with the consquences. This is for you - not anybody else.

Best of luck to you! You can do this!!!!

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No shame in starting over! Giving up completely would be worse. :)

Some people can do this once and change their life. I am not one of those people. I have been making a slower shift in the right direction most of the year but after many months of trying I am in a really good place about it right now. Still more work to be done, but each month it gets easier and I get closer to being the healthiest me I can be. That's plenty good enough for me. :)

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Thanks everyone for the encouragement. I am determined to be 100% successful this time. :)

Greg, I do really enjoy the emails. I find them very reassuring and encouraging. Most of what is written in them resonates with how I am feeling on that particular day. There are some sections that I gloss over, but overall I'd say my money was very well-spent.

And jhmomi - what I LOVE is that it never once occurred to me to give up. I was just disappointed with the idea of starting over. I can feel changes in my health already and I'm not ready for these feelings to end. Just got a little antsy is all and let my demons get the best of me. And I know a cheat is a cheat is a cheat, but I am also glad that my cheats were not monumental so it's not like I'm just throwing the program out the window, I just started a little re-introduction before it was time. :)

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Suzanne72 I am so happy that you started over! It is hard to admit but I had to restart 2 times before completing my first W30! Today is my Day 30! I am SO glad I restarted... it was well worth it. I feel more confident in my choices but I still have issues I need to work on... Sugar is still calling my name... So... I have decided to take mine to W60 and look forward to feeling this good longer!
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Good luck starting over! I'm thinking about getting the daily email... do you find it helpful? Encouraging? Just curious...

Yes... the daily email support is the best! Ironically (or not :) ) It gives you the information when you need it... Best investment I have ever made.

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