Shawnnita W30 Log 2017 - Start Date 1/6/17

[Shawnni]

My Why:  

 

Day 1 

Woke up feeling moody and very lack of energy.  

M1: 2 eggs, 1/4 avocado,  zucchini, onion, sweet potato, silverbeet, pulled pork, salt, pepper and chilli powder. mandarin
Why: nourishment for my body 
Emotions: Going through the motions, getting my focus on and enjoying this process.  There is joy in my being, I'm taking a small step out of the bereavement pit that seems to be full of emotional snakes for me.  I'm shedding my skin, it feels good.  I'm ready to start a fresh, start something new, move on.

M2: pulled pork, steamed veggies, curry powder, 1/4 cup coconut cream
W:  I feel it's time.   
E:  Fearful of not eating until too late in the afternoon and then getting "hangry"

M3: Chicken breast, stir fried zucchini, onion, sweet potato, and silver beet
W:  nourishment
E: feeling proud and successful in my first day

Fluid intake:  3500ml water & 3 coffees

Day 2

Woke up feeling exhausted and a bit ordinary - it's been that way for a few weeks now. One foot in front of the other.

M1:  2 eggs, pulled pork, zucchini, onion, sweet potato, silverbeet, 1/4 avocado
W:  It was 7 am, time to get my day started, I have a busy day planned
E:  Missing my Mum and my brother-in-laws this morning, feeling a teary and needing cuddles this morning.  Put paint on a canvas first for the first time in a week.  That felt good.

M2: 1 egg, tuna with W30 Mayo, rocket, celery sticks, apple
W:  It's 2:30pm - it's time to nourish my body
E: Relieaved that my first radio show is over since the passing of my family memebers.

 

 

 

 

 

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[Shawnni]

@SugarcubeOD, hey there, can you tell me if there is a way to edit my previous post?  I realised I didn't put my "Why" in at the top. Thanks

 

[Shawnni]

I don't think there is a way to edit the previous post.  I realised I didn't complete my Why.  Sighs….anyway, it came to me more clearly this morning.  So here it is.

My Why:  Since most of my eating is emotional eating (or has been in the past) my why for this round is to recognise the emotional things that are challenging me and why I want to eat.  

June 2, 2017
M3:  1 cup of chicken broth on it's own then, steamed veg, pulled pork, curry powder, coconut cream, mandarin 
W:  I was going out, I knew there was going to be non-compliant foods and drink there, I wanted to be full when I went there. 
E:  nervous and a little anxious.  

The next morning, feeling very pleased that I went with a full stomach as being in high anxiety situations in the past I would have eaten food and drank beverages that would make me feel very unwell and jittery (sugar)

June 3, 2017
M1:  pulled pork, sweet potato, onion, rocket, mushrooms, zucchini, two eggs, black coffee
W:  nourishment, I felt hungry even after drinking a glass of water
E:  feeling a little excited I would have the house to myself

M2: 2 eggs, W30 mayo, mustard, beef broth, mandarin 
W:  It's 3pm, I'm over due for nourishing myself, I'm not sure why I waited so long.
E:   Feeling motivated, listening to music and feeling good about the things I'm getting done around the house while every one is out.

 

M:3  Steak, cos lettuce with red capsicum and 2 jalepaños, sweet potato, banana
W:  Feeling hungry!  Needing nourishment, drank 500ml before deciding to eat
E:  tired, lightly worried, headachy 

All in all I feel it was a successful day.  

[LesTodd]

Yummy meals! I like how you are keeping this journal with emotions as well as food. Keep up the good work!

[Shawnni]

On 04/06/2017 at 8:42 AM, LesTodd said:

Yummy meals! I like how you are keeping this journal with emotions as well as food. Keep up the good work!

Thanks, @LesTodd How are things going for you?

[Shawnni]

Day 4 - Sick as sick mate, 

M1: - Nothing at all, don't come at me with food, I'll spew on ya.
W:   Tummy bug?  It's going around.  Headachey
E:  Put me down now!  Green dream me!  Stomach pain is my biggest weakness, how in the good lord's name did I have THREE children! 

M2:  banana, cuppa tea
W:  I felt I must eat something, I had the shakes and my headache had gone full blown to a migraine.  Pretty sure it was detox crossed with not eating. Must eat something
E:  Worried, do I need to go get a needle at the hospital for my migraine. Do I need to take an Epsom salt bath to get the toxins out? Do I take some acetaminophen and have a medication hangover tomorrow?  

M3:  Steak, steamed veg, sweet potato, 1/4 avo
W:  Must eat
E:   exhausted and in pain

Shortly after slept for more than 13 hours.

 

[Shawnni]

Day 5 (today)

M1:  banana, 2 poached eggs, spinach, cherry tomatoes, sauteed mushrooms 1/2 avo, black coffee
W:  feeling the need to seriously nourish my body
E:  joyful, contented, slightly motivated to face the day but still a little worn out.

 

M2:  I forgot to eat
W:  thinking about all the work I needed to make up on, ignoring prepped food in the fridge
E:  hyper-focused

M3:  chicken and vegetable soup, made with homemade chicken stock, silverbeet, carrots, onion, celery,  and then a mandarin
W:  I needed to nourish myself, I felt joyful to have good healthy foods
E:  Joyful, contented, tired. 

[Shawnni]

Day 6 

M1:  2 eggs, pulled pork, zucchini, onion, mushroom, ghee for cooking/sauteing, sweet potato with 1 TBS of ghee
W:  I need to get back on track and eat properly otherwise it's not a W30, it's a starvation diet.  Get your shit together Carol!!! 
E:  Feeling moody and kill all the things are churning around in my head.  I try to put my nice hat on this morning before getting out of bed. 

M2:  chicken and veggie soup, mandarin.  
W:  It's 2pm and I'm feeling the need to nourish myself so as I don't waver this arvo at the 3pm mark. 
E:  Accomplished as I've been working on a task for the local radio station and I've finished it.

M3:  lettuce, cucumber, tomato, 1/4 avocado, jalepano juice, cooked mince, sweet potato with 1 TBS ghee
W:  family meal and feeling hungry
E:  experiencing a bit of kill all the things when thing go wrong today a bit frustrated adn husban is being persnickity and the full moon is coming.  I feel overwhelmed. 

 

[Shawnni]

So I'm annoyed.  I didn't log Day 7 or 8 but I'm so proud of myself to say that I have been doing brilliantly.  Go me. 

 

Today June 9th's Log

 

09:00
M1:  2 poached eggs, spinach, cherry tomatoes, 1/2 avo, mushrooms, black coffee
W:  nourishment, just simply to nourish my body
E:  This feels SO good not to be reliant on food to fix my issues.  

M2:  steak, 1/4 avocado, sweet potato, apple
W:  It's 3 pm, I didn't feel hungry until 10 minutes ago.  I need to nourish myself
E:  happy and contented but worried.  Maybe I should be eating only 2 meals a day since I'm feeling full for such a long period of time.  Am I eating too much fat in the day? 

@SugarcubeOD any chance you could talk to me about the worries I have in M2? Thanks <3

 

M3: (this hasn't been eaten yet but my plan is steak again and green leafy vegetables and a lot of them and a mandarin with a cup of tea.
W:  I'm starting to feel hungry now, like H.U.N.G.R.Y.  
E:  I'm wondering WTF is up.  Hearing Macklemore and Ryan Lewis singing "Let's Eat" in my head.  NOT where I want to be.  Need to practice some serious mind control with my self here.