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My first Whole30: done and dusted!

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I started my very first Whole30 on January 1st, 2019 as a reset for my body. I wanted to lose weight, ditch sugar, and feel good about my diet. Completing the program has taught me that and so much more.

I think self esteem is something we all (especially women) struggle with, but eating disorders are a whole different animal. I was lucky enough to have a mother who knew all the signs and caught me before I even started. She'd had a bulimic roommate in college and didn't want the same for me. There isn't a time in my life that I can remember being happy with my body. I see pictures of myself as a teenager and even though I was 120 pounds soaking wet, I can still pick out things I don't like. For a long time, when I was out from under my parents roof, I adopted an external devil-may-care attitude towards food. The reality was, I couldn't stop eating and I couldn't stop hating my body. I ate in secret, I hid wrappers, I went back for seconds and thirds of dessert, and I shamed myself. This was indicative of the early stages of a binge eating disorder. I knew that in order to get control over myself, I'd have to do something very prescriptive and strict. On an eating program that tells you to "limit" high-sugar, rich foods, I make every excuse for why it doesn't really matter if I eat it. Unless I'm told "no" I'm going to do what I want; I succumb to the disordered thinking. Whole30 has taught me how to eat and be full, live without added sugars, and take care of my body. If I give love to my body, it will do the same for me. We're a team, not rivals.

At 25 years old I should and can be the happiest, healthiest version of myself yet! Here's to getting stronger and healthier and spreading more love!

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Reintroduction Day 1:

I started with a normal Whole30 breakfast, complete with some delicious compliant bacon!

I packed lunch, which will be a compliant chicken burger, mixed veggies, pistachios, and a cheese stick(!!!) to start my low-lactose dairy reintroduction. I'll be taking my digestive enzymes with it so hopefully there will be no immediate gastric consequences, but I'll be keeping an eye on my body for several days after. I may end up not wanting to eat cheese at all, who knows? I might also pick up a Greek yogurt today to really get that dairy in and see what happens. 

Today I feel great! I woke up happy, weighed, measured, didn't walk because it is 9 degrees Fahrenheit (WHY, MARYLAND??), got ready and went to work. I don't even feel sad about being in the office. I'm on a high and I'm going to ride it out! 

Before and after:

For those who might be curious, I will put my weight and measurements below. If you could be triggered by this, please skip it. Whole30 really isn't a weight loss diet, it just ended up working that way for me. Also be aware that I am 5'2" tall, so these measurements may not make sense for someone taller or shorter than me. We're all built differently!

Before: 

  • Weight: 138.6 lb
  • Chest: 31 in
  • Waist: 31 in
  • Hips: 40 in
  • Arm: 11.5 in
  • Thigh: 24 in

After:

  • Weight: 130 lb
  • Chest: 30 in
  • Waist: 29 in
  • Hips: 38.5 in
  • Arm: 11 in
  • Thigh: 23.25 in

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Afternoon update:

I decided to indulge a bit and get a latte at lunch time. I took my digestive enzymes with my first sip, but I'm already feeling bloated! Ugh! I got skim milk in hopes that it would be a little better, but no. 

Still feeling happy as a clam though! (Are clams particularly happy? Why is this a saying??)

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Another update because I'm really interested in what's been going on today:

So I had some frosting from my coworker's baby shower cake and IT WAS A MISTAKE. I really cannot do sugar and dairy. Nope. No way. My stomach is upset, my head is starting to ache, and I feel generally foggy. My dinner will be Whole30 and I'm so happy about that!

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Well done on completing Meg!! Amazing achievement, and I'm so glad it's helped with your mindset. Thank you for documenting your reintro, its really good to see a real-time account of it! 

I'm very leery of reintro for sugar, I'm going to make it a day on its own because I'm sure it sets me off. Totally expecting dairy to set me off too as it used to be a migraine trigger. 

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Wow Meg - what a quick reaction to sugar and dairy - I'm not surprised though, I'm expecting the same. Day 30 here today and I'm heading out for 9 weeks in a few days so Hubs and I sat last night to talk about what he wanted me to remove from the house today - all candy is already gone. Before we did W30, I would have sworn we didn't eat much sugar - a giant shopping bag of candy went out the door including (@SchrodingersCat you'll likely laugh at this) a bag  of his fav Australian Fry's Turkish Delight mini bars that our daughter brought to us in September! Now - lots was from Christmas baskets and things his staff gave him but, still... so much sugar. ANYWAY - he told me to get rid of all of the crackers and his fav morning cereal and that he was not going to return to dairy either. I just about fell off my chair.

Anyway - back to you @megbeveridge, now that you know this, what's your plan going forward? I find it hard to envision a life without lattes (although I must admit, I have gotten used to carrying a bottle of compliant almond milk into Starbucks so, maybe I'll just do that?) and icing (OMG I love icing WAY more than cake).  How are you going to manage these moving forward? 

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4 hours ago, Lorna from Canada said:

Anyway - back to you @megbeveridge, now that you know this, what's your plan going forward? I find it hard to envision a life without lattes (although I must admit, I have gotten used to carrying a bottle of compliant almond milk into Starbucks so, maybe I'll just do that?) and icing (OMG I love icing WAY more than cake).  How are you going to manage these moving forward? 

Omg, let me tell you, it was so unpleasant! Honestly I don't drink many lattes, it's a very infrequent treat. I do LOVE ice cream, yogurt, and cheese though! I think I'll still try yogurt as a separate reintro because it's generally a lot lower in lactose and good for your gut. I think dairy will just have to be something I eat rarely and with Lactaid pills! I usually buy almond milk, but I'm not sure how much of that I'll be using since now I don't really eat cereal for breakfast and I don't drink it straight out of the glass. It'll just have to be around for cooking. Icing will definitely still be consumed on special occasions, but gone are the days of eating it from the tub (I can't be the only one who does that!). 

I've made a deal with myself about sugar: I can have a sugary treat once a week if I feel like it's worth the consequences, but no more than that. It's not going to be a reward or a crutch anymore. I'm not the dragon's pawn I am the Mother of Dragons! (please tell me someone gets that)

In terms of my continued reaction from yesterday's reintro, it's gotten better, but not resolved. In the middle of the night I woke up and my stomach was like a balloon! I didn't sleep well, although I hadn't been sleeping well anyway. I still feel some bloat, but not as bad. I'm curious what I'll weigh and what my waist measurement will be in a couple of days. How long are the effects going to last?

Today I'm back to W30 foods so I had a compliant breakfast, brought dinner leftovers for lunch, and indulged in a chai tea with nutpods creamer for a morning pick-me-up!

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How did you feel over the weekend? Have you tried re-introducing any other items? Thank you for sharing!

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I'm back! I took a long weekend and I only post from a desktop computer so I've been out a few days. The weekend was good! I had some dark chocolate on Saturday with no ill effect. I was amazed at my ability to limit myself to two bite-sized pieces. Sunday I definitely calorie splurged when reintroducing grains! I had some incredible French toast for breakfast that I enjoyed to the fullest. My stomach, however, wasn't pleased. I felt overly full and kind of nauseous. I didn't have any noticeable effects from the grains or sugar, but I did realize that I can't eat large portions of carbs like I used to. Monday was almost entirely Whole30 except for rice with dinner. No effect there either other than being stuffed. Monday to today I started noticing acne on my face and it's not a particularly hormonal time of the month for me. I can reasonably say this is probably from the sugar and carb intake. I'm definitely going to be cutting those back to Whole30 levels again!

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Yesterday was a good food day! I had some gluten free bread which had no ill effect. That was paired with egg, avocado, and bacon for breakfast and tuna salad for lunch (with homemade mayo!). Dinner was fish, zoodles, and Whole30 pasta sauce. I finally slept well and got up right with my alarm this morning. 

Today is off to a good start with a breakfast of sweet potato home fries, bacon, and an apple. I've got another slice of gf bread and tuna salad for lunch, which I'm very much looking forward to! I may start buying some whole wheat bread when I'm through this loaf. If I get the expensive kind I won't eat a lot of it at once and I just really like bread. I'll keep it in the freezer and thaw one slice at a time so I'm not tempted to eat it all at once to keep it from going stale or moldy. 

Tonight we should be going bouldering! Yayyy! I got back on the wall with top-roping on Monday and I'm so excited to boulder again. My hands are definitely not feeling it, but I do have good energy. We'll be having a steak dinner to fuel up!

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NSV: I am wearing my favorite dress and it is loose! Woohoo!

Instead of steak, dinner last night was chicken soup with rice noodles, but I really didn't even need the noodles. I got way too full too fast. Next time I'll be doing zoodles or just soup. Breakfast today was some turkey breast lunch meat, mango pieces, and a half-caf coffee with nutpods creamer. I was definitely tempted to have some cheese with that turkey, but I held off so I didn't have to start the day bloated.

Lunch is chicken breast, sweet potatoes, an apple, and some nuts. I've managed to keep away from the donuts in the kitchen both yesterday and today (it's just the rejects now) so I'm pretty proud of myself.

As I'm sure I've said before, a non-strict diet doesn't work for me. I will find excuses to eat what I want when I want if it's just me saying "I shouldn't" instead of "I will not." SMART goals are a thing for a reason and Whole30 meets all the requirements. Being in the post-Whole30 stage I'm really scared of backsliding all the way into my old habits. I think I'll need to make a new goal each week from here on out. A Thursday is as good as any day to start!

S: I will stay under my sugar goal every day.

M: My sugar goal is 45g.

A: It can be achieved by keeping added sugars to a minimum and recording how many grams of sugar each item has.

R: Being aware of the amount of sugar in my foods will help me to have a healthier lifestyle.

T: I will do this for the next seven days.

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SMART Goal progress: Yesterday I was under my sugar goal by 4g. Instead of eating and then logging it into MFP (this is how I'm keeping myself on track during reintro), I logged everything first and determined whether I could eat it based on the sugar content. 

Yesterday I just wasn't hungry when lunch time came around so I had a mini meal instead of my full lunch. Dinner was chicken burgers (no bun) with mustard and sauteed vegetables. The mustard was not W30 compliant as it had added sugar, but I'm not being super strict about added sugars during reintroduction besides keeping up with my SMART goal. Breakfast today was smoked turkey breast with mustard wrapped in a corn tortilla. I've determined that I don't have a reaction to corn, but I'll still keep that as my only reintro today. 

I definitely haven't been very strict with my reintro and @MamaJ posted something that reminded me to question why. I think because I had a really rough time with how I felt during Whole30, coupled with it being my first time, I am less determined to stay Whole30 between reintro days. I had so many digestive problems, headaches, and trouble sleeping during the program that it's hard for me to think it's worth it. I really want to do better, but I'm lacking the "feel good" motivation. Maybe I'm just embracing food freedom? 

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On 2/8/2019 at 9:48 AM, megbeveridge said:

SMART Goal progress: Yesterday I was under my sugar goal by 4g. Instead of eating and then logging it into MFP (this is how I'm keeping myself on track during reintro), I logged everything first and determined whether I could eat it based on the sugar content. 

Yesterday I just wasn't hungry when lunch time came around so I had a mini meal instead of my full lunch. Dinner was chicken burgers (no bun) with mustard and sauteed vegetables. The mustard was not W30 compliant as it had added sugar, but I'm not being super strict about added sugars during reintroduction besides keeping up with my SMART goal. Breakfast today was smoked turkey breast with mustard wrapped in a corn tortilla. I've determined that I don't have a reaction to corn, but I'll still keep that as my only reintro today.  

I definitely haven't been very strict with my reintro and @MamaJ posted something that reminded me to question why. I think because I had a really rough time with how I felt during Whole30, coupled with it being my first time, I am less determined to stay Whole30 between reintro days. I had so many digestive problems, headaches, and trouble sleeping during the program that it's hard for me to think it's worth it. I really want to do better, but I'm lacking the "feel good" motivation. Maybe I'm just embracing food freedom? 

I'm glad I was able to pass on the reminder :) I had a rough weekend as my baby was so sick (still is, but my husband is the SAHP, so I'm at work, sucking it up).

 

I'm really happy you're still posting so we can all follow along and cheer you on!

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Friday night I tried to make that steak I've had in the fridge, but somebody left it marinating in a very vinegary solution for several days and it was practically inedible. He was very sorry. We went to a restaurant instead and I had some delicious tacos, elote, and pesto rice. I had no reaction from any of the food! Yay! Climbing had to wait since the dogs were alone so long. 

Saturday I did really well with food and I did a lot of cleaning! We went climbing in the morning (I'm still sore) and then went grocery shopping and cleaned the rest of the day. I was definitely tired by the time I went to bed. Despite the exhaustion, my brain just wouldn't stop talking and woke me up at 2:30am. Annoying. Friday night was the same except I was awake at 3am. Lack of sleep is not helping my health!

Part of that high energy, exhaustion, not sleeping cycle is that I was just given a preliminary diagnosis of ADHD. It's not official because I haven't gone through the full examination, but my therapist is pretty certain. I'm just going and going and going lately. In the past it's been covered up well with my depression and anxiety. Now those are much more controlled and I'm still on a focus roller-coaster. Either I'm all in or I'm somewhere in lala land. Right now, my brain is hyperfocused on the idea of ADHD and what that means for me. Ugh!

Sunday MFP decided to not work for me at all. My app wasn't communicating with the server or something? I just gave up eventually. I have no idea how my SMART goal was yesterday, but there's nothing I can do about it. I've been doing well today with a breakfast of steel cut oats with frozen strawberries and raspberries and a lunch of chicken meatloaf and skin-in mashed potatoes. I'm on track with my goal and hopefully it'll stay that way! 

Smart Goal: I was just under my sugar goal for Friday, which was really good for having a last-minute dinner out. Saturday I was under my goal again! Sunday I'm not sure about because of the tech malfunction. Today is starting well with only some low-sugar berries in my breakfast!

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Last night was my early Valentine's Day dinner and a cheat treat meal for sure! I had some amazing macadamia chicken, a little of the mashed potatoes, half my broccoli and (most importantly) half a slice of carrot cake. YUM! Of course this was a huge meal, even when I ate only half of it. I didn't feel too terrible afterwards, but as the night went on I did have some stomach bloating and discomfort. Overall it worked out just fine.

Today I feel a little off and a little bloated. I still have leftovers so that'll be my lunch today, minus the cake. The mashed potatoes weren't great so I probably won't have much of those. Dinner will be a sheet pan meal with chicken and LOTS of veggies. I'll be waiting a few days to eat the other half of that cake slice! 

I'm finding I definitely don't feel as well as I did last week. I definitely need to get my meals closer to a Whole30 recommended plate. On Friday I looked at why I'm straying from the reintro process, now I need to work on coming back to it. Hopefully the dinner tonight will be a good kickstart and I'll be able to work from there, but I think another reason it's so hard is because my partner isn't doing it. He just went ahead and started eating what he wanted so he keeps suggesting meals that are non-compliant. I don't want to say no all the time.

Smart Goal: I definitely was not under my sugar goal last night, but that's okay because I knew I'd have a special occasion night. I'm back on track today with 22g of sugar left after lunch. A treat once in a while is okay, but I know that sugar shouldn't be a daily indulgence. I don't feel as well after all the cake I had last night and the food I ate in general just wasn't as good as whole, fresh food. I'm glad I had the experience!

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Happy hump day! It's a downhill coast from here right? I might make it to the weekend unscathed. That is, if Valentine's Day doesn't get me!

The dinner I had last night was definitely what I needed. I could have done with some more flavor, but it was perfect for my body. I'm starting to work back towards a Whole30-esque diet while working in some beneficial foods that are not compliant. After dinner was bouldering! I completed my first V3 problem (I had been doing V2 level, so this is a step up) which was awesome! I didn't get to a point where I felt too tired to keep going. I wish I had though because it almost felt like not enough of a workout. Next time I might be able to stay longer!

Breakfast was yogurt and an apple chicken sausage. I think the yogurt is helping my biome a lot. It's also a lower sugar option so rather than being super sweet, it still has the tangy taste that keeps it from being dessert-like. The apple chicken sausages are something I started eating during Whole30 and realized I actually really enjoy! I'm generally not a huge sausage fan, but these are perfect for breakfast and not full of questionable ingredients like "traditional" breakfast sausage. Going from vegetarian to having meat for breakfast is kind of wild!

Lunch was catered by a product rep who was supposed to do a talk for us today and canceled. I had half a roast beef sandwich and made it open-faced so I wouldn't be filling myself with empty carbs. That also helped to reduce the amount of spread I'd be eating, especially important since I had no idea what was in it. This came with a small side salad, a cup of fruit, and a cookie. I'd like to say I didn't touch the cookie, but alas I cannot. After looking into the nutrition information I decided to have 1/4 of it. I don't think I've ever eaten only 1/4 of a cookie. Who am I??? Overall I'm happy with my choices. 

SMART Goal: Yesterday I just slid in under my sugar goal! I got a little snacky after climbing, so I definitely could have gone over if I wasn't careful. Today I'm still under so far even after that 1/4 of a cookie. Luckily dinner won't have much sugar and I won't be climbing tonight so I shouldn't be getting hungry again later. With any luck today will be a success!

This is day 7 of my SMART goal so tomorrow will be time to make a new one. Even though I'm creating another goal, I need to remember to hold onto what this one has taught me. Sugar is not in control of me. I don't need super sweet foods every day. Special occasions are okay as long as I am willing to face the gastric consequences and low energy the next day. Most of all I just need to be conscious of what I'm eating. Is it fueling me or filling me?

 

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New SMART Goal:

S: I will only eat up to one serving of grains per day.

M: One serving can be measured by grain type.

A: It can be achieved by planning meals ahead and choosing other options when eating out.

R: I found through reintroduction that grains make me feel overfull and slow. I want to improve my energy.

T: I will do this for the next seven days.

 

Happy Valentine's Day! The holiday has gotten to me. I've had several chocolates already and I'm sure my boyfriend will have more for me when I get home. I'm not too worried about it because the next holiday is Easter. Definitely enough time to recover and make more progress. 

Yesterday's lunch included a single slice of cheddar cheese. I though I'd be safe since it was such a small quantity. I was wrong! I was feeling the effects throughout the afternoon and evening. I really need to accept that dairy just isn't going to work for me. 

Tonight we'll be having a nice T-bone steak dinner. Bones will go to the dogs as their V-Day treat. Other than that we plan to have a relaxing evening and go to bed early. Maybe with an early bed time I won't be tempted to have dessert! A girl can dream right?

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So I totally had more chocolate than I needed yesterday, but still less than I would have in past years. I call that a success. Dinner was amazing! If I ever wrote a book about my first Whole30 it would be called From Tofu to Steak: A Vegetarian Tries Whole30. I'm feeling a little guilty about eating animals still, but I remind myself that in the spring I'll have more money to spend on responsibly sourced meat and I can support local farmers. Voting with your dollars is more effective than abstaining completely. 

For breakfast I had tuna salad made with W30 mayo on a slice of whole grain 7-grain toast. I'm not sure what my lunch will be, but since I've had grains already it won't be that! I had a few m&ms before I left the house this morning, but overall I've been great about sugar today. Despite the sugar overload yesterday, I am awake, alert, and focused today. I think starting on ADHD medication is really doing me some good. It may also keep my appetite down so I can focus less on getting food into my face and more on making sure what I eat is nourishing and gives me energy. I've already had about 32 ounces of water today and I'm dying for more, which will also keep my appetite from growing. 

Smart Goal: Yesterday I was obviously more focused on chocolate than carbs from grains, but I did have some grains with dinner and a bit for dessert. We made some mushroom and green bean risotto, but I didn't love it so I only ate a few bites. A little while later I also ate a couple bites of cake, but wasn't too into that either. Overall it was probably less than a serving. Today I already had whole grain bread so I'm done for the day. Tomorrow is a friend's birthday celebration so I'm baking a cake. Hopefully I can keep myself to a small piece and not dive in head first!

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