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  1. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    I feel I need to confess that I have seen numerous tarantula hawks on the nearby BLM land where I hike, and occasionally in my yard but I have not been stung. Just have seen the ghost like faces of friends and acquaintances while recounting the experience. Before I knew how painful their sting was, I really admired the pretty orange wings, and wanted a closer look Yet the numerous horse flies (ranchers graze their livestock up there which is otherwise enjoyable!) and yellow jackets, and ordinary wasps have caused enough pain for me to avoid just on their own. I didn't know how painful horse fly bites can be! Have you had a break through over there? I'm feeling like I'm getting a grip. Like you, I'm easing into it. I'm feeling the buddy system benefit, and am so grateful. Me too! With the exception of the hiking...I'm 3 for 4 days this week getting decent movement in, and today was very satisfying. I had another dance party warm up, and then dialed it down for the most focused yoga I've enjoyed since before all the recent chaos. What a relief. Then I received a message from self, "we're you just writing that the yoga you do is not strengthening? Pffft." So I'll keep doing the knee P/T, the core work, the upperbody weights a few times per week, and keep up the dance and yoga. Afterwards, I even made a little time for journal writing. I feel pretty good. I am a little worried that I'm not hiking to prepare for the big 5-day trip in early August, but I'm just not going up that trail, I'm just not, and I'm sure it will be fine. I'm feeling like the low-fat brainwash happened right along with cardio hype. Humans had to have had a big variety of physical activity along the millenia, right? Nomads sometimes moving, sometimes standing still, relatively speaking? I'm going with that. I'm a decent hiker. I did a big one last year, and I trained my butt off, and did great, and we'll see how this goes. I'll do my best. I looked up MovNat, that looks all kinds of wonderful! I'll have to spend some time and learn more, thank you for bringing it to my attention! Are you pleasantly sore from your upper body session? I'll do that tomorrow with my weights, or that is what I am loosely planning = ) Does your 3-day weekend start on Friday? I love that! The buckle of the bible belt gives me a real understanding. We're surrounded here, too, even in our village which is otherwise a blue donut hole (lots of city transplants) of a red district and overall red region of the state. Are the friends who host the biodynamic conference the same friends who host the shrimp boil and the music festival? I'm guessing different folks, but it sounds like an awesome community you have found, a real treasure. I have to dash, which is probably good as I know I get long-keyboarded here...thank YOU for the therapy session!
  2. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    Your crowd sounds like loads of fun, and so well matched with you and your husband. That shrimp boil/beer tasting sounds amazing! Yes, funny the ongoing parallel path we have, and thank God, for the restful Sunday. Dill pickle dip + pork rinds? Yum. I like what you wrote about being kinder to ourselves as we keep working the plan. And again, Meadowlily nailing it with that quote. Thank you so much for these insights. It helps me. Having you here has helped me to begin again this week. Reading about your life post W60, I congratulate you for kicking the snacking habit. The equation you came up with of mindfulness being an antidote to mindlessness sounds pretty reasonable! I wonder about the social aspect. It takes such self-dedication in the context of socializing. Assuming that your husband didn't join you in abstaining from adult beverages when you were doing your W60 and after, was that part of it hard? Yet, you did manage it so well. And here you have not re-engaged the snacking habit after work. When I think of mindfulness, I think of a focus. Choosing a focus, and then returning to it without judgment or analysis when the mind wanders. Actually, that is exactly what we're doing, isn't it? How does that apply with wine? How will you apply mindfulness? Is it a promise to self? Awareness of the trigger, and coming back to the commitment to self? I imagine you have your mate's full support. Have you re-read ISWF about alcohol, would that help? I ask because the book I mentioned some time ago, The End of Alzheimer's was similarly motivating, I'd say a companion to ISWF. I've made some big changes since reading it. And for the same reason, I want/need to re-read ISWF and also FFF. To deepen my understanding of why I'm making these choices, to be more conscious. As for Rudolf Steiner, yes, I know him mainly in the context of Waldorf Schools! I'm glad you lifted him up. I will have to re-visit him. I'm the religious studies minor who never put down her books...and never let go an interest in the religions, I just don't fit into any pigeon holes, or I do all of them, just not outwardly. I like the work of Karen Armstrong, and her point that the best of all of the religions boils down to the Golden Rule. Seems that really religious folks get all tangled up in their own dogma and lose that piece, preferring being right over compassionate towards others. Well, you are so wise with your no-plan plan! As for me, I pinky swear that I will join you in adding movement! I have already gone bust on my own plan, but am in a groove with your plan! In other words, yesterday, Monday, I did something very reasonable and fun, totally outside of my usual routine-when-I'm-in-a-routine. First, my usual routine is a big sweaty, blissful hike up my local trail. Have I mentioned it's triple digits, yucky air is back now and in any case with the high temps come the stinging, biting insects up the trail? Yeah, horse flies, wasps, and worst of them all, tarantula hawks. Those guys love to kill the tarantula and lay their eggs in them. In the meanwhile, human hikers are up for grabs. Is this natural selection at play? In any case, they're really painful! In a buddy system with a friend I braved the trail last summer early mornings 5x/wk and I was bitten and stung so many times! Ouch! Benzocaine and antihistamines to the rescue. It's very unpleasant. I don't feel like doing that again! So during pleasant months I hike for 40-60 minutes, then come home to stretch. Yoga of course is somewhat strengthening, but probably not so much so with what I do, if I'm honest. Since our W30/W60 experience it's been dawning on me that I can/should be adding real strength work, and I can really lighten up the cardio, anyway. So except for when I'm training for a big hike (as I should be doing now - Aug 5 trip on the near horizon) I'm easing up on cardio. What I'm trying to say, is that I'm creating a new routine. I had a few good weeks of the new deal before all the chaos that started in June. And that is a 10 minute cardio warm up, and 3x/wk weights for upper body, and then floor work for lower body and core, and yoga 5 days per week. Done in an hour, easy, unless I have the luxury of a longer yoga/meditation, which is glorious, but seems unattainable lately. That's what I outlined 2 days ago here....what I actually ended up doing on Monday was to ease into movement again by putting on some music and dancing/stretching and a little calisthenics in the mix. This morning I did the same, with more focus. 20 minutes while the hubs was upstairs listening to the news while he got ready for work. I think I wanted to drown it out, and as a result, I was in a MUCH better mood than he was. As for food, it's been a good week so far, no disasters. This is an improvement. I'm observing how just a couple of days is enough of a self-esteem boost to keep it going. I've got chili in the fridge, and instead of shrimp patties, I had ckn thighs to do something with. So we're set until the weekend. Somehow, I've managed to never have a long commute, but if I did, I think I would feel exactly the way you do! I can totally understand your motivation to get up extra early, and avoid that nonsense. Good for you. When you started a program with your daughter, were you exercising after work? I can really see your dilemma. There's just not enough hours in the day. When you stopped exercising did you feel your body ache/yearn for movement again? I always feel that when I stop. You're a really wise soul, I know you will figure out how to get what you need. There's no going back now. This is reminding me a little of that quote from Anais Nin, "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk to blossom" Does this speak to you? It's not a perfect metaphor. But for me, having the movement onboard absolutely helps me be more at blossom in the world. My husband has a really good spin cycle in his office, and he works out on it 3-4x/wk, after dinner. I don't know how he does it. He hates it, but he makes himself do it. I have to enjoy my exercise! He calls himself T-Rex, strong, giant lower body, and tiny arms. It's not that bad! Anyway, I've tried it, and I just hate it, which is a deal breaker. I have to feel some joy or pleasure, and outdoor hiking and yoga give me all of that. I am imagining that if you had a little exercise momentum, that wine habit would be much easier to manage...you can do it! We can do this! Like you, I get up at 530. But I read in bed for quite a while first. It's my only read-the-news time. This is where I need to make a promise to myself to actually get up by 545. And get moving. I'll do my best for the rest of the week! Now...to bed, to sleep per chance to dream.
  3. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    Greetings! Wow, I'm having a civilized Sunday. I have never been so happy to have the luxury of time to do ordinary, mundane things like laundry and sorting, and sitting at my desk. Oh boy! Last week was one of unreasonably long hours. But we got through it! The good news is that the new staffer is doing great, and neither the hubs nor I got hurt or sick as a result of fiendish hours...just real tired and worn out. This week will be back to all hands on deck. Thank you for your presence here, and your last post, too! I would not have read M's email if you hadn't mentioned it. (Maybe I should take a peek more often!) Your summary nailed it. Reading it myself was also helpful. I realize that I am still in the process of re-wiring my brain after so many years of sub-optimal habits. Is it possible that even though we both feel like we're not making a lot of progress, that we actually are, and can't recognize it b/c of a matter of perception? B/c weight loss is not what we want it to be? As for me, I haven't dared to step on the scale since I think the new year, and I did well through April, but since the last 7 weeks I can tell I'm filling out my clothes. Definitely time to recover and not look back. Thank you for sharing the email, and of yourself so honestly. M. mentioned morning routine, and part of my brain went, "oh yeah!! That's my foundation! I can do that again, get the morning routine going!" How could I have forgotten that? Well, I guess I didn't forget, it's just that everything about the last 7 weeks has been out of routine. A blip. I can do this. Like you, I need to have an exercise routine to keep my self respect, and sense of personal momentum going. What time of day works for you, say, if you were to return to exercise? What would it look like? How long, how many days per week? If you were to form a plan, or return to a former good plan, what would that be? Your wine is my occasional candy. Not even the good stuff. So not worth it. M's email made me realize I could benefit from going back to her books, and really look at what triggers me. That kind of action seems to take the judgment out. What is your trigger when you pour a glass of wine? Last week was bi-polar...many of my meals were compliant, and I may have even had an entire day of compliance. The ratio coulda/shoulda been higher...and it's so plain for me to see that when I transgressed, the trend avalanched or otherwise veered off road into the ditch. So, there is this week! This week will be "normal hours". It occurs to me that it is more or less a part of my identity that I go from one extreme to the other...and this out of control vacation/indulgences/too busy at work to make good food phase (or that is my excuse) has me so fed up with myself that this week will be a swing back in a better direction. What does that look like? Well, here is my actual plan, more clear and certain than the one I wrote here a week ago ahead of the exhausting week (Whew! I survived! Yay!) Early to bed, early to rise. Morning routine to include movement/exercise/yoga Mon-Fri. MWF to include strength training. Food: a solid week that allows only added sugar (such as my coveted orange muscat champagne vinegar for example) and occasional non-compliant condiments. Main dishes on the menu: bison chili, shrimp patties, blackberry sage breakfast sausages...and plenty of fresh roasted and steamed veg and crisp salads. That's as far as I've got for food...and I'll be cooking for most of the rest of the day after I send this missive. So keep my honest, Holly! In order to have dinner at home, I have to be ready to have stuff for hubs to eat, too (otherwise I justify Mexican, and that is just dangerous). So I'll have to have that lined up. In order to have today as a day of rest, I postponed the store/home (food) shopping until tomorrow, Monday. B/C we'll be properly staffed, I can afford to spend the afternoon shopping...so I'll go in early, and then leave after lunch to shop, and come back to close....this is a test flight of a routine that might work better for me than killing myself doing home shopping after work on Sat., or on our only day off, which is Sunday. Meanwhile, yes, finally the cravings have quieted down! For me Christmas is also all about the family connection...huge grief trigger. I'm not religious, although I can find meaning in the solstice, and even a kind of cosmic Christ, though I'm not strictly Christian. I can't really name myself in terms of religion or spirituality...paradox of language and all of that...anyway, being away from husband at Xmas, and with bro and kids and all of their sugar traditions will be a complete experiment. Following my heart, see what happens, right? This is it. Crystalized. It's a new week. We haven't gone in the ditch yet or missed any opportunities. What kind of week will you have? Feel like pinky swearing on an exercise routine?
  4. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    Thanks! Yum cornichons! The garlic ferments are super intriguing, and I can so easily imagine how tasty and healing the honey garlic will be during cold season. Last night after work I was really tired, and used some zinc to nip anything in the bud that might be taking advantage of my sleep deprived, immune-compromised state. I think I'm okay, but being in that place made the honey garlic sound soooo good. I love pickled garlic - there used to be two giant jars of them at the bar of a favorite restaurant, but I've never had homemade. Do you give a lot of food gifts to friends and co-workers? I'll bet they love that! I imagine that your husband being sick means extra work for you to keep up with the garden. Hope he gets better soon! It must be hard to find time to cook with so much to occupy you in the way of harvesting, "putting up" etc. It's a whirlwind!!! I got up extra early yesterday to make hash, and it was really good, one of the best ones yet. This will get me through with salads and steamed or roasted vegetables until I can get another mini-cook up going. I sympathize with you with your dad's casserole - trial and error, right? And also a tribute to him...is it too late to add some browned ground meat? The roasted cauli dish sounds so amazing, I am going to try that!! Drool. Good question about the food flex and how I felt...it was a case of so many variables all at once, it's kind of hard to say. I know on paper it looks really bad. No exercise, only a few hours of sleep each night. No animal protein all week, some cheese, bread (though fermented as you said, yes!), tortillas for wraps...ironically no beans as I was expecting, based on previous experience. I felt hungry a lot, but didn't get headaches, skin outbreaks, or GI issues...the takeaway that is really up for me is the craving. Yesterday did not go very well. I actually ate a croissant, and, OMG. Chips. Yes, chips. But today is a new day. I stretched, and already had a decent breakfast, with a good plan of grilled chicken salad for lunch, and hash and veg for dinner. I can't wait to get this week behind me so I can chill and take a little more time for myself. Loved reading about your visit with your mom! And glad you have more family time coming up! I'm looking at airfares for Christmas since it doesn't really mean that much to my husband, but does quite a lot to my brother and me...I have my hubs' blessing, and I'm looking forward to it. It will be a year anniv since the big December W30 we did... The ghastly ticking clock is demanding that I move along now....so, see you later!
  5. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    Heya Holly! I did hear that rushing zoom sound! So much life unfolding, and activities from sea to shining sea, eh? OMG! You made butter chicken!!!! Waaaaahhhhh! That is SO cool, and I'm at an all time, "beam me to Nashville, Scotty" high: excited, curious, envious, and admiring. Oh, and hungry, yeah, it sounds so, so good = ) Your mom's blur-of-activity visit sounds so awesome, with more celebration and family time on the horizon. Yes, the middle of August will be here in a zooming flash as well! You've done so much harvesting lately, will that continue through the summer? Things are blooming like crazy, so I imagine you will stay very busy keeping up with all that grows and grows...what is next? Good eats abound at your place! Where to start!? The visit was deep down wonderful, and much needed. Long story, but, deep healing, and a feeling of a new era, moving forward. When the wonder-kids went to bed we stayed up late, every night later. Each night we brewed fresh coffee around the midnight hour. Finally on the last night my sis-in-law and I were up until 4am. Lots of bonding and therapeutic processing, connecting lots of dots. Of course, sleep is brief with young ones getting up very early. I slept in a lovely attic studio apartment, and let myself sleep in a little later than dutiful mom and dad, but oh boy, it was a deliriously wonderful and highly sleep deprived experience, and I wouldn't change a thing. Sigh! I admire their parenting so much, and am in awe of the boundless energy it requires. This is my family group - there are a few other near family members but everyone is scattered and also splintered if you know what I mean, and so we really sealed the deal of family relations all over again. I'm thinking I want to visit twice a year until they are in a place where they can also travel to me. You put it so beautifully when you said Yep. I immersed myself in the culture of the house without resistance, and enjoyed it. My brother is into fermenting (nothing on this trip), and I know he would really appreciate all of your slaws and pickling, and recognize a kindred spirit!! And the bread I mentioned - it was delicious. We ate beautiful sandwiches, and even his masterful homemade pizzas. Also lots of fresh produce. It was a time to suspend judgment (self and others), and know the liberation of unwanted advice/help, force of agenda of any kind. In fact, we had a lot of discussions of the nature of help in the context of their four year old and parenting in general. Unwanted help being a nuisance and all of that...so the seedling in my brain, "you can recover from this food trip and spring back" is flourishing now...I just got home yesterday, as close to exhausted as I can ever remember being and slept a long sleep....woke up very hungry, and only pbj is an option with the morning coffee for now...but I am a woman with a plan. Really the plan is vague, but the intention is clear...Let the bounce back begin. So the volcano trip the week before was also amazing! That's when the food flexibility began - groceries from TJs all week...yummy but definitely the exception and not the rule...so that was week 1 of vacation, bro's house was week 2, and now we go into week 3 that will ironically be my week of recovery, and my husband's big challenging week at work (short staffed on his end of the operation)....so I will not have time to go "down the hill" for food shopping, and will shop later today for the week at our local kinda expensive but decent food store. I'll have to firm up my plan before leaving the house...reading about your food creations really inspires me, and I will sit down with my books later today to find what I know I can handle. On pickles, have you ever seen the 1998 film Polish Wedding? I always think of this family on the subject of pickles. I adore tarragon, and don't think I have ever seen it fresh, just dried. The herbs you mentioned, all out of your garden, sound so good! I'm craving making the shrimp cakes again but I don't think it's realistic for this week being short on time. Can you send of picture of your zinnias? And/or any garden photos, I have to see. Chili would be do-able. Salad fixings. Chicken thighs. Keep it simple this week. Hash!! Salmon with ghee/lemon/garlic. Loads of steamed veg, mashed cauli. Nothing too time consuming lest I end up with a face full of Mexican food....goal: no Mexican this week. And if I cave: NO CHIPS. I can do this. I know you're smiling in support. Thank you for that. I'm a bit out of my mind on caffeine now...hubs is still sleeping. I'll stretch and shower and get my list going. Nice to see you again, Holly!!!
  6. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    PS on butter chicken: I'm reminded of what my friend from Mumbai says about adapting Indian recipes to be more healthy (his American wife, also my dear friend, was wanting to do early in their marriage), "just don't. enjoy it as it is, but you can't "healthify" it. Just leave it alone."....um....YEAH. Surprisingly, my husband liked it, because/and he arrive without any preconceived expectations about the dish. I don't recommend! Better to off-road at a real Indian joint, or, make the traditional recipe you found for a treat! Blech!
  7. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    I've been enjoying butter chicken for years, but have never made it myself. I found a W30 recipe for it and will finally put it in the crock pot today before I leave the house, with fingers crossed. It's pretty simple compared to the more traditional recipes you were looking at (which sound heavenly, yogurt marinade and all!!), so I hope it's as yummy as I imagine https://www.peanutbutterrunner.com/slow-cooker-butter-chicken-paleo-whole30/ The other related W30 Indian-ish recipe I'd like to try is chicken tikka masala, another American favorite on Indian menus, available at TJs and sometimes Costco!...but this seems like a dream, having time for new recipes. The good news is that the training of the new person is going well...somehow we're going to get through this week, have Sunday off, and leave for our week-long car-camping trip for the hubs bday that we do every June, and as soon as we get back I'll be packing for the WI trip to see my bro. I've gone into a kind of a) zen calm or b) defeat and denial state of mind about all that is not getting done, including food planning. But hey, it's summer, and camping will be a much needed rest. I had a little breakdown on the weekend and through tears admitted that I can't possibly cook up all our food for the week of camping like I usually do, and to my great surprise and delight, we discovered there's a Trader Joe's 40 minutes away from where we're going, so I've compleeeetly let go my anxiety about food. It will be a bunch of off roading, but I'm just going with it, a real adventure. We'll be at Lassen Volcanic Nat'l Park, where you really have to stay on the trails or else, yes, volcanos. So the only off-roading will be food LOL Yay for a good weights work out!! I got one in yesterday, which included some insights about form - IOW I corrected myself in a couple of areas, and am feeling good about that. I'm not one to set up a camera IG style to look at my posture or angles etc and don't want feedback from the hubs (private! door closed!), so, just tuned in and got honest. That's something, eh? Learning. Thank god for the hash I made on Sunday, and the roast veg, and the marinated beets...it's getting me through breakfasts this week, and many lunches, supplemented by a grilled ckn salad from the Mex place next door. I'm giving the take-out chips they include to the hubs...yay!! So glad kitty is recovering! I'm staying with the idea of recovery and hope after trauma...all these detention centers...sorry, off-topic, but so heart breaking. It makes me want to really take action, which I haven't done in a long time. I have a little separation anxiety knowing I'll be seldom able to write and read here during these travels...but I'll check in when I can. When does your mum arrive? Is she already there with you? More soon! LL
  8. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    Ah, end of week near...Your pole beans sound so good! I'll keep a radar up for that - I love love love beans. Oh, we already touched on haricort vert, yes? Is the texture kind of like that, tender and toothy, just bigger? Thanks for the tip on MacGourmet, I'll look into that. I love my Macbook, too. The hubs is really into his linux system machines, and in theory that seems like the way to go, but not until the mightly Macbook I'm typing on now takes its dying breath....then, maybe! Well, I don't always eat just two meals. But often it works. I'll start with a pre wk out snack around 7am, then have breakfast before going to work at 10. I'll eat M2 around 3 or 4, and if all goes well, I'm not hungry at dinner, and sip tea or broth. Last night my shrimp salad with loads of crunchy veg didn't hold me, and I was hungry so I ate a M3. I'm experimenting...it motivates me to eat well at M1 and plan for an ideal from-home M2...I've seen mods on other threads caution about this but also admit that if the nutrition is right, it can be okay, though it's not strictly W30. So I'm in the zone of personal scientific laboratory. My local CSA is now offering custom boxes, so I'm enjoying my first, which included Armenian cukes, something new for me. I like them! And beets! The slow cooker chicken with marinara is not our favorite, but it's almost gone, and this weekend I'll try making slow cooker butter chicken, which looks promising. Bell peppers are on the shopping list, and the larder is well stocked with yummy coconut milk and all the Indian spices I need, so I'm really looking forward to that. Another hash is on the agenda, too. I've been eating the holy mackerel cakes out of the freezer for M1 with piles of steamed veg and mayo, and that is getting a little gaggy, and I don't want to lose my palate for them, so it's time to switch it up. Oddly, the knee discomfort is gone (yay!), replaced by new alarm bells in the hands and the left foot. I wonder if I have a stress fracture in the left foot along the 4th and 5th metatarsal region from suddenly being on my feet all day, all week...I am very conservative with shoes, super comfy all the way. So this is a tad alarming but I'm keeping an eye on it. The joint issues are adding new super-motivation to drop some poundage. I'm happy for you that your mom is coming to visit soon, next week, yes? How's your kitty? Are you finding your routine? Is all not-broken now? So many questions. I'm debating whether or not to do the long drive/shopping after work tonight of after work tomorrow afternoon. It would be nice to close shop on Sat afternoon and not have to go anywhere but home.
  9. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    Oh yes, do lounge on the weekend! Gosh, I want another Sunday asap. Feeling a little shy to ask, but, what is recipe software? Not a folder, not a database, but, software? I'm bracing myself to be knocked out by you again. Bring it on, I'm ready. LOL OMG the brisket recipe description has my mouth watering. I want to try it. Recipe please, the pared down version. Thank you. I've been eating the chicken-apple-onion-kale-mushroom hash (with apple pie spices) with leftover roast yams and brussels, and you know what, it's really good cold with a dollop of mayo. I think my new safety net, and I've played around with this, but would like to use it like a life raft, is a decent M1, and then a late, decent M2, and then either that's it, or a small snack sized M3 while hubs has dinner. Depending on hunger. That so often works for me! If I'm nourished and satisfied, do you think there's any reason not to do this? Why am I not surprised we're still cruising a parallel path? LOL. I'm starting to get this sense of my brain developing in the follow-up months to the last W30. I devastate myself a little with transgressions, but I make really good recoveries, and I'm seeing myself as someone who makes good recoveries. Now, playing backgammon since i was 11 taught me to make good recoveries, but I have NEVER seen myself that way in regard to food. In my entire life. Like, I saw myself always as resilient, absolutely, but not in that one area. What's your work out schedule? I'll keep you honest and vice versa!? Could that work? Bet it could. We got pummeled today, and still cleaning up from last week, but I have help tomorrow with the new person, yay! For now, to bed. And tomorrow is a go-in early day, with graduation action afterwards, so i might not write until mid week. Cheers til then!
  10. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    I love your story of meeting Bourdain, and can just see him laughing as he paddled! – I'm sad about it, too. I really admired him so much, for so many reasons. I enjoyed Kitchen Confidential, and his whole approach in his televisions shows, letting us ride shotgun with him as he learned and explored, teaching history along the way and raising up the cross section of food and politics. Rejecting all pretensions. Encouraging us all to explore. Yessss. I also really admired his support of the #MeToo movement, and how he reflected how he may have empowered the meatheads in kitchens, his thoughtfulness and raw honesty. I was really sad all weekend, and have to stop listening to/reading all the commentary about suicide. Just take a break. I like the quiet, too, during exercise...funny, last week during a weights work out I put on some Patti Smith, and I did complete my work out but also ended up dancing around the room afterwards, and all through the house. That was fun. I think I'm on to something with the work outs if I can manage it 3x per week I think that's my goal. Short hikes as warm up for coming home to do floor work, weights, and then the stretch. On the alternate days, a warm up and stretching, or just a quick warm up at home and at least 5-10 minutes of yoga as a minimum. For a better day and better week! I somehow got my few Sunday chores done, alternately reading and resting. As for the crock pot, I found a guideline ratio online of 1 lb per chicken to 1 cup of sauce/liquid. So I opted for marinara sauce. It's just okay. Next time I'll add fresh rosemary and more flavor...next time, marsala, and mushrooms. My self image changed with the wobbly week (ie seeing myself blimped out as in funny mirror, argh), but two different people commented that I look slimmed down. I don't understand. For all my (perceived) self awareness, I feel a little distorted in my self image lately. Is that happening to you in these post W30 months? I need a good few weeks leading up to my vacation... Have a great week!
  11. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    Thanks for the recipe -a keeper. That's funny about the green sauce! Way early in our December thread I think I mistakenly wrote "Mel's wonton meatballs". It seems that these two favorite-paleo-people are like bookends of our shared universe. I sort of have one foot in stable W30 territory this week, and the other, not....yesterday morning I spent a cushion of pre-work time making a big pot of hash, and took some in for a late lunch (that might have sufficed as my last meal of the day) with some roasted yams and a huge pile of broccoli, but I was still hungry a few hours later, and I know it's because I didn't include enough fat...and I know better, and it points to being organized. Whispered confession: I ate chips with dinner. Argh....will have a better day today. I need to set myself up at work, and stock our little workplace "kitchen" modest as it is with some staples that I may need since I will be there more hours than usual. That should help. The time management thing is a moving target, but it is what it is, right? Six months without any flour! That is something! It would have to be reallly good pizza, and deliriously worth it to break that stride. Thumbs up! I have this idea to put apples, onion, maybe yams or carrots too in a crock pot wth boneless skinless chicken thighs, and some marsala wine, broth...I haven't googled it yet, that will come next - does that sound good to you? Any suggestions? A crock pot may be a good ally for me during these long days... Have you ever spiralized daikon radish? I saw a post that suggested it as a favorite "noodle". I tend to prefer not to think of spiralized veg as pasta, but as a fun way to eat veg, to avoid disappointment...I think Mel writes that, too, in one of her cookbooks, ie, let's be honest, it's so not pasta LOL If I move now, I have time for a quick exercise...I don't want to but I know once I start I'll be glad. Do you listen to music when you exercise at home? Sigh!
  12. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    Like so many things I've learned from you, garlic scrapes are new for me - giving me more visions of your back yard land of plenty! And it sounds delicious, all those hearty greens sauteed in all that flavor! Yummmm. I picked up a bunch of plain old gorgeous curly kale to make a mushroom apple kale hash, and otherwise need more greens in my fridge right now! Your mom must be so excited about the upcoming visit! I still have a cabbage waiting for me to get fermenting - d'oh!! Oh time, where do you go? Did you get your work out? I'm with you, bound and determined. I got a quick 2-miler in yesterday and a bunch of floor work. i was reading about 7 minute workouts, and realized that's sort of what I'm doing. Core, lower body, upper body. Last time I was a wee bit too sore, though I was sore in all the right places. So I eased up yesterday and will work towards, well, yeah, work towards. Just to keep at it. I'm trusting the process and doing it for my joints as much or more for weight loss! Your husband is funny! That got me thinking of Michael Jackson's song Beat it! Love Dylan. Might put Blood on the Tracks in my car, thanks for the nudge! Murphy's law in action? It all comes at once! Aargh! In news of the zig zag path to food freedom, I had two actual slices of pizza yesterday for our sweet staffers farewell party. She loves pizza. I had a good lunch packed and ready, but I wanted to share in the pizza pie, and so I did. And it didn't hurt me (windy weather) like I thought it would! Of course, I'm back on game today....and that lunch is waiting... better get on the hiking trail, and then to make the hash, all in a big race LOL...I got a decent 7 hours, but I'm still sleepy!
  13. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    As usual, you have my respect and admiration for your commitment to food re. farmer's markets, and your ability to walk past Costco chicken. Farmer's market is so out of my reach...being in a major growing area you'd think I'd have access...actually I have a CSA, and a 45 min drive to a farmer's market that my schedule doesn't give me access to. Meanwhile, I have my head in the sand about those rottiiseries, don't tell me! Denial, I know..actually, my local grocer carries organic ground chicken. When I re-up I'll take notice of the details in case it's helpful. The owner is really responsive to taking requests. At my request she now carries all kinds of things, including organic ghee, and the organic chicken may be from my request, too, I'm not sure, but I was getting "regular" ground chicken there by special order...I have friends with the same bragging rights, asking for things that are now on the shelf all the time.. this means a lot to us in our tiny little town! And yesterday, a staffer brought in a bag of EPIC pork rinds chili lime and oven baked from our grocer that I didn't even know existed. They were yummy! But like you, I am not a snacker, at least not when I'm in a good place. If it was delicious, that pb cup, my hope for you is that you can just enjoy it and not be sad. Don't look back. So it wasn't Justin's, oh well. Believe me, I'm looking in the mirror at myself when I say this, but these are good problems to have, right? But I know the feeling of doom, if that's what you felt...I've done that, too, more recently than I like to admit, and then it's back to paleo basics, boing boing boing <insert sound effect> meanwhile you are still awesome, smokin' Holly. Maybe a day off? And the elves? Where are those good for nothing elves? Harumph. Can you hire someone just once to get you up to speed vis a vis a little vacuum cruise around? That's what I call it. If you're like me, you'd sooner die than pay actual money to have someone do something so intimate as clean your house, but sometimes we need help. <insert little voice, help. help.> This might be grace, and good for the local economy I've been reflecting on the pace of our modern lives since I read your post yesterday, and I think we modern humans really don't get enough chill time. How's that for marvelous obvious? I don't know about you, but a personal day can really bring me out of a slump. I've read that pre-agrarian people had a lot of time to rest and play. No wonder we dreamed up all the symbolic expressions of art, theater, dance, all the humanities. And got such big brains. We need play time. The new woman starts today, and I am so happy about it. I'll have a double batch of shrimp cakes to make tomorrow if all goes as planned, and it will be a very fishy week with those, and the mackerel cakes in the freezer...I have non-compliant sausages to put over spaghetti puttanesca for the hubs, too, if that works out. Bracing myself for the first of the no-exception-long-hours weeks that are coming until the new person has training wheels off. Then we're going out of town the last week of June, and when we return, I'm off to WI for that trip to my brother. It will be a big letting go for me to leave the business in someone else's hands. Good thing I'm getting some practice with big batches for the freezer. Usually I just cook enough to eat and I haven't frozen much. Onwards and upwards, Holly!
  14. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    It sounds like your move away from New Orleans after Katrina was a giant leap of faith in the truest sense – suspending the usual habits of planning. And your new place sounds like it suits you and your husband so well! Thanks for the encouraging words! Last night we hired our new employee, so I had the best sleep I've had in a week. And letting go of one of those volunteer gigs was hard just for the moment of truth. Life will go on without me, and those peeps will always be my pals. So that's checked off the list. I'm inching towards wrapping up the other ones, too...progress! Down-time so precious! What will you be cooking up this week? In the last week I noticed that under stress I off-roaded a little bit, mainly eating bread two days in a row. No biggie by the usual standards, but I really didn't like it, and psychologically my self esteem took a dive. So on the weekend I was a tasmanian devil in the kitchen, bound and determined to have a good week with *plenty* to eat at home. I made a quadruple batch of mackerel cakes and froze them all. A pot of chicken chili using Kashmiri chili powder from the Indian market. It's *bright* orange, and very tasty. And then a double batch of Mel's classic pork sausage, subbing chicken. Yeah, I'm doing a lot of chicken these days, as an experiment. I washed a huge head of gorgeous red leaf for salads, and also tore apart two Costco rotisserie chickens for broth. I wasn't going to do store bought rotisserie chickens aymore, but it was like a security blanket. And since I'm not expecting clients in the massage room (it was actually a joy to refer people to my colleague who I'm so fond of, and she was happy!) I brought out my weights and incline bench from the closet, and yesterday took on a post-hike strength training. I'm pleasantly sore, and liking it! The knee P/T and abs work has been a little inconsistent, but I feel momentum now and a sense of hope. Have a great week!
  15. LadyLisbette

    Start Date: December 1st

    Gasp! Your cat! Your feelings are so understandable. I'm thinking about trauma, and recovery from trauma. Maybe it's true for cats what I think is true for us (must be!) that there is a place in us that can't be harmed. From that place we recover. Like a little seedling we grow from there and flourish again. I know it sounds corny. I think the best things sound corny, sometimes, in theory, but in practice are not corny at all but so essential, even holy...maybe in time, he will recover. I have to believe this. The familiarity of home, food, routine, consistency, all the smells (even if his smell is different), learning to trust again...is this the cat that can open doors, or am I imagining that? Oh heart throb, that cat and his journey!!! So glad he's home, big boy. I just can't even find the right emoji, heart on chest! So far is he coming in and out pretty quickly? Is he hiding in the house? Letting you pet him, purring, anything that looks like his previous normal? I think they're testing the water after the pump broke to be sure that it's clean, but they don't know yet. It usually doesn't take too long to test. Oh, and you were quicker to think of the camping filter than I was! The hubs thought of that, too, and we may resort to that if needed, but for now, the gallon containers I keep on hand will keep us in drinking water and coffee = ) One of my besties here is the manager of our local county services district, and I should learn more from her about how this works, and what happened, but even though I have regular access to her (her office is right next to our store!), we always have more pressing things to talk about! This is a case of taking for granted what is right in front of me...must learn more. I'm switching up the proportions of how I spend my time in our family business, also in my own practice (I am an acupressurist, and I work with general public but I specialize in elders, illness, hospice), and the volunteering. I'm letting go of doing table work with healthy folks to focus on hospice (my great love), to work more at the store, and I'm doing a big letting go of so much volunteering that I made time for when I was mainly doing a home practice. It's really helped me put roots down in the community for 5 years, but all of our store staff have retired (2 died in 5 years!) and hubs needs me...and for the first time in 5 years, I want to be there...Now that I'm helping run the store, that will be the main dish, with a side of hospice work, and most of the volunteer stuff just has to go!...today I'll let one of my groups know I'm stepping back. So, we know that change is hard, but it's resistance to change that is the hard thing, and we have some control over our resistance...and in practice that is trickier than in theory! I guess my point is that I intend that when it all shakes out, I will have more home time. Work at the store 3/4 time, 2 hospice appts/wk, and then, please God will I have more time for domestic goddess stuff? I think so. More will be revealed. Oh, I hope you get to hunker down and enjoy the rain all weekend, or if it doesn't rain, the same: rest and rest and rest! We're having a cold spell and the mighty summer temps will start to climb next week. It will zig zag up and down until it's 97, 98, 99 and even triple digits, and once it hits those high temps will stay mostly that way all through until about Thanksgiving, and then it will zig zag back down until it's glorious mild again. We all live for the winter and spring around here. Summer weeds out the riff raff, and is otherwise the price of admission...trying to be zen about it. Again, that resistance thing!