MeadowLily Posted August 22, 2016 Author Share Posted August 22, 2016 Yesterday, company went to the center aisles of the grocery store and bought 8 bags of cookies and a case of cinnamon rolls. There will be days of major sucking it up, buttercups. We cannot control the actions of others. Let it go, Louie. I have all kinds of breads, cookies and multi-crap everywhere I look. I choose to forgive them for they know not what they do. I can look at it and know exactly what the consequences are. Sneaky snakes are all UP in my face, slithering around like vipers. A snake will look you right in the eye. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 22, 2016 Author Share Posted August 22, 2016 As part of my binge eating recovery, I have a Pain List that I review every day. That list keeps me sane and tuned UP for whatever life throws at me. It is a reminder of why I started recovery in the first place. The pain of binge eating outweighs everything. Binge eating ate my voice and life in giant month hunks. Binge eating made me tired. The joints in my knees and legs and feet hurt all of the time. I wore black clothes, trying to have a daily funeral for the way that fat made me feel. Fat is not a feeling. I was tired of being too tired and not being able to enjoy my life. No one else can do this for you. Your accountability partners may fly the coop. You have to learn to be accountable to yourself in the midnight hours when no one else is around but you. Taking full responsibility for everything is the first step on the road to recovery. Our pain list is as individual as our fingerprints and mine has feelings. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 23, 2016 Author Share Posted August 23, 2016 Today, the radio said that the 5 sec food falling-on-the-floor rule is a total myth. Who didn't know that. Let your dog or your husband have it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 23, 2016 Author Share Posted August 23, 2016 I wanted to visit with the universe about green tea today and my ship came in. Yay! jmcbn helped me get over the coffee habit that was kicking my @$$. I have been making that cold brew green tea every single day. It's mild and delicate. Infused with berries, lemons, limes, cucumbers. A long time ago, we discussed it in great detail. Coffee wasn't doing a thing for my adrenal glands or thyroid. When I gave it up that's when things started to really turn around with insulin resistance. My soft stomach changed. All of that coffee was doing something in there, it was making mush out of my gut. My gut lining was loaded up with coffee and it was a large, dark, brown-black bat cave in there. When I gave up the coffee, all of the dingbats flew out and butterflies settled back in. You can't have butterflies in your stomach with coffee. They like flowers and mild green tea. All things delicate. The bat cave was a dark, dingy, dingbatty place. Depressing. Wild swings UP and down. All jacked UP on coffee and it was not a good thing for me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uX6M0IrJ7ck I'm going back to my original factory settings and that does not include coffeee. Before I started drinking coffee with multi-crap, I functioned on an even keel. I could see the forest for the trees. The things we do to ourselves in the name of weight loss and energy. It's mostly imaginary. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 23, 2016 Author Share Posted August 23, 2016 Yes, Felicias, I lived in a dingbat cave for many years. When I was all jacked up on coffee and sugar, people thought I was drunk. I acted drunk and I don't drink. I could be nuttier than a fruitcake and sooo silly drinking coffee and eating sugar sugars. I was flying higher than a kite. When the coffee and sugar were wearing off, I'd have to go back to a little hair of the dog that bit me. More and more and more. I had extra special friends and we enabled each other. Going to the movies, trips, out for dinner or hanging around each other's place, birds of the same feather. We carbo loaded for the movies, falling into white floured up cheese blobs of dough biscuits, bowls of pasta and that iceberg lettuce. Topping it off with popcorn and HFCS gummy bears and diet sodas. I've had all kinds of pre/post workout mini meals and whopping boatloads of multi-crap meals. It's not bragging if it's true, I was a total dingbat and the valedictorian of my class. A dichotomy. I believe that many of us can't find our true selves until we move all of the clutter away. Whole foods and plants didn't get me into double trouble or a binge eating disorder. It was the highly engineered to be craved foods and finely tuned snacks. I've drawn my line in the sand and I'm not going back to dingbatville. Don't shout me down when I'm preaching good (from the TV). I can call myself a dingbat and nuttier than a fruitcake but you can't. Not to my face anyway. Much love. Bye Felicias. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 24, 2016 Author Share Posted August 24, 2016 http://www.wearewvproud.com/story/32828101/feds-want-to-ban-swimming-with-hawaii-dolphins Good animal husbandry does not include this. They're tired of company. It's not all about us and what makes us feel good. They need their rest. I believe in animal hospitals for large mammals but release them. Let the animals experience food freedom. Cage free. Chickens,cows, whales, dolphins, bears, lions, tigers, ants, wolves...set all of them free. Let them be in their natural habitats, free at last. We're squeezing all of them out of their homes. They've no place to roam without someone wanting to throw them a cookie or a food reward. That doesn't end well for anyone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 24, 2016 Author Share Posted August 24, 2016 I believe in setting all of the fast food captives free. We need pilot cars to guide people to safety. They've been suppressed and depressed and obsessed with food. I was visiting with relatives and we took a trip down the unpleasant memory lane. We remember our great-grandparents and their sibs who lived through the Great Depression. Lean, hungry times. Men were riding the rails from town to town looking for any work. Helping farmers bring in their crops. People were starving. The Dust Bowl Days. My husband's older folkaronies lived right in the midst of the Dust Bowl. They told Bear they were so hungry as the earth was being tilled that people would literally go out and eat a handful of dirt. It was mineral deficiency and hunger. Of course, there were awful consequences from eating dirt. Bear says if the trucks don't run for a few days, folks would be in dire straits. They've become so reliant on fast foods. The man grew up on a dairy farm. He cans absolutely anything without waste. His relatives made sure that he would remember their ancestors. A country boy can survive. He processes all of his wildgame and helps the neighbors with their livestock. We have gf beef and free range chickens, fresh fish. We have a heart for city dwellers, especially the children. Good animal husbandry is becoming a thing of the past because of mass production everything. Bear canned his kidney fat tallow for the winter. We read up on the benefits and the nutrients. He made sure that I did. Niacin, B6, B12, K2, selenium, iron and so on. He has all of the recipes in his head that have been passed down through the generations. Mamas, don't let your cowboys grow up to be babies. You want them to leave the nest someday and go out into the world and carry your family legacy onto others. Your children are the beautiful gift that keeps on giving. Teach your children well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 What's the difference between rats and kids? Although both leave stuff all over the floor, at least a rat will stash it into a neat pile somewhere out of sight. To stash or not to stash, that is the question. A Tail of Two Cities They were the best of rats, they were the worst of rats. Bratty Rattys A few peas short of a good dinner Anything you say or do at my house will be taken down and used against you where you will plead innocent and I will crumble like a lemon oreo cookie at your cuteness. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 Rats sure do produce alot of raisins. Food prep for the day. More raisins. I choose rataholicism. They make you act silly but it is generally not fatal. They'll make you spend all of your money but at least it's for a good cause. It is a social addiction and encourages you to share your experiences with others. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 Rats sure do eat alot of cheese hence all of those raisins. What happened after the explosion at the French cheese factory? All that was left was de Brie. Why you shouldn't believe a word a rat is saying while eating cheese... It's just too Gouda to be true. What hotels to the rats stay in? The Stilton. I'm doing 'grate' but I could be cheddar. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 Today's radio blurb was...how a picture really is worth a thousand words and reveals your mental state. https://www.technologyreview.com/s/602208/how-an-algorithm-learned-to-identify-depressed-individuals-by-studying-their-instagram/ One of the curious things about color is that we associate it with emotions. Intuitively, we tend to link darker, grayer colors with negative moods and brighter, lighter colors with positive ones. Indeed, researchers have found that people suffering from depression prefer darker colors. Depressed individuals had a clear favorite among these. “When depressed participants did employ filters, they most disproportionately favored the ‘Inkwell’ filter, which converts color photographs to black-and-white images,” say Reece and Danforth. By contrast, healthy individuals preferred a filter called Valencia, which lightens photographs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 I used to wear black clothes all of the time while I was trying to hide. Paw cannot stand black clothes and he used to ask me please don't wear those black clothes. That was then and this is now. When I started the Whole 30, one of my favorite manifestos was the encouragement I needed not to go out of the house looking like a slob or another hairball the cat hacked up. It helped pull me away from the daily funeral and the hole that I had dug for myself...that got me nowhere good. It worked. Every day I started painting my face with all of that makeup I was storing for a better day. The rainy days didn't require anything but black clothes. I am not a black or white person, all or nothing. I believe that colors were the beginning of turning my life around. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 7. Don’t be a slob. This may sound like the exact opposite of what I just said but loving your body does not mean you let yourself go, neglect your hygiene or wear unflattering clothes. Teenage girls seem to struggle with getting that balance right and I frequently feel the urge to mention to some girls that red lipstick and greasy unwashed hair is not an attractive combination. Being able to walk into a room full of strangers with your head held up high requires a high degree of self-respect. Sure, we all have bad days when you would rather slouch in the corner and become completely invisible, but these are the days when you gotta pull out the old “fake it till you make it”. Dreading the necessary socialising at a party? Put on your most comfortable piece of clothing (not your onesie), pull your shoulders back, lift your chin up, and walk in with a lion tamer’s confidence. Reduce Your Exposure to Toxic Influences So be brave and give these strategies a go. Self-doubt can be paralysing and we all struggle with pressure put on us by the society’s impossible standards. Don’t just let yourself be swept away by the current of constant criticism telling you that you somehow you are not enough. Take an active stance and reduce your exposure to these toxic influences." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 7. Don’t be a slob. Choices and consequences. So you are not at your optimum setpoint. The weight releasing hasn't happened. Caring about yourself on Day 1 is the first part of the journey. Don't let anyone shout you down while you're preaching good to yourself. Talk to the universe and yourself. You may not hear any reverb but your spirit hears every single word you are saying outloud or inwardly. Your spirit doesn't miss a thing. We are the things we tell ourselves. My grandmaw used to go to the mirror and tell herself, I love you. My grandparents lived in a shoe, they had so many children that it was driving grandmaw cray, cray. She couldn't lurve all of the bratty rattys without loving herself first. Care about you. I care. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 Please bring all of the colors of the rainbow back. The smoky purples and the dusky hues, the roses and neon pinks. Let's get some more color back UP in here. Colors are the rainbow to the soul. They are healers, too. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 Not letting the left hand know what the right hand is doing. Cross-addictions. I have more than a handful of relatives who've had the gastric bypass and/or sleeve/band. A few of them have rebounded with every single pound and then some. The appetite control center is in the brain. You can do this without surgery. I did. But I recommend sitting down with someone Face-to-Face for the best outcome/recovery from binge eating. Many dieters trade in food for alcohol, too. It may be gluten free and carbo free but it doesn't heal your relationship with food. http://scienceline.org/2015/01/alcoholism-after-gastric-bypass-is-it-in-your-mind-or-gut/ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 The final stages of pancreatic cancer are gruesome. When you give up all food and drink your days away the pancreas and liver can't accommodate that. They have a lifespan and when they're through, it's over. I've witnessed my share of alcoholism. The half has not been told. If you find yourself drinking more than eating, go for help before it's too late. Cross-addictions are real with rationalization. It's so important to break the binge eating cycles of hail and address all of the head games we play with ourself. Find activities you love to do and do them on your terms. All movement counts. Movement creates momentum. Momentum is a gift. Binge eaters wish they could find themselves on the other side of this in 30 days but it's going to take longer. There is no such thing as the Finish Line. Don't hold yourself back by focusing on any of those old goals. The old approaches will no longer serve you. If you've gained every pound back and then some, this tells me you were doing things you didn't want to do just in the name of weight loss. This is the recipe for gaining all of it back. But I detect pearls in your oysters. Focus on what you know how to do today, just for today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 25, 2016 Author Share Posted August 25, 2016 Lardons are a thing. Who knew. The more you know. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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MeadowLily Posted August 26, 2016 Author Share Posted August 26, 2016 Family isn't always blood or a group who shares common ancestry. It's the people in your life who want you in theirs. The ones who would do anything to see you smile and Love you no matter what. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 26, 2016 Author Share Posted August 26, 2016 This drink makes some people happy. Passed down through paleopeoples. 1/4 c. unsweetened undiluted cranberry concentrate that costs $25 for a small bottle 1 tablespoon organic unfiltered apple cider vinegar in 8 ounces of water. This helps paleo p ps. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 26, 2016 Author Share Posted August 26, 2016 http://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2016/08/24/490941032/instagramming-in-black-and-white-could-be-youre-depressed It's everywhere now. So the moral of that story is do everything in living color. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 26, 2016 Author Share Posted August 26, 2016 Today's radio spot. Sleep Shaming. Thomas Edison claimed to have only slept 4 hours anight and said "there is really no reason why men should go to bed at all." Sleep Shaming. Sleep is the brain's rinse cycle. Without it, damage is being done to your brain. Lack of sleep speeds up the development of cognitive impairments. Eyes wide open happens to diabetics. High blood glucose causes thirst, headaches which wake a person up at night. Low blood glucose also causes restless sleep, headaches and night sweats. Not to be confused with pre/post and meno meno pause. Teenagers sleep better than adults and expecting to sleep like you did at 17....you don't have those same hormones. Cumulative months and years of bad sleep, handwriting on the wall that hormones or blood glucose is stopping the flow of sleep. The brain needs to flush the de brie/debris out every day. It has to go offline to do that. So close yur lil baby eyes because you're getting very, very sleepy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 27, 2016 Author Share Posted August 27, 2016 https://thinkprogress.org/bakken-pipeline-injunction-hearing-ca5054efeeb9#.p47rxdoz8 My paleopeople. Paleo is confusing. Whole 30 is clear. No one owns the term Paleo. There are no hard fast rules for Paleo because everyone's definition is different. 80/20 or 60/40. I know what Paleo is and it's not full fat dairy, chia puddings or filled with Paleo treats. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WigyNgw3oW8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeadowLily Posted August 27, 2016 Author Share Posted August 27, 2016 No one has to live in my body or yours. Making up imaginary illnesses to please other people is not the way to go. Telling them you have imaginary food allergies or an illness, the universe is always listening. We are the things we tell ourselves and telling people repeatedly you have something that you really don't, well the universe may hand you something you don't want. Don't go there. Paw's belief about showing off. Don't show off for other people when you're riding a horse or a motorized anything. Snowmobiles, bikes, boats, ATV's.... When you show off, that apex can't hide the hurt and the pain will all make sense to you then. I showed off while riding my bike with look Maw no hands, I still bear those scars. Preventative vs. Reactive. That's the key. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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