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  1. I have made this several times, always tasty (and cheap!)
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    Only Lost 6 Pounds, but...

    I'm glad my post was hopeful! I definitely didn't think it was possible for me either, but think/hope this will stick. I think food has a HUGE impact on mental health. I definitely (generally) get along with people better too, my boyfriend and I would joke that we didn't fight when I am on Whole30. Some of it may have to be with food toxicity or just helping bridge missing brain chemicals and fuel/nourish your body with natural hormone-producing foods that are nutrient-rich.
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    Only Lost 6 Pounds, but...

    So, I have an unhealthy obsession with my weight. I lost 22 pounds my first round, 12 my second, and about 6 this third one (weighed in this morning, which is my Day 31!). 1) I basically did them consecutively over the past few months. 2) I probably had more to lose at first and the novelty has worn off. 3) I probably under-ate my first round and have progressively incorporated more carbs/fats/variety into my Whole30 diet. So I only lost 6 pounds, BUT I have so many NSVs... Most of them are related to mental health improvements - I have been diagnosed as bipolar and border and experience extreme mood swings and intense emotional states. I made the decision to stop meds a few years ago (which I know is very controversial and not right for everyone, even maybe myself) due to crazy weight gain and not feeling like myself. Whole30 has helped me stabilize my mood and improve my self-esteem; I feel way less cloudy and much more stable. This is a major victory for me! Cholesterol and vitamin levels improved (no more meds/supplements needed) My skin is glowing (and very tan from biking!) and my hair is the longest and healthiest it's ever been (also, haven't gotten a haircut in forever with the pandemic) I have a tasty, healthy arsenal of food to eat throughout the week and like the routine - food shopping is easy and cooking has become more routine, brainless, easy, and fun; I know how to stock my fridge, freezer, and pantry with foods that I enjoy that also happen to be healthy I feel less likely to rebound and binge this time... it only took me three rounds! My doctor recommended I do a round every 3 months, which I think is a good idea for me. Until next time!
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    Day 27 Round 3, Exhausted/Scared

    Thank you. I wonder if you might also enjoy the podcast and book I've been listening to/reading. They are comforting in the same way Whole30 is for me but on the other end of the spectrum. I think I've probably lost about 60-75 pounds (not sure until I weigh myself) from my highest weight, and it wasn't all Whole30, but most of my weight was med-related so coming off of them certainly helped - trying to lose weight has just messed with my eating habits, metabolism, cravings, and binging though. It's like trying to lose weight has created this pattern of very disordered eating. My weight fluctuated growing up but I was never obsessed with and scared of food like I am now. Hoping for the best for us, thank you as always for your reply!
  5. I recently posted my "Whole30 transformation" to a Facebook group (350+ likes!), and I'm probably the thinnest I've ever been in my adulthood... but I've been listening to an anti-diet podcast called Food Psych about Health at Every Size/body positivity and am reading The F*ck It Diet now... I'm also *obsessed* with food, especially looking at pictures of food and taking food quizzes on BuzzFeed. Does anyone else's intuition feel like Whole30 is just another diet and inherently wrong? I keep convincing myself it's not and has great merits (I've certainly benefited from them), but what happens when it's over (again) and I want everything I was restricting (and not milk- I'll want an entire tub of ice cream; not rice, but a cheese fries chicken fingers platter and a brownie sundae, etc.)... what happens when I inevitably put on weight again... how much longer can I keep participating in this depressing and exhausting cycle of restriction and binging? Feeling pretty miserable and helpless (day 27 of round 3). #debbiedowner
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    I don't need to binge

    Thank you. It's been rough but I feel like I'm reclaiming my life back and am strangely optimistic about the future. I thought about about PhD/admin programs on my bike ride and investing my passion into my work and others vs. the family I've been dreaming of. It feels good to get a reply, I hope you've made peace with binging too - I know it's not resolved forever for me, but tonight it feels like a small victory amidst a huge defeat.
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    I don't need to binge

    I think today was the last day of a very tumultuous school year (I'm a teacher) and even more tumultuous relationship of almost 2.5 years (I'm also almost 29) -- which is saying a lot, because this school year involved a student death, multiple child abuse charge for a colleague who taught a few doors down and tried to flee the country in a national news story, leading to my principal put on admin leave and two interim principals, a worldwide pandemic, and schools closing for the last 3 months of the year -- somehow, my relationship (and relationships in general) are even more tumultuous. I think it was the first time that I was actually in love and I really thought that he was the one. I planned an entire future complete with a house (that is currently being built), a prospective marriage in the next year or so, and children. It is devastating. When he left, I perfunctorily cleaned up the kitchen from a huge dinner I had made him, cried, wrote some things down I didn't want to forget, and just got back from a bike ride to help me feel tired enough to sleep. I'm finishing a movie I started earlier. I did not go to food. I do not need to go to food. Food is the bad friend you think is there for you when you need them only to make you feel worse after, using your pain perversely to screw with your self-esteem and mental health afterwards. I always went to food. I needed food. What else did I have? It was okay when I felt this bad, because I needed it. By now, I would be heaving from cheese fries, a loaf of bread and butter, chicken tenders, fast food, dessert... driving as fast as I could from one place to the next to get it over with, thinking the next food would bring me comfort, throwing things in the trash can outside my door so that it didn't enter my home and I could forget about it. This is not tonight. Tonight, I do not need to do those things because they never help -- the immediate relief I thought I got from it is not worth it, it never was. Thank you, Whole30. (I feel like I'm in a cult.)
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    Lowered Cholesterol, Lost Weight, Improved Mental Health!

    Thank you
  9. I heard about Whole30 through my cousin, who sells essential oils and shared the basic rules and some recipes with me as part of a detox program. While the detox didn't work out for me, I was intrigued and did my own research, reading the 30-Day Guide and finishing my first Whole30/reintroduction March 5 and second one May 23; I didn't do well coming off my last one so I started another reset a few days ago, too. This forum has been really helpful to me so I thought I'd share some of my success! First, my cholesterol skyrocketed down after my first round and I'll be doing my lab work again soon to see if I won't need meds anymore (I'm prescribed a super low dose I don't actually take, but my doctor thinks it won't be needed if I continue my healthy habits, which we will assess at my upcoming appointment). The weight loss has definitely helped my self-esteem as well. I attached a photo that shows what I looked like pre-psychiatric meds, post-meds (probably close to my heaviest ever), right before my first Whole30 (I had already lost some weight through other means over the course of a few years), and the last one is from the end of my second round. I lost 22 pounds my first round and 12 my second. Most importantly, Whole30 has helped me combat my mental health struggles. For so long, I struggled with different diagnosis (Bipolar I/II, Borderline, anxiety, depression, etc.), a few involuntary hospitalizations, toxic relationships, and horrible nights I thought I'd never get through. I definitely still experience these things but I finally feel more in control, better equipped to deal with everything, greater clarity of mind, and can gracefully recover from bad episodes... and Whole30 has a LOT to do with all of that. I am incredibly grateful to Melissa, Dallas, and the entire Whole30 team for sharing this incredible gift with me.
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    My Dinner at Zoe's

    I went today and used their app, which has little Whole30 icons all over it now! Some things changed (like the salsa verde is not compliant anymore- yikes, but there is a new lemon herb tahini!) and you still have to be careful (the avocado smash, which had a $2 off promo, was listed as Whole30 if you replace the pita with cucumbers -- unfortunately, it also had feta cheese I had to scoop off )... still, very tasty!
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    Frustrated I Can't Have Food Freedom

    The book definitely talks about different strategies like waiting a set amount of time and then deciding if you still want it! My original plan was to continue eating Whole30 minus one thing each day since I know it's a slippery slope for me and I spiral, but I typically end up wanting everything I've been missing, not enjoying them, committing to another round, and then eating everything I want all at once in anticipation- ugh!
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    Frustrated I Can't Have Food Freedom

    Good luck! I've thankfully managed to keep about 50lbs off so far during my entire weight loss journey over the past couple of years, but it's not easy and I've definitely fluctuated! I started another reset on Wednesday with the intention of it at least being a Whole7 plus reintro and see how I feel, but I feel SO much better I may just go the whole 30 days again... three rounds in a row!
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    Frustrated I Can't Have Food Freedom

    Fair warning, the podcast is a bit at-odds with Whole30 (I've actually heard it mentioned by name a few times as another "fad diet" masked as a "lifestyle change"), but both have been helpful for me and it's been fun/challenging to make sense of the two together and what works for me. My username is a combo of Mazzy Star and a song I like called "Starslight" by At the Drive-In
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    Frustrated I Can't Have Food Freedom

    Thanks for your reply! Yesterday was rough, but today is a new day (I am starting my Whole7 plus reintroduction, and may extend it). My therapist/dietician recommended a podcast to me called Food Psych, which has also mentioned that weight cycling is more dangerous than maintaining a heavier weight too. I definitely recommend Food Freedom Forever, and I think it's only $6 right now (I just got It Starts With Food for that price on Amazon Kindle) -- it obviously hasn't helped me as much as I've hoped yet, but it's really insightful and I even took screenshots of a few pages I wanted to refer back to when making food decisions (clearly did not happen yesterday). Best of luck (and hard work!) to us both! I like your username
  15. YET I finished my second round of Whole30 on Friday -- it really should have ended this Thursday after I reintroduced gluten but I took an impromptu road trip and it was too hard to say no to my cousin's homemade pasta, bread, cocktails, etc., especially since I did no preparation besides bring a few emergency bars. I learned a lot from the experience and held it together okay until I got back today, when I went on an eating spree at my parent's house (where I got dropped off) and on my way back to my apartment. I just finished reading Food Freedom Forever, have read the 30-Day Guide, and recently started It Starts With Food. I get the science, psychology, and everything behind it all and read everything carefully, but get so nervous consuming things that are non-compliant that I decided to starting at least a Whole7 and maybe extend it when I got back (starting tomorrow) so I think I just kind of went nuts in anticipation and now I feel horrible. A few takeaways: Impromptu trips are hard during a reset/reintro -- I need to better prepare and communicate, and be more comfortable saying no and accommodating what I can eat I can't "go crazy" once I stop my reset/reintroduction, but I also can't guilt trip myself every time I eat something "off-plan" afterwards either I can't just keep going back to a reset after a few days/little bit (there was less than month between my first and second Whol30) and "go crazy" because I know that I'm about to reset again I need to find a dietician/health care provider that is supportive of my healthy lifestyle goals (I feel like my current one is very anti-diet culture and wary of any type of elimination thing like this, and I'm only proving her right) I need to learn how to trust myself around food/drink so that I'm not feeling like I'll go off the rails without Whole30 I have to stop obsessing over my weight (I lost 22 pounds my first Whole 30 and gained about 8 eight pounds in a month before I started my second, when I lost another 12 pounds -- too scared to check now after just a few days); I've lost over 50 pounds on my weight loss journey since about 2018 and hate fluctuating so much I'm basically just annoyed that I've done all of this reading and talking about it, invested in more expensive healthy foods, get into a healthy eating/exercise routine, and then totally blow it up. It's kind of what I do to everything -- relationships, work, etc. -- but I'm just so mentally fatigued and it's hard to trouble-shoot sometimes