Jessica M. Posted February 11, 2013 Share Posted February 11, 2013 Found It Starts with Food over the holidays, jumped into a Whole30 on January 2nd, only somewhat prepared. Have been reading, reading, reading. I have been adhering pretty well to the food side of things, I think I know that I am still not feeling the magic because I am still stressed and not making sleep a priority. At about day 25, decided to stop dreaming of how to sweeten my coffee on day 31 and instead go to 45 days, hoping for some magic. I don't know. I just want to whine. I hurt everywhere, as badly as before Whole30, actually worse. Thursday/Friday I cooked with some tapioca flour and I think I had a huge reaction to it (who knew?). All weekend, had to run run run and had such a stomach ache, bloating, gas, and stiff neck and pain between my shoulder blades. I just wanted to sleep. Brain fog doubled. Ok, I have been craving less, snacking less. By day 31 I was down 9lbs. That's all good. I have only had a couple of days in the past 40 that were happy energetic days. Otherwise, I am my usual sluggish self. Most days I am in bed by 11 and up at 6:30 (not enough). 45 min drive to work. Sit at my desk all day. Speed home at 5:30 (45 min drive) try to get the kids to finish up their stuff and spend a bit of time with them. Get DD in bed 8:30-sh and DS in bed 9-ish. Walk the dogs. Do some chores. Try to hang with my hubby a bit, though we are usually both on the computers and watch a tv show. So, whoo hoo, big quality time there. He's a teacher/tech specialist doing 3 jobs for the price of one now due to budget cuts. I don't bring my actual work home but do volunteer stuff for the PTA, coach an Odyssey of the Mind team, and a bit of freelance work when I can, so I usually have something to do. Or, reading blogs. Screwing around on Facebook or Pinterest. I am good at wasting time. I haven't exercised since, like, August. I am so frigging tired all the time. I hoped getting the nutrition in order would give me the energy for something else besides the couch by now. I suppose I just have to require it from myself and be strict about it, like I dove into Whole30. As hard as it is prepping all the food and giving up so much stuff, it takes less energy than finding time to exercise. Or energy, rather. My anxiety/depression is pretty much the same. Slightly less moody I guess. Every time I try to improve myself, I poop out around the 8 week mark. I am feeling that slip like I am going to stop trying. I have so far to go. I have to lose at least 50lbs to look/feel normal and more like 80 to have a "healthy BMI". February is jam packed with kid stuff (Odyssey mostly, almost tournament time). March-May will be crazy at work. Feeling overwhelmed. (Playing the "world's smallest violin" as my mom would have for the self pity train.) (Mom would have been 75 on Wednesday, but died at 52 from lung cancer. Add that to the self pity.) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
This topic is now archived and is closed to further replies.