allisonmdowell Posted July 9, 2016 Share Posted July 9, 2016 Well I officially get why alcohol and sugar are referred to as drugs! Back to Whole30 I go! Here is what happened and hopefully people can relate or at least be warned. I hope I'm not the only one! Before Whole30 I never realized how much I had used sugar and wine to cope with problems. I didn't have a huge issue giving either up, I had moments I missed them but more so being near my froyo place I would go to sparking my old routine versus just cravings. Post Whole30 I started my Fourth of July weekend slowly easing into drinking yet keeping my eating fairly strict and still working out. Day 2 of holiday weekend (Saturday) I woke up with insane anxiety and same with day 3 (Sunday) and day 4 (Monday). Finally when I returned to work this past Wednesday I had a full blown panic attack and haven't recovered fully since. During my Whole30 I went through a break up which I knew was for the best. Coming off Whole30, a weekend bender and seeing my ex I felt like I had lost my whole world. I felt like I had lost EVERYTHING by losing him. I put this HUGE value onto him that never was there before! I had initiated the break up because I was building this new great Whole30 living and realized I needed "me" time to figure out who I was becoming. I ended up taking SO many days off work/working from home because I couldn't handle being around him. I think in total I took at least 5-6 working from home days and one full day off (recover from holiday). I took a few days off before my whole30 was even completed knowing even though the breakup was for the best the initial awkwardness was hard to bare but I was still coping normally and still on my Whole30 high--normal breakup emotions until it got ugly. Here is how I "coped" with my emotions post Whole30/post weekend binge...... (don't judge--actually you probably should haha) Tuesday I had half a bottle of wine to "take the edge of", Wednesday I was depressed so I had a WHOLE pint of ice cream, Thursday a whole box of cookies (LUCKILY I dragged my sad/lost self to yoga after because of guilt and luckily they were gluten free so they didn't wreck my stomach), last night I had half a pint of ice cream, three glasses of wine and like five cookies. This morning I woke up I hid the remaining wine bottles and threw out ALL the sweets and got my BUTT to yoga with weights. I will probably take an additional yoga class later tonight in replacement of my "sugar binge" hour. ***For the record when I was sad before I would binge but one night or not anywhere near this!!!*** Now I am going back to Whole30 cutting out alcohol and sugar and coming to grips with these emotions. I have NEVER felt so low or had so much anxiety in my whole life!!! I also am up for a huge promotion, just moved into a beautiful beach house and I just found out I'm going to be an aunt yet I am so fixated on this guy and the breakup and feeling sorry for myself!!!!! --Also sidenote I didn't mess up my physical progress much only gained about 2-3 pounds back out of 11 lost but MENTALLY I have lost it all--who would have thought? AGAIN, alcohol and sugar are DRUGS to me!!! Until I get my ducks in a row these will always be a huge depressant and only push me further into whatever hole I have dug. I highhhhhly suggest when you come off the Whole30 to be careful ESPECIALLY if you have a lot going on in your life. Your body is on a high, don't crush it! I also wish I had gone longer on my Whole30 because 30 days did feel like enough but I wouldn't be in this rut if I had kept going BUT that is why I am BACK and hoping to be better than ever. Any advice, books, lessons, quotes or anyone that can relate would be AWESOME I am DETERMINED to come out of this a better, stronger, happier more self loving person! They do say "tough times don't last but tough people do!" I WILL be as strong as I was when I originally took on the Whole30 in June. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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