MadyVanilla

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    Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30

    !! !!
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    Take Advantage

    @ShadowInTheKitchen - . Contessa's insight - lifestyle practice. But I am ready to fully embrace that idea. I chose to have an Italian sub for lunch yesterday and finished it for dinner last night. It was good, I feel fine today. Since I wasn't guiltily "breaking compliance" I didn't feel the need to finish the entire sub at lunch and was able to eat just half and be satisfied. Instead of sickeningly overstuffed because I had to eat the whole thing in order to start fresh with my next meal (which never works). I ate a less than ideal meal with an ideal approach - enjoyed with my daughter, stopped when at satiety, and felt only a smidge of guilt that I wasn't ordering a salad. And, because I didn't overstuff myself, I felt like going to the gym instead of taking a nap. I started the c25k and did 3 sets of front squats. Since I didn't get to 8,000 steps, I took a quick bike ride in order to meet the step goal. Then I did a yoga session. So, I knocked out all my goals for the day and stayed on track with them for the week. I'm kind of proud of myself for being able to make what I consider a poor choice for lunch but not letting it derail me for the day. I really think this is what food freedom will be for me. I want to eat W30 most of the time, with the occasional Italian sub, glass of wine, serving of risotto...I will say again that I'm going to continue in this holding pattern, making compliant choices most of the time until after my birthday. This is new territory for me to not be in an all-or-nothing mentality, so I think I can experiment, practice, for the next two weeks. Getting ready to meal plan, then heading to a trail to get my steps in for today.
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    Gin's 6th Whole30 Log

    I hope you were able to get some good sleep. It's hard to function and make good choices when tired, but you are doing it! I too was sooo tired my first week of W30. Then I had a high energy day and thought, "finally!" and then I was super-tired the next day or two. It worked itself out...one of the other forum members reminded me to be kind, gentle, and patient with myself as my body adjusted to the positive changes I was making and to the emotional challenges I was experiencing.
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    Whole30 in Germany

    I love fried, slightly charred banana with cinnamon mixed into scrambled eggs. I will try throwing in some raisins next time. Congrats on the five year anniversary!
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    Take Advantage

    Yesterday was not fully compliant, but great nonetheless. I decided to have a glass of wine with dinner and it was delicious and worth it. FWIW, the Primal Kitchen mango jalapeno barbecue sauce is amazing-my anti-healthy diet husband agreed. My mood and energy levels were good all day. I've been mulling over a revelation I had the other day after reading and thinking about a question about tiger blood in @Semi's log...I think my issue over the last few weeks is that I lost the tiger blood. Between the staying-compliant-with-the-poorest-choices-I-could-ingest, the heat wave, the emotional roller-coaster of home life...I lost it. It's possible, probable, that it would be impossible to maintain tiger blood when other areas are unstable, but keeping that in mind is another way for me to be non-judgmental and kind with myself. In my twisted self-talk way of convincing myself of various half-truths, the goal of regaining the tiger blood seems less daunting than sticking with a W30. I think it has to do with my black-and-white, today was compliant or non-compliant mentality. I'm still pondering this and why it strikes me as important. Mood-8, Energy-8, Pain-2 I hit the yoga goal with a delicious, hour long session during a thunderstorm yesterday. Today, I should be able to get in my 2nd gym session (and hit that goal for the week), get 8k steps, and start C25k. Tomorrow morning will be meal planning and shopping. And I think I'll plan a drive to go for a hike. M1-leftover chicken and zucchini from last night. OMG so good. M2-Daughter is coming by to pick up some mail and asked if I wanted to get lunch...will go for some sort of salad with steak or chicken. M3-Chicken with Primal Kitchen buffalo sauce. I should look up a ranch dressing recipe. I'm partial to blue cheese, but I can do ranch. I'll probably put it over romaine. With salted, sliced cucumber. I can feel myself getting excited about meals again... Holding pattern continues - I opened that wine last night and I'll need to finish it (can't let good wine go to waste!). I'm actually pretty happy here the last few days. My birthday is later this month, so maybe this will be a good place to be until then.
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    Take Advantage

    I'm at a big multi-purpose gym that has a huge free weight area with lots of space to do whatever my heart desires...! Pre-Covid, the place was often crowded and it was hard to find a little niche to be in, so I worry that it will eventually be that way again. Granted, I went at 2:30 yesterday afternoon which I'm able to do given my current schedule. My normal time would be 4:30/5:00 pm. I'm not going to go at that time for a while. Part of my issue with going was exactly what you stated - I was seeing pictures on social media of packed spin and body pump classes. I don't go to those, but still, it was a little disconcerting. But yesterday, people were wearing masks walking in and walking around from place to place (that's the rule). So, I wore my mask until I got to the treadmill (I had a whole row to myself, plus there were cloth barriers in between each machine) and then put my mask back on to walk over to the free weight area. I had a moment of indecision about whether or not I should wear my mask as i loaded up plates, but decided i should always wear it unless actively engaged in exercise. I just brought all the plates I would need to my area. With so few people there, I felt like I could do that without upsetting anyone for hogging the plates. Everyone picks up a bottle of sanitizer and cloth as they walk in and are expected to sanitize their areas once done (I also sanitized before I started).
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    Gin's 6th Whole30 Log

    I am overrun with zucchini-thanks for giving me a new idea to try!
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    Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30

    Every day you're moving closer to tackling your next W30...but my goodness, your meals sound so delicious and wholesome. This is the type of day I will be striving for when I'm practicing Food Freedom...nourishing, yummy meals and rich, worth-it snacks.
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    Whole30 in Germany

    But is it going to be the good, worth-it ice cream? It sounds like you are getting lots of movement in, despite the heat. That's awesome. Nothing to say here, except yep, it's awful. But necessary. I so struggle with this, too.
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    Take Advantage

    First trip to the gym yesterday - yay! It was very quiet, and I did feel safe. The few that were there were respectful of distance. I will be comfortable going back. I walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes, though I had planned to do the first C25K module. I got confused and thought the app wasn't working correctly, but it was just me. I also did 3 sets of deadlifts. It felt so good to get back in with the barbell. From there I went to the blood bank to donate...that was a fiasco. I am a regular donor, but this time, there were issues with the needle stick (a new phlebotomist) and then feeling lightheaded, nauseous, and like I was going to faint. So my excuse for my lackluster dinner was that I needed to rest and relax. But overall, it was a decent day. Today, I'm feeling really good. Mood-8, Energy-8, Pain-2, still the shoulder. It takes soo long for my body to heal as I approach 50! I met my yoga goal for the day. Half way there on the gym goal. I still have not attained 8,000 steps, though close yesterday. I think I will modify that to 2 times this week, up to 3 next week, and so on. M1-Not hungry, have only had black coffee. Will likely have an early lunch. M2-tacos would be awesome. I think I'll order a Chipotle lifestyle bowl. M3-Last night's planned chicken dish. Still in the holding pattern, but it's ok. I came across a quote on social media this morning that really resonates with me right now: "If you quit now, you'll end up right back where you first began. And when you first began, you were desperate to be right where you are now." TRUTH.
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    Take Advantage

    @Contessa and @ShadowInTheKitchen I really feel like we are on the same path, in different places on that path, but the same path nonetheless. We are cheering for each other, I love it!!! I so appreciate knowing that others know exactly what I mean, because you are absolutely correct, Shadow, journaling is awesome and I'm finding my way this time around because I'm being faithful to this process. Contessa, I can reallly buy into what your therapist says about getting sick of our own excuses and patterns. I actively find myself saying, "stop making excuses and own your choices!" frequently these days. That shift in mindset doesn't mean I"m always making the right choices (clearly) but it is a coin in my bank of self-kindness. This IS practice, it's how anyone gets better at anything. I'm engaging in self-awareness/healthy lifestyle practice. Yes!!! I used to think it was hokey pseudo-psychology, the idea of forgiving yourself. That mantra can be found in every self-help manual, podcast, talk show. But I really think it is the key - finding it within ourselves to be forgiving of our poor, conscious choices and moving on. I'm not there yet, but I am beginning to see the way. It IS better to at least make a goal, to be mildly engaged in this process even if I can't find the energy to actively engage. That is wisdom, Shadow. If nothing else, the pandemic has given me the time I need to process the whys and hows. I also laughed out loud at this!! The mental image, a hilarious reality check...I love spending time in the woods, but I do not plan to spend the next half of my life foraging for tree bark!
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    Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30

    What an excellent idea!
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    Whole30 in Germany

    That. Is. Beautiful. I could never survive living in Germany...filled butter cake?? As if the plum cake isn't tough enough to resist...
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    RachelR- Start Date May 4, 2020

    But you threw them out!!! So it was a battle with the Sugar Dragon, and you won!
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    Gin's 6th Whole30 Log

    Being able to fall back on something simple and already prepared IS comforting when not feeling well emotionally and physically. And it helps to have nourishing food so that you don't have to put thought and energy into making meals. I'm glad you are able to maintain eating properly and that you hopefully now have the time and space needed to grieve.