Aberrantatavia Posted January 21, 2013 Share Posted January 21, 2013 Yes, I'm jumping off the ledge. But for me this has good implications. Really. Technically I think this will be my fourth Whole Something. My first one was at the end of last summer, and it was a great experience. I began to actually sleep for the first time in my adult life. I did another in the fall but it was less than 30 days. I started one on January 2nd, but with my grandchildren here for the last 3 weeks, it's been too tough to adhere strictly to. So today is day 1. I've been a little wishy washy about when to start, how long to go for, etc. I was attempting to do a whole 100, but I don't think I'm going to make it that long this time through as I'll be going out to visit my kids and grandkids in April, about 80 days from now. So I decided just to start. And keep going. With no specific goal of a number of days beyond 30, although I know I need longer than that at this point. My sleep is disrupted again, I am sore (fibromyalgia), and my energy level is terrible. And my diet is fairly pure when I'm not on a whole 30, but it seems that any level of unhealthy food has significant detrimental effects on me. I need to stop making excuses and make exercise a priority. If I don't move my body, my body fails me. I know this, it's no mystery. I have a spinning bike in my bedroom, a gym membership to a place that is 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, and there is a gym at work. I simply choose to make excuses rather than make my body function a priority. If I do not begin to exercise on a regular basis, I will deteriorate no matter what I eat. No matter how small of a step, I will take a step in the right direction today. I'm pretty organized for the eating part, I cooked a few things yesterday for the week. I actually get hungry when I get up now, which is a good sign. I don't eat between meals for the most part. I used a sleep app that someone was talking about on another thread. It's an iphone app and you lay it next to your pillow and it tells you how you are sleeping. And it wakes you up nicely as well. I used it for the first time last night and if it's accurate, I didn't get into a real deep sleep. I'll see how it works for a few days. I'm pretty sure it's going to pick up on how Rick is sleeping as well, it won't limit itself to my movements. It did say I got into a deeper sleep around 2, and since I didn't used to get into that kind of sleep at all for years, I'm still doing better than I was. Sleeping must be a priority. My Happy Place: I'll include something positive in my posts/logs every day. Vitamins: I think I need supplements, but it's hard for me to take pills. I take a vitamin D every day right now, but I need to work up to taking several others. Instead of buying all of the things I think I need and shoving them all down my throat starting today, I'm going to start one at a time. Journaling/meditating: I will take at least 10 minutes of quiet reflective time every day. Purge and Binge: Yeah, I know. But this is a different kind of binge and purge. I'm going to rewrite the tapes in my head. Purge my soul of things that no longer serve me and binge on the stuff that feeds my soul well. This might not happen in every post, but it will be an ongoing process that I include on this journey. My overarching goal? To jump off the ledge and land safely in a spot that is better physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually than where I am right now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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