brittanyxo Posted April 24, 2017 Share Posted April 24, 2017 I did my first Whole 30 in November/December of 2015. It was amazing. Then I did my second Whole 30 in January/February of 2016, just a month later. It was great. Then I attempted a third Whole 30 in January of 2017. Two days in to it, our apartment flooded. But stuck with it. 2 weeks into it, I was stuck working a 3 day trade show that had no options or amenities for me to be able to eat. But stuck with it. 3 weeks into it I started a new job. Stuck with it. BUT, 27 days into it I fell off the wagon, hard, crashed and burned. *Cue fiery explosion. So now, on Monday, April 24, 2017, I have my fourth Whole 30 start. My goal: 120 days. Yep! Crazy fever has swept over me and I'm gonna do it. I don't think I'll make it now, but I've decided I'm going to hit day 121 and wonder why I ever doubted myself. But let's start 30 days at a time. Or even one day at a time. I went grocery shopping yesterday. Lots of fruits, veggies and lean meats. I baked some chicken, potatoes and roasted broccoli last night for lunch today. I enjoyed some mandarin oranges and grapes for breakfast (not a big breakfast eater). Tonight will be another flavour of chicken, with garlic mashed potatoes and green beans. YUM. I sit at a desk in an office by myself at work, so I get bored, however I don't really have any temptations available to me. I think I may keep some La Croix's or sparkling water of some kind at work, just so I can break up the day with something refreshing. Since my daily Double Double coffee is now out, I have a large void to fill! I have re-started "It Starts With Food". I got halfway through it last year, post-it notes and all, but for some reason put it down and never picked it up again. I also have Food Freedom Forever now waiting patiently on my coffee table, so I will move on to that next. I'm a very logical, information type person, so reading facts about what foods do to you, how it effects you, and why to eat/not eat certain items is almost necessary for me to make lasting changes. I'm the first to admit I have a terrible relationship with food. I suffer from extreme anxiety, and a chocolate bar, pint of ice cream, bag of chips, or cookies are the band-aids I have leaned on for many years. Which is what brings me to my current state. Almost tipping the scale at 220lbs, at 5'6", 25 years old, and just feeling like a ball of sad, anxious nerves. I thought I was "so far gone" at my first Whole 30 a year and a half ago, because I weighed 206. For full disclosure, I've always been a little bigger, but more so in my head than anything else. I got so much into my own head that I became bulimic for about 2 years, beginning when I was 20. I dropped down to 145 pounds, and still felt I was flabby and fat. Now, my journey will be earned, fought for, and deserved. No matter what the scale says at the end of this, I know I will feel better, feel more confident, and genuinely be the healthiest version of myself. I would rather be 160-180 lbs, healthy and lean, than 140 lbs, starving and hating myself. The most important thing is finding out what works for ME, and sticking with it. I also have started keeping my own person journal, because I find taking time to slow down and reflect on the day and my emotions allows me to address suppressed feelings, and to be honest with myself about what I need to work on. My colourful calendars and stickers at home are also a huge help. I haven't been given a gold star since grade school, but I give myself one every day on Whole 30. Reminding myself that every day is my own accomplishment and I don't succeed and make changes overnight, but every decision makes a difference. That's it for Log Day 1! Ciao.xo Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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