Beckha99 Posted July 16, 2019 Share Posted July 16, 2019 So this will be my second time doing a Whole30. I am starting today. I actually started yesterday and then messed up last night, so today is day 1 (again). The last time I did this, I was working so it was easier to be distracted from the food stuff, but this time I am unemployed. Some might think it would be easier to workout and plan meals etc, but that isn't me. I hate meal planning. The last time I did this I must have eaten the same meals about 75% of the time. I am in a serious rut in life. Maybe my midlife crisis? I am 41. I have gained 45 lbs in the last 18 months putting me around 225 lbs. I didn't weigh that much with either of my pregnancies!! I have zero motivation to do anything but sit and read. My husband is military and we have moved a bunch. We are currently in San Diego and have been here for 3 years. (PS- We hate California. The weather is great, but other then that...meh.) I really just feel like I am careening out of control, and I need to get my crap together. Less than 2 years ago I was running half marathons, and exercising regularly, and doing well. And then it all went to hell. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression for the last 13 years. I also have always had a horrible body image. I need out of this toxic cycle. I am hoping doing the whole30 again will help me jump start things again. Yes, yes, I realize that this may seem like a poor me post, but it is my truth right now. I have really gotten in a terrible routine of having several drinks at night to wind down, and that will be a hard habit to break. But it DEFINITELY needs to happen. Between no alcohol and no sugar, I'm gonna be honest, this is gonna suck. I have already warned my family that the first 10-14 days, I am going to be in a horrible mood. But I have felt so bad for so long, I need to do this. I want to feel good and healthy again, even if it means all the suck to get there!! So yes, I ramble and am all over the place. That's me. I may or may not have been referred to as a "hot mess" from time to time. If you are doing your whole30 around the same timeline as me, or can identify with where I am and want to share and comment (or VENT) on your whole 30, feel free, but be nice!! Here goes nothing.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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