KRose Posted November 18, 2012 Share Posted November 18, 2012 Day 16 here. And wouldn't you know this is when my cravings should be ending, energy through the roof, the magic is coming through.... yet I'm all AND none of those things. That came out wrong. Let me try to explain. I have been diagnosed with PTSD resulting in an anxiety/panic disorder that I refuse to be medicated for, and have been psychologically treating for 8 years. During the past 8 years there have been bouts of depression, sometimes very severe. I have also been on and off Paleo for 3 years while dealing with an eating addiction (I once was a friend of Bill...) and this is my 2nd or 3rd attempt at W30 (never finishing). Then 16 days ago I decided I had had enough of the [email protected] and the BS to last a lifetime and jumped in and never turned back. For some reason I didn't really have many cravings, no crazy dips in energy or even sickness in those first days. Meal planning and prep was second nature. I was even getting those "I'm happy for no reason at all except for the fact I'm alive and well" moments/days. All amazing; I even know deep in my heart I will finish my W30 for the first time ever and stick to a Paleo based dietary intake after, and clean up every few months with W30 from now til eternity. Its all good. But for the past 48 have been absolutely miserable. Crying out of shear sadness, crying til I couldn't breathe, knowing a panic attack was coming. staying in bed for hours, knowing this is how depression stages start. Don't get me wrong, I have energy; I rode my bike to the park and had a picnic for lunch... never smiling once. So very strange for me. I am bored with being sad, bored beyond belief. I have read two 400 page books in the last 3 days out of boredom. And being bored makes me sad, sad makes me keep to myself, and the cycle continues. I am wondering if this has happened to anyone else mid W30.... complete and total sadness for no apparent reason. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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