emilythepenguin Posted July 8, 2012 Share Posted July 8, 2012 So here we go. Tomorrow is the first day. I've planned and shopped for the first three days and will plan/make a shopping list for the second half of the week. Emotionally I'm both excited and scared. I'm a weight watchers member and signed up for another round recently but have been constantly bingeing on foods Dallas and Melissa call "food with no brakes." I reached lifetime WW membership last summer but have since gained 10 lbs and am not really following the program. I have felt like a huge failure in the weight area of my life. I feel frustrated because I often think that I have every resource at my disposal to be healthy and I am truly not healthy. As I read the examples of a good day and a bad day in "It Starts With Food" I realized how closely my day lines up with the bad day and how badly I want the good day. Nutritionally I'm pretty psychologically addicted to carbs and food as a reward. My sleep is also totally messed up because I drink coffee and diet pop throughout the day, I am EXHAUSTED in the afternoon and sleep for a few hours, followed by overeating, then take melatonin to go to sleep again at night. Which leads to exhaustion in the morning. Planning is not something I've been doing. I usually skip breakfast or bring fiber one with fat free yogurt to work to eat. I eat school lunch (I work at a school program as a therapist) which is generally not good, a frozen dinner, or subway. When I do pack my lunch it is a sandwich, pretzels, fruit. I eat carby stuff for dinner and eat a lot at night. I have made a lot of habits that are not at all healthy that I need to drop because if this continues they will only be more ingrained. I have a lot of fears that I won't be able to do this. I am already anxious, even though I have a plan and the food I need, just because of the high level of failure in the past. I have tried paleo/low carb before (granted without the tools given in whole30), but quit almost immediately. I am trying to prepare myself for the coming storm but am so afraid. I'll do some of the journaling recommended in the success guide. More info to come as I proceed. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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