JGiggly Posted May 11, 2014 Share Posted May 11, 2014 Yes. I am back to do it again! Today will be my day one. I'll post my log tonight. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GFChris Posted May 11, 2014 Share Posted May 11, 2014 Welcome back, JGiggly! How are you feeling these days? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted May 12, 2014 Author Share Posted May 12, 2014 I have struggled ever since I left. Today was no different. I need to make tomorrow my day one. I don't know why taking care of myself has become so difficult. I am discouraged... no, not discouraged...disappointed. I need to just move forward and obviously I need structure and support. I also bought "It starts with food." My journey away, although not successful in the nutrition department has been successful in other areas. I'm not ready to share that. So forgive me for falling completely off the wagon and thanks for checking in. I'll start tomorrow. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GFChris Posted May 12, 2014 Share Posted May 12, 2014 Nothing to forgive. Welcome back. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 2, 2014 Author Share Posted July 2, 2014 [LOG @ the bottom] Let's talk. I don't mean literally. What I really mean is, I'm gonna rant. I have mentioned before my struggle with body image and eating disorders. I have mentioned I have chronic health issues. I may or may not have shared that I treat my body poorly by eating junky when I am stressed. I feel lousy. I feel discouraged. I don't need pity. I just need to lay it all on the line...again. Accountability, ya know. During my last W30, I wasn't recognizing the difference in my body because I was struggling so hard to get through a flare-up. In hindsight; I slept through the whole night, I felt radiant (mentally), and I was satisfied (not hungry). I was also discouraged because I wanted that instant miracle cure. Patience has obviously left me for another woman. My concern and confession: I know food can heal my body. I struggle (badly) to maintain what I feel is the best diet for me (whole 30/ paleo). Stress strikes and I want pasta, pizza, chips, ice cream, cheese, or chocolate. Whatever is junky and immediately satisfying/comforting...yeah, I want that. Not only do I want it to be comforting, but I want it to be quick to prepare. I am tired and busy. So back to my body image talk... During the last W30, I threw away my scale. I have no idea what I weigh, but it feels like a lot. Likely psychological. I am trying to LOVE me no matter what. That means through bad choices, weight gain, discouragement and so on. I am wearing my bathing suit as is and not covering it up. I am trying to eat well. I am trying to say nice things about myself and I am trying to stop saying horrible things that I would not say to my friend or worst enemy. I get that this sounds way to personal and like I possibly need years and years of therapy, I just need to be honest, open, and direct. It helps me to succeed. Transparency. I know since I have -not fallen off the wagon- but willingly leapt off and drove like lightening in the other direction and off a cliff that I don't sleep well, I have gained weight, and I have a ton of mini flare-ups. I try over and over to get a grip and that's why I am here again. DAY 1: Tuesday, July 1, 2014 Carrots Beef Shank marrow and meat [L] Leaf lettuce Banana Blueberries Olive oil, S&P Shank meat [D] Hamburger w/ mustard homemade sauerkraut celery & carrot sticks Fresh lettuce w/ olive oil and salt I went on the elliptical and now I am starving soooo..... 2 Hamburgers & salsa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 2, 2014 Author Share Posted July 2, 2014 Here's a great article related to body image: http://www.essentialmums.co.nz/mums-life/health/8757837/Passing-on-body-hatred Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 3, 2014 Author Share Posted July 3, 2014 DAY 2: Wednesday, July 2, 2014 2 meatballs Acorn squash [L] 5 Meatballs w/ mustard 7 black olives Acorn squash 2 slices pineapple [D] 2 "Sandwich steaks" Cooked carrots 7 black olives Physical activity: Swimming & Walking I swam before lunch. Maybe that's why I was so hungry. After lunch I took a walk. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 4, 2014 Author Share Posted July 4, 2014 Today was hell. Pardon my pessimism. I haven't had a headache or nausea (thinking about the timeline); but my feet are cramping, I'm irritable, and I want sleep. I'm at a cross between tired and kill all things...including the cute and furry. Anyway, my day may have been better had I not missed lunch. I had to go grocery shopping and my choices at home were limited. All better now. Then I went to the store all half starving and such and I wanted chips, and lemonade, and hamburger buns. UGH. Kill all things! Just so you know, I know this will pass. Might I also add I have been under high stress and I am still on track! Phew... taking the small triumphs where I can. DAY 3: Thursday, July 3, 2014 Hamburger & Salsa Acorn squash [L] (SNACK: I missed lunch) Black Olives 1T Sunflower seeds Applesauce [D] Steak Brussels Sprouts Salad: mixed greens, tomato, cucumber, olive oil, Salt Physical activity: NONE Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 5, 2014 Author Share Posted July 5, 2014 It may be Friday, but my weekly food prep is done. Hallelujah! This is one area that definitely makes life easier and helps me to maintain on the W30. Today was a good day. DAY 4: Friday, July 4, 2014 Egg medley: Steak, spinach, onion, mushrooms, Bing cherries [L] Salad: Mixed greens, tomatoes, cucumber, grated carrots, S&P, Olive oil 2 boiled eggs [D] 4 Spicy meatballs Brocolli Mayo sauce Physical activity: Elliptical Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GFChris Posted July 5, 2014 Share Posted July 5, 2014 Glad you had a good day today: nice job! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cate B. Posted July 5, 2014 Share Posted July 5, 2014 I just finished breakfast (well, I finished an hour ago), but your food log has now made me hungry again. And, it made me grateful for all the meal prep I did yesterday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 5, 2014 Author Share Posted July 5, 2014 Today I was grateful for all my meal prep too. I slept until almost 1:00 (12:40) and woke up to eat something already prepared. Love that! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 5, 2014 Author Share Posted July 5, 2014 Another perk of food prep is YUMMY food. Today all I had was yummy food. My taste buds and belly are happy (well, I had a touch of nausea, but I'm ok). [Yesterday's meal prep: 2lb fireballs, 4 lbs spicy meatballs, 10 scotch eggs, 8 chicken thighs, and a jar of mayo. I meant to chop up onions and the mega package of mushrooms I got, but never got to it. Maybe tomorrow.] DAY 5: Saturday, July 5, 2014 I slept until almost 1:00 this afternoon so... no breakfast today. Yes, I am refreshed. [L] 2 Scotch eggs & mayo sauce (mayo w/ a touch of mustard and cayenne) 1 whole cucumber Bing cherries [D] 1 super deliciously marinaded and grilled lemon garlic chicken thigh Salad: mixed greens, grated carrot, black olives, olive oil, and salt watermelon Banana Physical activity: None. I tried to go on my elliptical and my knees hurt too much. I suppose I could have done weights instead. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 7, 2014 Author Share Posted July 7, 2014 DAY 6: Sunday, July 6, 2014 2 eggs w/ salsa Squash [L] 3 Fireballs w/ mayo (for dipping) Salad: mixed greens, black olives, tomato, grated carrot, cucumber 1/2 slice watermelon Apple [D] 4 spicy spicy meatballs w/ spicy mayo sauce Squash Broccoli Physical activity: None...yet. I intend to... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 8, 2014 Author Share Posted July 8, 2014 DAY 7: Monday, July 7, 2014 I did not drink enough water or get enough sleep. I traveled across the state today. Traveling is always hard, but I am grateful I was prepared and didn't deviate. It was tempting a couple times. I packed enough food for every single meal I am gone and then brought a couple snacks...just in case. 2 eggs w/ spinach Apple [L] 1 Scotch Egg w/ mayo sauce Tomatoes Cucumber Banana [D] 2 Hamburgers Mayo sauce salsa sweet potato Physical activity: Light walk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JGiggly Posted July 9, 2014 Author Share Posted July 9, 2014 DAY 8: Tuesday, July 8, 2014 1 Scotch Egg w/ mayo sauce Broccoli 1 pineapple ring 2 pear halves [L] 2 fireballs w/ mayo Salad: baby spinach, black olives, eggs, grated carrot, olive oil [D] 4 Chicken sausages Squash Physical activity: None Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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