Christie Mawby Posted August 19, 2013 Share Posted August 19, 2013 So, I had no intention of starting off my whole 30 until September 1. I have been in preparation mode all weekend; broths, soups, meatballs, chicken....all premade and frozen. Ingredient shopping (taking advantage of the extra August paycheque). All of it. Then the unthinkable happened. My fridge died. Okay, its been in the process of retirement for weeks. We haven't been able to keep milk or veggies alive for more than a few days for about a month. Yesterday we gave up when the 1lb of cooked pickerel leftovers were fuzzy after just two days in our fridge. Sure the panic set in about where we would come up with an extra 1400 for a fridge but, it's fine now. We sorted that out. Then the work started. We had to move all our still edible produce and fridge contents to our "overflow" fridge in the basement. As I emptied our predominately produce laden fridge to the lower floor I started to go through the jars on the door. A bottle of mayo, a couple bottles of salad dressing (creamy and regular), some "organic" pasta sauce etc. I figured that I would be tossing all of it. But, surprise surprise....they were all fine! I was totally excited to not have to replace them all. Then I started thinking.....I just threw out 4 cups of mouldy pasta sauce I made 3 days ago....why is this jar of "organic" sauce ~ which has been open for a month in a poorly functioning fridge ~ still safe? Why is the mayonnaise still edible when the milk I bought 4 days ago is now a solid mass of curd in my garbage can? Just what the #$%% is in this food that is preventing it from rotting? And why is it not on their labels? Do I want this crap in my body? Is this really what it takes to actually see how chemically laden my food has become? Even the "safe" choices....organic sauces/salad dressings....things that should have spoiled....were full of enough preservatives to keep them "safe" after a MONTH in a non-working fridge. I am torn between being angry and being horrified. I used to think that I could get away with not going "all in" not dedicating the time to make mayo, to make bbq sauce, to make ketchup, or cheat with tomato sauce and salad dressing. I realized last night (at 2 am, while rolling around in bed unable to sleep) that that is just not the case. I used to think that the "make it all, all the time" side of paleo was a touch neurotic. Now, I am choking on my own hubris. So, when my new fridge arrives - it will be filled only with real food. When my fridge arrives it will be a start and an end for the Mawby clan. I have spent the morning tossing out all those jars of food that were "thankfully" not soured. I have replaced them with homemade dressings, I jumped in and made the bbq sauce from ISWF (we do love to grill). I have eggs warming on the counter to attempt mayo. My whole (life) is starting about 5 weeks ahead of schedule. I don't even want to call it a whole(30) because when Sept 30 rolls around I am not stopping. Sure, there will be times when I splurge on treats....my kids will still get a cookie, but that cookie will be homemade, with ingredients I sourced locally and can trust. Commercial food just lost me and my family forever. Yes, this does come off as a bit of a knee jerk reaction....but I jerked my knee, conked myself in the head, and realized that this is what I need to do for my family. No excuses. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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