Nancy H. Posted November 14, 2012 Share Posted November 14, 2012 Well I have been living on my high horse for almost two months. Doing OK. I thought. But I have fallen off that horse and landed face down in the mud along with the sugar dragon, the bread dragon, the ice cream dragon, the candy dragon. You name the dragon and we became very good friends. Looking them right in the eye. And I did not like what I saw. I have completely wasted my Whole 30 experience. I have spent the last two weeks eating all the psychologically-unhealthily, hormone unbalancing, gut disrupting and inflammatory foods I could get my hands on. And what did I learn from that you ask? I feel terrible. I hate myself for falling into those old habits; my sleep habits have gone back to being so disruptive that I only sleep for an hour or two at a time; my personal bathroom habits are so irregular now; I think about non-compliant food all the time and I know this must be causing some inflammatory reactions in my body. And all for what??? A few Starbucks latte's and slices of their Lemon Loaf? A few candy bars? A few 4 oz containers of ice cream? A bag of popcorn and a diet coke? But one thing I did learn: I did not FALL of that horse. I knew exactly what I was doing. I CHOSE to eat those foods. No one made me do it. All my actions are my own choice. And right now I CHOOSE to eat healthy. I am going to follow this program the way it is written. I have ordered the Whole 30 Daily Service starting tomorrow. I am excited to be starting this. I know from the first time that the meals are delicious. I have so many compliant recipes that I will never go hungry and look forward to sharing my thoughts with others. I am 79 years old and I have lots of plans for the next few years. And I do NOT want some unknown disruptive thing going on in my body to change that. I have two Grand Children getting married next year. And I plan to be the healthiest, sexiest Grandmother in attendance. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xandra Posted November 14, 2012 Share Posted November 14, 2012 Hi Nancy, I love following your story. You are an inspiration to me and probably many others here. I don't read "fail" in your story, I read "experience". Like Thomas Edison said, "I haven't failed. I found 10,000 ways that didn't work." You learned something going through all of this. Maybe the most important is how to get up, dust yourself off, and get right back on the horse. You know how good you feel on plan, and you now know how terrible you feel falling off. I had an experience recently of binging by eating 3 pieces of my son's birthday cake. I didn't just eat them, I ate them mindlessly, as in, after it was over, I wasn't even sure if it was 2 or 3 pieces that I ate. Sure, I was stressed throwing the party, but I had a plan going in, and the plan was that I was allowed to eat one piece at the party. Guess what? Didn't work, felt awful, not doing it again. A week later, I allowed myself to sit down and eat just one piece. No binging, not mindless, just seeing if I could handle a sweet treat. That didn't work either, still felt awful, not doing it again. So guess what now? I don't miss the birthday cake. It's off the list and in the category of distant memories of stuff I used to eat that made me feel awful. The longer I get away from it, the more distant it becomes, and the less of a gravitational pull it has on me. Use the memory of your experience in whatever way helps to put this food behind you. You are eating a new way now. Your old foods make you feel awful. Remember them accordingly and let them rest in peace. Welcome back to the land of healthy and happy living. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nancy H. Posted November 14, 2012 Author Share Posted November 14, 2012 Xandra.......thanks so much for your words of wisdom. I especially like the Thomas Edison quote. I will definitely remember that one. "10,000 ways that didn't work." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Loraine Posted November 15, 2012 Share Posted November 15, 2012 Nancy i guess this whole Whole30 is a steep learning curve. We can allow ourselves to be stupid, but we can come back and start again (kicking ourselves for the time wasted) and hopefully remember the lessons we learned during the trip down that slipperty slope. Good for you, you have a briliant mindset and I am sure you will get back into good sleep patterns and feeling much better in yourself. I had a dental appointment this morning, so had a banana for breakfast and flew out the door. On the way home I had to stop for air in my tyres, and then into the local mall for food for the dog. On the way home I pass right by a MacDonald's and I was sorely tempted to go inside as I was starving, luckily the sensible side of my brain informed me that I was but 2 minutes from home and I had fresh banana muffins and quiche - so onwards I went with a arily smug feeling. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jennrider Posted November 15, 2012 Share Posted November 15, 2012 I admire you for putting it all out there. I have enjoyed reading your words of encouragement and advice to others on the forum. Treat yourself the same way. I had a couple of weeks after my W30 of making some poor choices. I felt like crap and finally decided some things just aren't worth it. It's a learning process, but I find its become easier to eat this way as time goes on. I know I will not always make the smartest choices, but I just keep trying. I took my hubby out to lunch for his bday yesterday. Instead of going to our favorite seafood restaurant (I don't think I could have passed on the crab bisque), we went to a Brazilian place. I ate a big salad and managed to pass up all the great looking cheeses. I think I ate half a cow. They come around with all kinds of meats that are delicious. I had a little stomach discomfort because I overrate. The biggest problem came last night. I didn't eat dinner because I was still stuffed. Munchies hit hard around 9:30. I didn't make the best choices and I'm paying for it today. Back on the wagon I go. It is great to realize that I made the choice to eat crap and now must pay the price. Don't be too hard on yourself. Perfection is a crazy ideal to strive for because it only results in failure. Can I do better? Yes. Do I need to belittle myself to do that? No. I have no doubt you will be a hot sexy grandma at the weddings. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alana in Canada Posted November 15, 2012 Share Posted November 15, 2012 Nancy--it is only failure if you don't climb back on that horse! I love that you are doing this for yourself--and your family. I wish my Mom would take care of her health the way you are! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nancy H. Posted November 15, 2012 Author Share Posted November 15, 2012 Thank you everyone for your kind words. I really do need to be kinder to myself and not beat myself up so much. I have been doing great today. I had some ground chicken, spinach, avocado and scrambled eggs in coconut oil. Good and filling. Now I just need to remember that yes! This is a learning curve. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xandra Posted November 15, 2012 Share Posted November 15, 2012 I think I ate half a cow. I feel that way sometimes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Susan W Posted November 15, 2012 Share Posted November 15, 2012 Nancy, I am happy to see you have come to your senses. It did seem you were experiencing a bit of a "yehaw!! Whole 30 is over". You've now figured out what makes you feel better and I think you'll continue to learn and experience this great lifestyle. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted November 16, 2012 Share Posted November 16, 2012 Go Nancy! WOOHOO!! Cheering you on Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nancy H. Posted November 17, 2012 Author Share Posted November 17, 2012 Well I am back on that horse and don't intend to fall off anymore. I have been eating clean with lots of spinach, spaghetti squash, scrambled eggs, cauliflower. I made a Cottage Flower Pie and have the crock pot going with a Chicken Soup. It will cook all night. I have to make some Clarified butter as I have no more Ghee. I have never made it, so we'll see how that goes tomorrow. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nancy H. Posted November 18, 2012 Author Share Posted November 18, 2012 Day 1 Well, guess what? Here I am starting over AGAIN!!! Over the last two days I found some non compliant stuff hiding in my cupboards and they were calling to me. I ended up feeling terrible cramps, constipated, then diarrhea and just generally feeling yucky. So today is day 1 for me. And I had a good Meal 1 of spaghetti squash covered with Spring Squash soup. Meal 2 was a huge omelet with pulled pork, one apple, pre cooked sliced carrots, onions, sauteed in coconut oil. than I added two eggs that were mixed with almond milk that I made. (That milk is so good. ) So far so good. Meal three will be bacon, onions and cabbage sauteed in the bacon fat and 1/2 avocado. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alana in Canada Posted November 18, 2012 Share Posted November 18, 2012 I like the sound of meal 3--though we had some compliant bacon this morning from Safeway and it was awful. I'm hoping some grass-finished will be better--assuming I can find it! It's hard to come by. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nancy H. Posted November 20, 2012 Author Share Posted November 20, 2012 Day 2 Boy have I had two good days. Yesterday I made some almond Milk. It was really good. With the pulp that was left over I made Crunchy Oaty Cereal http://www.colourful...y-oaty-cereal/. I know it is not compliant and I don't intend to eat it like cereal. After it was dried I broke it up into1/2 inch sizes and put them in air tight glass jars. I am allowing myself two pieces a day. Really good. I also threw out the remainder of a liter of Diet Coke that I purchased last week during my fall from the horse. Then I bought 2 liters of Soda Water. Today I made Ghee. It took longer than I thought it would, but it turned out great. I have two pint jars in the refrigerator. You know the brown stuff that settles to the bottom? That is the stuff that makes the Ghee turn "nutty flavored".. Well for dinner tonight I put that stuff in a pan, added Spaghetti Squash and heated it up. Then put Chocolate Chili on top. What a great meal. Meal 1: Chicken soup. Meal 2: Pulled Pork with carrots in a curry sauce of Coconut milk and curry powder. Really good. One tomato, 1/2 avocado and one hard boiled egg with mayo. Meal 3: Spaghetti Squash heated in brown bits from Ghee, topped with Chocolate chili. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xandra Posted November 20, 2012 Share Posted November 20, 2012 Keep up the good work, Nancy. If those other foods start calling to you again, tell them they have the wrong number. Then throw them out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Susan W Posted November 20, 2012 Share Posted November 20, 2012 Nice job Nancy. Isn't home made ghee wonderful. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kb0426 Posted November 20, 2012 Share Posted November 20, 2012 Keep up the good work, Nancy. If those other foods start calling to you again, tell them they have the wrong number. Then throw them out. Thank you for a much needed laugh this morning! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kb0426 Posted November 20, 2012 Share Posted November 20, 2012 Great job Nancy! I love reading your adventures. I am so proud of you throwing away that dreaded Diet coke! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xandra Posted November 23, 2012 Share Posted November 23, 2012 Hi Nancy, how's it going for you? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Derval Posted November 24, 2012 Share Posted November 24, 2012 Today I made Ghee. It took longer than I thought it would, but it turned out great. I have two pint jars in the refrigerator. You know the brown stuff that settles to the bottom? That is the stuff that makes the Ghee turn "nutty flavored".. Well for dinner tonight I put that I think that stuff might be the cooked milk solids.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Suzy Posted November 24, 2012 Share Posted November 24, 2012 Remember that you are the one that has the power to choose. Get all the non-compliant stuff out of the house, give it to a neighbor for a while if you have to, and buy more exciting whole30 foods. It's fun to have treats like seasonal fruit. There's nothing better than sliced apples cooked in ghee or coconut oil with some apple pie spice on it! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Susan W Posted November 24, 2012 Share Posted November 24, 2012 I think that stuff might be the cooked milk solids.... Oops...I missed that you used the brown bits, Nancy. I am sure they tasted amazing but they are the milk solids which is what you don't want on w30. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nancy H. Posted November 24, 2012 Author Share Posted November 24, 2012 OOPS is right. Yes it was good, but I wont do it again. I am doing great on this and eating clean. I just got tired of posting my meals every day. But never fear..............I am doing fine. I really like this. Today I am off to the grocery store. I ran out of spinach. Who ever would have thought that I would be craving spinach. It seems like I can't eat breakfast without spinach. I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving for those of you who celebrate it. I was supposed to be going to a huge family gathering out of town, but I came down with a head cold so I stayed home and ate chicken soup and spaghetti squash fritters. Those are really good. Almost as good as sweet potato fritters. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Susan W Posted November 24, 2012 Share Posted November 24, 2012 OOPS is right. Yes it was good, but I wont do it again. I am doing great on this and eating clean. I just got tired of posting my meals every day. But never fear..............I am doing fine. I really like this. Today I am off to the grocery store. I ran out of spinach. Who ever would have thought that I would be craving spinach. It seems like I can't eat breakfast without spinach.I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving for those of you who celebrate it. I was supposed to be going to a huge family gathering out of town, but I came down with a head cold so I stayed home and ate chicken soup and spaghetti squash fritters. Those are really good. Almost as good as sweet potato fritters. I know what you mean about the spinach. I HAVE to have steam sauteed napa cabbage, spinacha and spag squash on hand or I am all out of sorts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nancy H. Posted November 25, 2012 Author Share Posted November 25, 2012 Well I finally got my beloved (LOL) spinach yesterday and had a great breakfast of three eggs scrambled with coconut milk, mushrooms, green onions and spinach in coconut oil. YUM> Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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