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[Boldfamily]

Hi.  I'm on Day 13. I'm healing and recovering from a year of intense and consistent losses culminating with the death of my father in Oct.  I chose now to do whole 30 because I needed something I could control when everything seemed to be spinning out of control. While it does seem to be helping my moods and sleep,  it's hard to really evaluate when grieving is so exhausting. 

I typically struggle with any new behavior especially food related around the 2 week mark. I'm having thoughts like,  "it'd be fine to just allow cream in my coffee,  I'll continue everything else by the book," or "maybe this is too much when I'm grieving. " 

Anyway,  decided it best to get involved with the forum for accountability and encouragement. 

[hollysmokes]

Hi @Boldfamily and welcome; you came to the right place. I lost my father last October and did a W30 in December that turned into a W60. Even though I didn't acknowledge it at the time, yes, grieving IS exhausting. I started that W30 with no real commitment and didn't tell anyone (even my husband) because I didn't know if I had the strength/energy to devote to it. About day 4, I realized that it felt right and I was in. I really think it helped me move forward. Congratulations on your Day 13; I'm on Day 14 right now and part of a little group posting under "Psyching up for a December W30!". Come visit if you're so inclined. Is this your first time?

[Boldfamily]

Thanks. Yes,  this is my first time.  I have plenty to learn, especially about life after a whole 30. I will probably do longer,  but I feel like I'll give myself cream in my coffee again and maybe gum. Those are really the only things I truly miss. The rest is just keeping me from binging all the time because of my emotional and physical rollercoaster. Today,  I've got no energy at all.