Noboru Posted November 4, 2012 Share Posted November 4, 2012 I'm on something like day 29 or 29, so the end is in sight. It's been a rather stressful month with lots of work and a steep learning curve in a relatively new job. Somewhere between that and the black coffee and the absence of calming glasses of wine on friday nights or nibbles of fresh hot bread over dinner (I bake; the bread is gorgeous), I find that everything feels pretty harsh, as if there are no soft edges. Meat and veggies, veggies and meat, a few hazelnuts, a few sweet potatoes. I've been crying a lot; my boyfriend have had some epic fights. He doesn't want me to do this ever again, not this strictly. He said it was disturbing to see how pinched and stern I look these days (I think I've lost a lot of weight for the given amount of time). I'm eating enough. I'm eating a diverse diet. Not hungry. I cook a lot. I can't figure out why everything just feels harsh these days without the added softness of a little bit of milk in my coffee or a sip of wine once a week. We went to a Greek place Friday night and I had my soda water, grilled lamb shish, the veggie bits of a Greek salad, a garlicky eggplant dish and some roasted red pepper in olive oil-- lovely things-- but felt like crying because his feta looked lovely, as did the bread and tzatziki and wine. Not that I craved those things (I wasn't tempted, weirdly enough) but I hated how my dinner options felt so stark and harsh. I've never been a sugar addict, I drank moderately, never binged or had food issues. Not sure what's wrong. I was thinking of doing Whole 30 during the week after I finish, with a moderately more open weekend option (a glass of wine, a piece of bread, etc). Is this crazy? Am I crazy? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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