natashajulian Posted January 3, 2014 Share Posted January 3, 2014 So, I embark again on another Whole30. I completed one in March 2013 and felt fantastic afterwards. But old habits creeped in and I find myself in a worse position than last year when it comes to health and well being. I have a habit of dwelling on past mistakes, so this year I have committed to focusing on action. Imperfect action is better than perfect inaction. Whole30 is my action for this month. The best part is: I know I can do this. I've done it before. There's no reason I can't do this again. When I first started I struggled with what to do with my in-laws. My husband and I have dinner there once a week, and it's always a processed food extravaganza. I thought about just leaving it alone and eating Whole30 compliant the rest of the time, but I soon realized I was shortchanging myself. It was a hard conversation to have with my husband, who never likes to put anyone out. Finally, I just realized that I'm not willing to put myself out instead of someone else when I've been feeling terrible for so long. I'm the one who has to live with this body, not anyone else. I took a stand and, luckily, my husband agreed with me. Life is too precious to shortchange myself so that I don't make someone else feel momentarily uncomfortable. So, here we go. Day One went well enough, on to Day Two. My goals for this Whole30: #1 Try 4 new vegetables (ideally, one a week) #2 Sleep 8 hours a night - this is going to be a struggle, but so worth it #3 Eat mindfully - I have a tendency to shove food into my mouth as fast as possible I'm currently going through a bunch of whole30/paleo resources for recipe inspiration. It's not enough for me to do the Whole30, I need to have an arsenal of yummy food to continue on with after I'm finished. This time my journey is going to be about how to change how I view, eat and celebrate food. How can I take what I've learned from this process and apply it to everyday life? As they say, this isn't the Whole 365, but I need to find strategies to prevent myself from falling into old habits. The fact is: I'm scared. I'm scared I'm going to go through all of this again and end up right back where I started next year. I've been repeating this pattern ever since I was a teenager and I'm worried it will never change. It feels different this time, though. Maybe I'm finally ready to shed my emotional attachment to food (it was my only friend in high school) and develop a healthier relationship with food. Maybe everyone who has struggled with food in the past comes to this realization at some point in their lives. Maybe I wasn't ready until now. I might just be feeling melancholy because it's Day Two and I'm dealing with the pain of all the crap I've eaten in the past 8 months, but it's good to get it out of my system. I'm tired of feeling constantly sick. Today is a new day. All I have is this present moment. The past is behind me, the future is uncertain. All I can do is make good choices right here and now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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