megbeveridge Posted January 30, 2019 Share Posted January 30, 2019 I started my very first Whole30 on January 1st, 2019 as a reset for my body. I wanted to lose weight, ditch sugar, and feel good about my diet. Completing the program has taught me that and so much more. I think self esteem is something we all (especially women) struggle with, but eating disorders are a whole different animal. I was lucky enough to have a mother who knew all the signs and caught me before I even started. She'd had a bulimic roommate in college and didn't want the same for me. There isn't a time in my life that I can remember being happy with my body. I see pictures of myself as a teenager and even though I was 120 pounds soaking wet, I can still pick out things I don't like. For a long time, when I was out from under my parents roof, I adopted an external devil-may-care attitude towards food. The reality was, I couldn't stop eating and I couldn't stop hating my body. I ate in secret, I hid wrappers, I went back for seconds and thirds of dessert, and I shamed myself. This was indicative of the early stages of a binge eating disorder. I knew that in order to get control over myself, I'd have to do something very prescriptive and strict. On an eating program that tells you to "limit" high-sugar, rich foods, I make every excuse for why it doesn't really matter if I eat it. Unless I'm told "no" I'm going to do what I want; I succumb to the disordered thinking. Whole30 has taught me how to eat and be full, live without added sugars, and take care of my body. If I give love to my body, it will do the same for me. We're a team, not rivals. At 25 years old I should and can be the happiest, healthiest version of myself yet! Here's to getting stronger and healthier and spreading more love! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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