Hopeful but nervous

[firestorm531]

I've finally finished reading both my books and I'm really looking forward to the new recipe book coming out in December.

 

My whole30 journey is an attempt at regaining my health post cancer treatment.  While I've been 'clean' from a cancer perspective for 1390 days, the toll that chemo and radiation took on my body has been significant.  Damaged nerve receptors, chemo induced fibromyalgia (whodda thunk it), cognitive function deficits, osteopenia, chronic bronchitis (asthmatic since age 8 and I think the radiation played a roll in my bronchitis), PTSD, depression, anxiety and weight gain.  But hey, I'm still here LOL

 

I'm hoping that whole30 will fix the fibromyalgia and I wonder how the 'hormone balancing' will effect someone like me, who takes Arimidex due to my hormone positive cancer.

 

Why am I nervous?  I have a bad sugar addiction!  I love fruit, most veggies (ixnay on the onionsay), most proteins but its my sugar addition that I fear most.  I found it humorous to read that this isn't hard, beating cancer is hard - but I gotta tell you, my sugar addiction scares me more than when I faced chemo and radiation.

 

What I do know...I'm tired of being in pain all the time, I'm tired of being 70lbs heavier than when I was first diagnosed, I'm tired of being addicted to sugar and I'm tired of being tired lol  I want off this merry go round!

 

Anyone in a similar situation?  Advice?

[andreap26]

Hey there,

I can definitely relate to being tired of being tired. It's frustrating being in a seemingly impossible situation. You feel stuck & yet, you can't bring yourself to accept defeat. 

Congrats on being cancer-freeform 1390 days! That is a huge accomplishment & you should never forget that you were strong enough to beat cancer. Hang in there, you'll get your life back

 

[OncoWarrior]

Hi Firestorm,

I saw and responded to a post of yours on another page, but will respond to some here, too.

I am a bc sister.

Hey, Congratulations on your 1390 days. Maybe 1391 now?.

Keep on fighting.

Why am I nervous?  I have a bad sugar addiction!  I love fruit, most veggies (ixnay on the onionsay), most proteins but its my sugar addition that I fear most.  I found it humorous to read that this isn't hard, beating cancer is hard - but I gotta tell you, my sugar addiction scares me more than when I faced chemo and radiation.

 

What I do know...I'm tired of being in pain all the time, I'm tired of being 70lbs heavier than when I was first diagnosed, I'm tired of being addicted to sugar and I'm tired of being tired lol  I want off this merry go round!

 

Anyone in a similar situation?  Advice?

First of all, it is not your addiction you fear, but your withdrawal. New stuff is always scary. But look at what you have faced already. So, my "motherly" advice to you is this: lose the fear. Fear is a waste of energy. Just go for it. One day at a time without sugar; one meal at a time without sugar.

Every success builds up your Warrior Goddess strength!

And, yes, those withdrawal headaches or whatever you get are not fun, but they will be over soon.

Drink plenty of water. You can do this.

 

As far as the weight thing goes, I am happy to tell you that I lost 4 pounds during 5 weeks. Not everyone loses so much; some lose more; but I really feel a lot better than I have in years.

 

And as for tired, well, now I sleep so much better and wake up with more energy. If I did not have this Achilles tendon problem I would want to go for a walk or a run every morning.

 

Here's another thing: I have some digestive issues (upper GI) from the cancer treatment which includes silent gerd. Much improvement already with Whole30.

 

Wishing you all the best,

 

natasha OncoWarrior

beating cancer one day at a time