bumblebeebottle Posted February 10, 2017 Share Posted February 10, 2017 I completed my first whole30 in March 2015 strictly for elimination diet purposes. It was disappointing, mostly because I was nursing my 4-month old son who had weeping oozing infected eczema head to toe, and I ate a TON of eggs and sunflower seeds while eliminating and it did nothing to help him, and come to find out he is allergic to both of those foods. My son (2 and 4 mos) is now is perfectly fine now that we avoid dairy, eggs, sun-seeds, peanuts and walnuts for him. I also didn't tackle any of my food demons caused by a lifelong battle against my weight. I snacked when I felt like it. I didn't eat big meals. I worried about calories. I weighed myself often. When I came off whole30 I felt great. I was the leanest I had been since having children (but of course was not satisfied with the number on the scale). I am always wanting to lose 10-15 lb and the further I get from whole30 (chasing a # I was when I was borderline starving myself), the more I get back into counting/restricting my diet / not eating sufficient meals to then snack, mixed in with some binge eating behavior (hangovers). I gradually gained roughly 5 solid pounds. The problem is not my weight, it is pretty steady and I feel pretty good, always working on my fitness which is pretty low right now, but overall I feel attractive. I definitely could be leaner but I think I am only 5-7 pounds from that. The problem is my behaviors, my crutches, my fears, my loss of control. That is the major point I need to work on, so in this round of whole30, I am going to tackle my snack dragon and work on eating slowly so I can control myself and stop myself from eating when I'm satisfied. I do want to lose fat, but I am sick of the cycle of counting/restricting, then finding myself not feeling and when I don't feel well, I eat and snack uncontrollably. I have a hard time stopping. I have a hard time identifying hunger cues (lifelong dieter here of course); if I feel any sort of pang I identify it as hunger and grab something to snack. At one point in my life I restricted fat in my diet so much I would get light headed between meals and I would NEED to eat or feel I may pass out. That feeling has carried over to me now even though I am pretty well fed. I constantly nibble while preparing meals. It is embarrassing. I started this journal to talk myself through snack times. I am on Day 5 and I haven't been perfect about not snacking, but I don't feel the need to start my 30 days over because this is a journey and I am learning. The journey to not snacking will never end, even when I re-intro foods. I really want an afternoon snack right now. I am not hungry. I know I am not. I know I am thirsty. There is a container of nuts that I roasted and salted myself that would be so easy to just grab a couple! I know I am kind of bored, I have been home with my three kids for the past 2 days. I have plenty to do but I guess not much has enriched me. I work from home so I float from half-paying attention to the kids while working, to trying to tidy up, to doing a little activity with the kids. I need to get more focus in my life. Focus on work in spurts; focus on my kids when I am done with a task. Stay out of the kitchen. Put things away when I am done. Learn to breathe through different feelings of digestion. Drink water. I can make it 2 hours until dinner. When I have dinner I can eat a nice fatty and satisfying meal. I don't need to taste the carrots and cauliflower I am chopping. My eating times are/should be 6:30am, 11:30am and 5-5:30pm. I don't usually eat after dinner but I do have a hard time putting the breaks on, I have a hard time stopping once I start. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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