MeadowLily

Honeycrisp... Apples are so good this time of year. There's another member here from a line of highly trained chefs from France. Someone she knows went to a top notch European doctor and they said...."You know, fruits and vegetables didn't get you here." Preventing obesity and disease and food addiction is not about eating more food or swapping back in all of the carbs for fats. I can tell you that fruits and vegetables didn't have a thing to do with my original condition either.

https://whole30.com/2017/05/tiger-blood-help/ Melissa ^^ answers questions about being underwhelmed and why you should follow through with your Reintro Phase, regardless >> https://whole30.com/2017/09/whole30-reintroduction-help/ I know many are conducting W30's round after round after round without any breaks and reintro phases. She addresses that, too. R2D12. Round 2 Day 12. Round 10 Day 300. Follow through until 30. Stop and Reintro. Gauge how you feel with your former foods and go from there.

What is the end game or results you're looking for. Are you making plans for your Reintro? If you are.... http://whole30.com/2014/06/really-start-whole30/ Throwing the towel in won't solve a thing. Melissa has a new Reintro article. It answers so many questions. https://whole30.com/2017/09/whole30-reintroduction-help/ You choose, tacking additional days on but whatever you do...follow through with the Reintro. "Thirty days of so much hard work completely wasted, because you’ve learned nothing about how these less healthy foods impact you. Don’t do that. Please. You’ve come this far—take the extra time to really reap the benefits of our carefully crafted reintroduction schedules. Be patient, and take the lessons you’ll learn in the coming days with you for the rest of your life. Rush this process, and you’ll be selling yourself short."

Read ISWF and then FFF. Food Freedom Forever. Yes. There are those who say you can live and stay in ketosis forever. Do you think you can....that is the question. Long-term sustainability. If there are insulin excursions with peanut m&m's and then hop back on the keto trail, bouncing back and forth, off and on - it's a choice to get off the merry-go-round with fear of food and carbs. Here's what Melissa says. https://www.instagram.com/p/BYyjDRGHbrP/

https://whole30.com/2017/09/whole30-reintroduction-help/ What would Melissa say? ^^ From what you've shared it is time to reintroduce. You are correct. You shouldn't try to wrangle around with it for 45, 60 or 90 days.

I didn't find it negative. I think your W30 was meticulous, very competent and well thought out. You put alot into it and you want some results. Wishing you a smooth transition from W30 through Reintro.

https://whole30.com/2017/09/dear-melissa-help-find-tiger-blood/ "The last word: Sometimes, people don’t think they’re feeling that much better until they start feeling worse again. Like, you’ll get to Day 31 and think, “I feel better but nothing ah-mazing,” but then you start to reintroduce and you’re all “OMG THIS FEELS LIKE CRAP! Is this (tired, foggy, craving, achy, blotchy, bloated, sluggish) REALLY how I used to feel?” Sometimes, you need the comparison for clarity. Just something to think about."

https://whole30.com/2017/09/whole30-reintroduction-help/

If I had to choose between thin and fit - I would choose fit every time. Does being thin really make you happy and free. There are people who weigh well over 300 lbs and they're happy and free. "Thin" doesn't come to them as a side effect of being happy and free. Being thin isn't the same as being healthy. Thin people may have a genetic variant that still puts them at risk of T2 or heart disease. Being thin does not guarantee perfect health. It's virtually impossible to judge Happy Awareness and Freedom by looking at the outward signs of being thin, thin, thin. I don't equate being thin with happiness or freedom. The assumption that thin or skinny people are always happier is not always true. Life is too short to find all of your happiness in being thin. It's not easy to find happiness within our innermost being and it's almost impossible to find it elsewhere.

Happy, Thin and Free. ^ Outwardly thin doesn't always equate to happiness or freedom. Outwardly thin can become a lifelong obsession right up until the last breath. I know older folkaronies who restrict their food, rock that thin thigh gap and they're not free or happy. They're pin thin with thin hair that looks like twigs from a lifetime of dieting, restricting food and tanking their thyroids. Go to the mirror, blow yourself a kiss and say, I love you. You're amazing.

The true essence of the grape is revealed when it's squeezed.

You and I both know that I am ready to go. Blow through those doors like TNT. I've blathered, foamed, talked to myself. Did it help me? Yes. It did. I miss the friendship of everyone who used to be here. They're long gone. Positive young grasshoppers all over this world are cut down in their youth with addiction of every kind. We look to our friends for support. We appreciate them. Friends who rescue us, encourage us and help us fly again. Good, good friends. Goodbyes make me cry. I'll be swinging back in here from time to time, defending my pea patch. I'll be reading the forum like others do.

I have a program and a doctor that I sit down with...Face-To-Face for accountability and support. I have a positive food management plan and I don't log my food because I know the drill. I don't share what I do or where I go because you need to find your pathway to recovery. How long has this been going on? Too long. The Food Addict's greatest lifelong struggle will be fighting against Relapse. The alcoholic has to give up drinking. For real. No one leaves A.A. with the idea that they can continue to drink and call themselves sober. Food Sober is everything. Recovery is my friend. It brings me peace. I can manage my food and it doesn't manage me. Food Addiction affects every area of your life. In the midst of full blown addiction, it can kill your dreams. Rob you of your self-esteem and it becomes the center of your wheelhouse. Food Addiction is a driver. It will drive you right into the ground. A downward spiral. I've used my W30 as one of my tools for recovery. I've only completed one compliant W30 on the first part of this journey in 2014. I used my W30 as the launching pad for food addiction recovery. I'm not starting over. I don't need to. The weapons of mass destruction are brutal for food addiction. Any addiction. Sliding back off the goose into a looser state of food abstinence- food sober state happens when the pain of food addiction subsides. This happens to addicts over and over and over again. Total Relapse. The body and mind are in cahoots with one another. They really don't care if you ever become Food Sober or any kind of sober. They are willing to give you the ride of your life. The body wants what it wants and the mind is hailbent on helping it out. Day after day. Year after year. During my recovery, I've learned to stop brutally beating myself up by continuing to eat the food offenders I cannot manage. The 1st year is the most difficult. Giving myself permission to continue eating them would not have led to my recovery. Your pathway to recovery may be very different. The Eating All The Things was the real-beating-myself- up that needed to STOP. Medicating myself with food did not bring me peace or comfort. My highest surrender was the pinnacle of my life and at the time of the greatest pain. When the pain subsides, sliding back off the goose with a Relapse can happen. I don't want to be in those stats and those numbers that say less than 5% of the people on the face of the planet can maintain their Recovery. So I fight and I PULL. That's what this has been all about. Recovery comes first so I don't have to continue to beat myself up with food.

https://whole30.com/2014/06/dear-melissa-eating-disorders/ Bottomline. ^^ Remember this. Where the rubber meets the road.