jcress Posted December 2, 2014 Share Posted December 2, 2014 Lovely Forum members, I am jumping on this December 2nd whole30. I realized every time I attempt to do a whole30 I fail because my focus isn't right: My area of issue is HOW I eat and not WHAT I eat. Its much easier to get away with the same stuff that got me in this position in the first place by NOT following the meal template and timing guide. So, my whole30 "no slips, cheats, nada" means... ...I cannot snack or eat before bed.. as if my life and my health depends on it (which it DOES!) Otherwise, my whole30 begins to sag, garbage starts leaking out of my brain and before you know it I am in my roommates pantry eating her mega-stuffed oreos. (Currently regretting, stomach is crying) So I have prepped tomorrows meals. And know that this is the LAST TIME I FAIL. This is the time that counts. I am changing my life. I also realized that setting expectations (about weightloss, bloating, etc), makes me impatient AND obsessive. The key for me is to trust that my nutrition is sorted out, and to stop thinking about it..at all if I can. To have those cravings lose their power over me. To slay the sugar dragon once and for all. (Sticking to just blueberries until the sugar dragon is dead. like dead dead. Tomorrow I will have arrived at my destination. And the benefits will follow, I must only be patient. And not let the shadowy, menacing guilt and self doubt enter. I am strong! I know that my life will improve immensely if I keep this up for the whole30 days! I will break the cycle of addiction once and for all, and be on the road towards my body composition goals! (Which are lofty, unfortunately...I am a dancer dealing with a 30 pound weight gain.) I think I am brave for remaining in the semi-professional dance world, even if my colleagues have seen me fall like this to ill health. I grow stronger as a person because of it. I learn to relax and let go more, and to listen to my heart, not the judgement (or the more striking perceived judgements of others that I put upon myself) I am not going to lie, I am SO SCARED I am going to sabotage myself again, find my arm shoulder deep into that demonic pantry. I want so bad to have my hot body back..my tone, my muscles, to wear my cute clothes from last year. This is the end of that old self, that short-term satisfaction that temporarily eases the boredom. Here goes: Ill be doing copious logging for the ENTIRE time because I do not know at ALL how to do this without this forum. This is my only dedicated writing spot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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