Whole30 Suzanne Log

[enchantedchamel]

It's Day 1!  To be honest I was really worried about this when I did my shopping the other day.  How many times have a started a 'lifestyle change', spent a ton of money on supplies and groceries only to bail or fail part way through.  Heck!  Sometimes I don't even make it through the first day!  I'm hoping that the awareness of my past diets and lifestyles becomes a source of strength as I go into this.  For one, I was thorough this time.  I didn't jump from awareness to action like I have so many times in the past.  I read the book.  I planned.  I accepted that what I might get out of this isn't exactly what I want but actually might be better.  I'm giving myself the space and permission for the next 30 days to complete this.  As I went for a walk this morning I considered that the only person or reason I'm doing this for is me.  I think that is also a first!  I've had a chronic cough for years and have been unable to tie it to any one food plus I can't smell half the time, my nose is stuffed up.  I usually stay away from gluten and dairy but for the past year my job put me in a position where I started eating those things again and I just want the reset and them out permanently, or at the least the awareness which is the culprit and the one to avoid.  Beyond that I'm not working in a job where I need to be super fit, I'm not dating, in fact I'm the happiest on my own with my 10 year old son and my 8 year old dog that I've ever been and would prefer to completely focus on myself for as long as I can.  Those are two big reasons in the past that have pushed me to diet.  Not this time.  It's 110% all me.  That's a relief to be honest.  It's nice to finally not put all those other things ahead of me.  I feel like I finally have a chance to know myself inside and out so in the future I can put up boundaries and stay true no matter who or what comes along.    

[enchantedchamel]

Day 7 today or Day 2 Take 2.  Unfortunately I was working an event on Sunday and I tried a sample of veggie broth that had red lentils in it.  Total bummer.  I just couldn't not account for it so I'm counting the tiny sample as a flub and restarting but still keeping track of my original timeline in terms of how I feel and how I look overall.  And overall the real change is, I'm LOVING being in the kitchen.  I feel like in the past couple of years since I've been on my own with my son and things got really stressful with family and work I lost the love of being in the kitchen and things really shifted into survival and simplicity mode for a while.  All of sudden I'm feeling like a kitchen queen!  I've done lots of cleanses and fasts and diets in the past and I'm not having any problems sticking to the foods I'm eating, not snacking or trying to replace foods that I'm missing.  I feel like that is more cause I don't feel deprived.  I'm having small moments of awareness where I'm offered something or I'm in line at the store and I would normally grab a snack where I have to just check myself and say, this is your weak spot.  But it's been quite easy not to snack and to turn down offers cause amazingly I'm always full.  WOW!  I did not know if I ate 3 solid meals a day I would not be snacky.  Now, I wouldn't mind if all my clothes were fitting better cause there seems to be no change there and for a few days last week I was actually experiencing increased stuffed nose, chronic coughing, and dry mouth in the morning which were usually signs in the past of eating too late at night and eating foods I normally avoid like gluten and dairy. I assumed that was all those foods returning for a second time on the way out?  It's nice going into second week slash second start feeling the apprehension that I had last week totally disappear and instead I'm inspired and just plain happy about having made the choice to do this.  Please pants fit better and my life would be complete.  LOL.