HealthyHappy Posted March 1, 2013 Share Posted March 1, 2013 Happy Day1! I am really excited to start today. I've dabbled with trying a Whole30 in the past and never made it past the first few days. However, this time I have DONE my research, tried a bunch of meals, taken my measurements and set my goals. I WILL COMPLETE THESE 30 DAYS! I am a 36 (almost 37) year old stay-at-home mom of 3. I developed a nasty binge eating disorder over the past 2 1/2 years that led to a 20 lb weight gain. I consider myself lucky that for the 34 years before that, I never had any issues with food and was always easily thin (even after having kids). How I wish I could go back to those days when I did not obsess about food! Anyway, these past few years have been a hideous cycle of deprivation in order to try to lose the weight and binge eating pretty much every night. The weight has crept up up up and my self-hatred and frustration have grown with it. When I have tried to do a Whole30 in the past, in the back of my mind I was still trying to minimize what I was eating and I believe that's why I always went back to binging. This time I am going to really try to eat as much as I need. That's my problem though...I feel like all this disordered eating has left me TOTALLY unable to figure out when I am full. So PLEASE, if anyone reads this and has some idea of whether I am eating too much or too little, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know! I know that I will only need this guidance for a little while until my body (and mind) heals and can tell me what it needs. So here are my measurements as of this morning (I'm not sure how accurate I was but I tried!): Height: (5' 5") Weight: 122.4 lbs Waist (belly button): 29" Butt (biggest part): 37" Bust: 33" Right thigh (at the top): 20.5" Left thigh (at the top): 20.5" And here are my goals: 1. To stop the cycle of deprivation and binging (and all of the self-hatred/obsessing that goes with it) 2. To be more even in my behavior/mood/attitude so that I can appreciate more all my blessings 3. To focus on finding pleasure in things other than food 4. To accept my body; to not try to lose the 20 lbs. I have gained in the past 2 years 5. To not eat after dinner (when I have typically binged) 6. To limit nuts and fruit to emergencies when I can't get anything compliant and I am worried I will falter 7. To have my lights out by 9:30PM every night (kids' permitting) 8. To lift weights for at least 20 minutes at least 2x/week 9. To jog or use the elliptical (at a fun pace) for at least 20 minutes at least 1x/week I am the only one in my family doing the Whole30 (in fact, no one else knows I am doing it)...I just hope to lead by example for now. Day 1 Meals: Meal 1 (8AM): 1 full can Trader Joes Sockeye Salmon (7.5oz), 1/2 avocado, chopped tomatoes, cucumbers and green peppers. Honestly, it was a bit too much (I had trouble finishing before I had to get my kids to school...I'm a really slow eater), but half a can is never enough. I really want to do the salmon for breakfast because then I can make an omelet for lunch, so I think I'll keep trying this at least through the weekend...unless I get some feedback that makes me rethink things! Meal 2 (planned): 4 egg omelet with a bunch of veggies (probably brussel sprouts, colored peppers and spinach) cooked in 1 tbsp ghee; chicken soup/bone broth (I cooked bone-in/skin-on drumsticks to make soup...not sure if that's technically bone broth or not but there were bones in there!). Meal 3 (planned); Leftover curry chicken with red peppers, served over cauliflower Thank you to anyone who made it though my diatribe!!! This will likely be my longest post as I rarely get on my computer and will have to do my posts from my Kindle. I wish everyone a wonderful journey to greater health and happiness! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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