BabyBear

Y’all got me all teary eyed. Thank you for the words of encouragement. Water! Water! Water! I realized I’ve hardly been drinking anything at all. A sip of water or Gatorade here a chug of chocolate milk there. So I’m working on drinking all my water today. I’ve had 51 Oz so far today and it has helped. Not only was I exhausted I had also been dealing with dehydration. We declared today a TV free day which has also helped us all be more productive. Im going to steal a nap while baby naps before my skate son gets here to help me mount skate boots to fill some more orders. Im so grateful to have his help as he is definitely more confident with the power tools. Plus he’s taller than me so he can use the counter mount block. I was struggling to get a mount block set up on the floor but make it inaccessible to the toddler. We seem to have a good system going where he mounts and I get the hardware installed.

This week has been the longest year. This is the first time in 9 days that I have had the time alone along with the mental and emotional ability to check in. I am exhausted. I’ve not done a good job caring for me, because all of my energy has been thrusted into taking care of literally everyone. My husband broke his right humorous above the elbow on a Sunday night before Memorial Day. They put him in a splint and sent him home. He literally could do nothing without extreme pain. He needed help getting in and out of bed, getting dressed, even plugging in his phone. On top of that I had to take over getting Skate orders filled I have shipped over 40 different orders in the past few days. Plus all the other things around the house my hubby takes care of normally. I also had the toddler in final stages of potty independence, and trying not regress with his progress. My work and everyone needing me all at the same time. Oh and the added stress has kicked morning sickness and hormone headaches into over drive. Most days I was doing good to remember to eat at least once a day. Finally my husband received the surgery to put the bone back together yesterday. He’s in so much pain but at least now his bones aren’t shifting and clapping together when he needs to move. I’m not out of the weeds yet, but at least I feel like he is finally starting to recover. I’m just taking this one day at a time and doing what I can to survive. My eating hasn’t been horrid but it has been more about convenience and ease right now. Ill be back to my whole 30 compliant eating sooner than later, hopefully next week. I just got to get my feet back under me.

Congratulations on hitting your 30 day goal! That is an awesome accomplishment!

I second what @Brewer5 said. Fat and salt are your friends to help. Even a magnesium supplement can be helpful with the carb flu. Or Epsom salt baths. I am so proud of you for completing day 1. I remember my first round my day 1 meals were sad and lifeless and flavorless, but I began to adapt and explore and stretch myself to reach out to spices rather than processed foods to add flavor and excitement to my meals. You will get there too just keep on keeping on. Just remind yourself that a slip isn’t an option and you are totally worth the effort. You can do hard things, after all you work night shift as a nurse and I’m pretty sure that’s the hardest job in the world.

@scoakley13 I currently have a Taco Bell staring me down as I sit in an ER parking lot waiting on the hubby. It’s not even that good but it was always my late night go too, mainly because it was opened and I hate McDonalds and Krystal’s. Sigh I’m not going over there it’s not an option not tonight!

@SchrodingersCat i want to come To the dinner and I am requesting grilled Kangaroo.

Day 9 5/24 - and the hits just keep on coming. When I said we needed to catch a break this is not what I had in mind. 7:15 up with baby. Get our day going. I got his breakfast served up and then we headed to the bathroom to get me ready. Lol he was into everything this morning and a short fuse to boot. I was grateful when hubby got up and took over and I think baby was too. 8:30 M1 - LO sweet potato apple breakfast bake. Probably should have made efforts at having a salad or something but I was doing good to get that down and out the door. I was so excited to be back among my sacred family even if it was only a fraction of them as we gathered among 4 different houses. 1:30 M2 - venison roast and roast potatoes and carrots with ghee. Dinner at my moms. This was planned. I checked her beef broth the other day and it was approved. I did ask she not add any consumate or any other flavorings. Lucky for me as she was plating the food she was looking for a sweet chili sauce but she was out. She just doesn’t get it but we did manage to have a meal that had compliant components. She also made rolls, coleslaw, corn. Sigh nothing green but I’ll eat a big salad tonight. Lunch was nice and the company even better. I was hungry so when my mom announced save room for strawberry rhubarb pie (one of my favorites) I had a second helping of roast and potatoes and carrots. It filled me up and I was able to decline honestly that I did not want pie because I was full. After lunch I took baby upstairs to nap while the older boys watched a movie with my parents. When I got up from the nap my mom was cutting up the watermelon I had brought over. I indulged, simply because I wanted it. It was delicious and I enjoyed every morsel. 4:30 S1 - bowl of watermelon OMG I’m glad I ate that bowl of watermelon. We went skating tonight, and we were two hours in and having a blast when my husband was doing a head slide in the middle a move he’s down 1000 times his arm slipped just as he was coming down and his arm got trapped behind him and snap. He broke it above the elbow. Thank goodness one of our friends there is an EMT. It’s his dominant arm and all he could chatter on about is how he has 4 skates to build tomorrow and he won’t be able to play with the baby. So no dinner. Im sitting in the truck outside the ER waiting for answers. It’s crazy he’s been skating for 31 years and never broke anything and he has taken some dog falls, yet he breaks his arm on a floor move he’s done a thousand times he wasn’t even standing on his skates! Really 2020 what else you got for us? Ugh! Wrap me in bubble wrap and let me know when 2020 is over . Good grief Charlie Brown! i stayed compliant and was not lured by the Taco Bell sitting across the road as I sat in the parking lot. Water 101oz

@Blueautumn so excited for you! Starting and eating that first compliant meal is a big deal because it takes you over the threshold of “Im going to do this” to “I am doing this.” You have a whole section of cheerleaders here to encourage you every step along the way.

Day 8 5/23 - a much better day 7:10 up with baby. TMI- Oh glorious day I pooped! That helped immensely! I have a lot to get done and need to get out the door, but I’m not skimping on breakfast as that seems to set the tone for the day. 8:00 M1 - LO sweet potato apple breakfast bake, 1c salad greens, 2tbs citrus vinaigrette (mandarin juiced, 1/2 lemon juiced, basil, parsley, splash of balsamic vinegar, olive oil) The breakfast bake heated up lovely in the air fryer, tasted as good as when it was straight out of the oven. I knew I needed some greens but was pouty because I had no dressing and then I remembered I had some mandarin oranges so I tossed together a dressing that was actually very tasty and refreshing. Today is another work day at our old house. I hope I have the stomach for it. 2:00 M2 - large salad with grilled chicken tomatoes and cucumbers with citrus vinaigrette The boys and I worked pretty hard this morning and made a dent and got a plan. Lunch was welcomed and tasty. While the baby was with my mom I decided to take the older boys to go have a little fun before heading home. One of our local rinks has opened back up so we went skating for a couple hours. Phew I haven’t been on my skates for a few months and it shows my legs are saying what on earth did we just do lol. But oh it was good to feel the wood glide under my feet, and the wind rake through my hair making it stand straight back. I’m a little shorter winded than usual but I’m sure the stow away on board is to blame. Sadly I was suppose to be in Detroit this weekend for one of the biggest skate parties ever, and they only host it every other year. They had to cancel due to the governor closing the state down. The last time it was hosted was 2018 I was 8 months pregnant and out there skating with the other 3,000 people who had come from all over. There was an amazing energy that you really can’t explain. The little session this afternoon, though it was no Soul Skate, was good for my soul. 9:00 M3 - grilled shrimp, baked potato with ghee, steamed broccoli Water 101oz

@ShadowInTheKitchen here’s the recipe... oh and cream would be lovely in this as well as a splash of vanilla https://40aprons.com/whole30-sweet-potato-apple-breakfast-bake/

Mmmm apples! I love apples, my favorites are pink ladies, honeycrisp, and organic Granny Smiths!

5/22 Day 7 - pushing through not because I want to, but because I need to. Bleck 6:00 up with baby. Got through his routine and fed him breakfast. Feeling ick my stomach is churning and I have a headache pretty certain it’s hormones. 7:30-8:30 rest 9:00 M1 - banana and lemon epic bar Did not have the stomach to eat but I did try to get something in my stomach before the grocery store run. I made a Hardee’s run for hubby and boys. There was a slight temptation because a plain buttered biscuit sounded like it could make all my ick go away. But I know it wouldn’t. 12:30 M2 - 3 pieces of bacon, 3 dill pickles, 1 c of grapes Still not feeling like eating. My brain is demanding salt and sweet. I will not eat those pretzels or that chocolate covered donuts. I may be feeling ick not only due to pregnancy hormones but also I haven’t pooped yesterday or today yet. This is not normal for me. I may look back to my Jan log as I know I had a few days in there where I felt off because of not pooping. 1:30-3:00 rest 3:00 S1 - 2 dill pickles, a handful of pistachios Still not feeling great but I’m trying to push through. Made sweet tea for the boys, no bake cookies for the hubby. And a sweet potato apple breakfast bake from 40 Aprons for me. I’ve been eye balling the recipe and decided I’d give it try. 5:30 1/4 Sweet Potato Apple Breakfast Bake (2 eggs, 1/2 sweet potato, 1/2 apple, 3 Tbs raisins, 1.5 Tbs walnuts, 1/4 c coconut milk). I probably should have had a salad with it but I was glad to get something other than pickles down. The house smells amazing, almost like apple pie. Still not feeling like myself I got some laundry done and then crashed on the couch and watched baby play. Not my best day but it was a compliant day so there’s that 9:30 bed

Day 6 5/21 - I miss sandwiches 7:30 woke up on my own. After getting dressed and going to get baby up I discovered he was already up. My 13DS informed me he had been up since 6:30, but he changed him and fed him and entertained him because he figured I needed the sleep. I’ve got some pretty great boys! 9:00 M1 2 eggs scrambled in clarifies butter with basil and oregano. 2 pieces of NS Bacon. 1/2 c Home fries air fried with garlic powder and paprika. 1c snap peas sautéed in clarified butter seasoned with Montreal steak seasoning. I was still feeling off and my tummy was still churning a bit this morning. Eating seemed to help. I am glad of that because I have a lot to accomplish today. 10:15-11:45 nap I got a few things done before falling asleep standing up lol. I was sent to my room. This little titan is definitely demanding a lot of energy right now. I’m okay with that. Trying not to feel guilty or shame myself because of it. 1:00 M2 - roast beef roll ups - 4 slices roast beef, 2 large lettuce leaves, 1/2 tomato sliced, spicy brown mustard. 2 pickle spears. 1 pink lady apple with 1 Tbs of NS almond butter. Thank you Kroger’s for having compliant roast beef that was actually so good! I happen to pick up and read the ingredients on their organic simple truth roast beef the other day thinking I’d get it for my son with all the allergies and I was pleasantly surprised that it was compliant. Organic beef, water, sea salt, organic black pepper. I may have danced a jig in the store. So I had that today for lunch and it tasted great! I think the only thing I really really miss is sandwiches. I love sandwiches of every sort shape and size. Cold, hot, grilled or not. I like the small, long, short or triple stack. There are certain restaurants that have closed around here that are still open in other regions and when we go to those areas I HAVE to eat there because they have a sandwich on the menu that you can’t get anywhere else. It’s not just one part or another or even just the flavor it’s the whole experience of the sandwich I love, from the texture to the multi level of flavors even the way it feels to hold it in my hands. My sandwich affair is on hold for now. They are not gone from me forever they will be there when I want one, really want one. 7:30 M3 - 6oz Grilled Chicken breast, 1 c steamed broccoli and cauliflower 1 Tbs ghee More work and then bed. Water: 101oz

i second everything @rachelmaria33 Said. The Food Freedom Forever Book is amazing and so cute credibly helpful. Also check out Melissa’s podcast Do the thing as she has some great topic discussions on food freedom and life after whole 30

@ShadowInTheKitchen I use my local grocery store’s brand, Kroger. It’s ingredients are vinegar water mustard seed salt and tumeric. They also make an organic Dijon mustard that is compliant (no wine). I also discovered this week they make a compliant organic deli roast beef. I’m really grateful to discover they offered a lot of compliant options as we live in a small town with no fancy health food store. We have Kroger’s and Walmart and that’s about it.